I hate writing these things but then i suppose who really enjoys it? I should start with what to call me probably :/ My name that was given to me at my birth is odd, doesn't sound right and i haven't been called by in so long i literally forget to respond to it, i have been called by so many names over the years by so many different people, so you VF-er people can call me Polymorph or Poly for short.
I'm an on and off VF veteran aka I've been coming and going from this website under various usernames for about 14 years now give or take .. long enough to remember when those lame little flash games were still up in the "chill" section of the old drop bar put it that way. I've seen this place go through many changes in that time and witnessed SO much drama that I'm now fluent in sarcasm and nonchalance ... though having said that i have also met some of the most important people I've known in my life through this website so i will always have a soft spot for it.
I have lived a hard life .. I know EVERYONE thinks they've lived a hard life nowadays but legitimately my run of bad experiences that would break most people is scarcely believable even to myself and i bloody well lived it 0_0 I don't like talking about it and i especially don't like whining about it but as a result i do suffer from quite serious mental health problems aka paranoid schizophrenia, recurring P.T.S.D, on and off depression and insomnia. I state these things openly not looking for sympathy or drama but because I'm here looking to make friends and although if i never told you about my conditions even if you met me in person you would never know due to me becoming EXTREMELY proficient at hiding and managing them I believe in giving people the option of "backing out" as it were before they become invested in me and believe me when i say i harbor no ill will to those who do decide that all sounds like a big bunch of unwanted ball ache D:
Culturally and Genetically I'm an odd one :/ My Fathers side of the family is mixed Irish and Romany traveller predominantly and My Mothers side come from an old German family with a lot of branches all over the world including Sweden, Scotland and France. Culturally however i was born and raised in England and as a result of neither side of my family being particularly enthusiastic to "claim me" for lack of better wording and also my never feeling particularly at home amongst my native Brits either I've always been a bit of an outsider marching to the beat of my own drum and although it's taken me many years i think I'm finally starting to make peace with that though i still feel a longing and a pull to some far off place I'll one day feel i belong and be able to call home.
I've gone a bit reclusive in my old age and i am pretty much just here to make friends and branch out my social circles/ meet people with similar interests or honestly we can have nothing in common at all so long as we get along :)
I like to randomly give people high rates and picture props for no other reason than to make them feel good about themselves :) I'm not a lurker or anything and don't expect anything in return fyi, i just like the idea of being able to do a simple little thing that'll make someone happy for a second and costs me nothing.
Random acts of kindness.
Storms, Rain, Snow and all sorts of moody miserable weather most people can't stand.
Going for walks in the woods at night and exploring abandoned places.
Dark ethereal music.
Cheesy horror movies that are so bad or low budget they become amusing in themselves and good old fashioned horror movies and novels.
Creative people with a genuine passion for something.
Going on spontaneous adventures.
R.P.G,S and anything immersive that requires imagination and you can lose yourself in.
Dressing up and making my own clothes.
2 dimensional personalities aka people who have decided this thing is my niche in life and i shall have no other aspect to my personality ¬¬ people are supposed to be complex and people who try to make their life exclusively about one thing tend to end up miserable and as such make poor conversationalists/ are a bore to be around. If you wrote your bio and had to lead with your political stance, religious belief, philosophical beliefs, sexuality, gender or obscure dietary requirements there is a high chance you are probably such an individual.
Hyper aggressive individuals.
Edge lords who are always looking for the next thing to complain about.
In the singing, shattered midnight By the coral sands of time Through the bloody gates of heaven Past the sentries in my mind
Bring about the change so quickly Bring about the terror’s night Bring about the blood of lovers Bring about the smell of fright
I see you watching where I walk Through the moonlit jasmine field Listen closely as I talk About the stars and their lovers past
Past fields of poppies, burning bright Into towers of Blackened Bone Follow me, Bastard of Caine, Come with me. I have no home.
As I drain your life’s blood sweetly As you sigh into my warm hands As I suck your madness neatly Streaming down like crimson bands
I dance the dance of the fool And pray you find me mad For if you lay hands upon the root You’ll know me, without illusion And find me guilty of the truth