Oh hai der. I see you've stumbled across my account. Don't mind it, it's pretty much trash lmao
Welp, some stuff about me; I'm a 22 y/o cannabis using, anxiety filled, fantasy living, meme loving, hippie goth girl blogging about her life. Probably will complain about a lot of shit because I don't have anywhere else to vent atm. So be prepared to see a lot of bitching haha. (Or just a lot of pathetic gross sad shit when I'm being a sad sap)
A little about myself; I work in a clothing retail store atm, trying to save up to get my own place somewhere with me and the boyfriend. I love my job, and though I bitch about it a lot, I'm thankful for it and especially the wonderful people I work with.
I spend a lot of time in my thoughts. My favorite thing to do is have a smoke and sit back and just dive into myself for hours on end. Either in the silence or while listening to music. I don't really like putting my thoughts into words, so they usually manifest into extreamly vivid images or "movies" in my head. Either that or I put it on paper in the form of a drawing.
Speaking of drawing, I love to draw/paint/sculpt and any other form of creating. I have so many of my old sketchbooks piled up on my bookshelf from years of drawing, it's horrible and hilarious to go back and laugh at and see how much i've improved over the years. (I am however sensitive now to post my artwork online, due to the harassment of a few certain unstable stalkers who have repetitively harassed me and attempted to attack me. So I don't really post online anymore except for every so often. Sorry bout dat, sensitive topic and all.)
I should also probably establish I have horrible social anxiety and anxiety in general, so I tend to be....terrible with conversations most of the time. I don't like making eye contact (hooray for computer screens!), I hate small talk, and I apologize way too much out of compulsion. I'm just a generally really nervous person who is paranoid. So I apologize in advanced if I come off a little defensive or uninterested at first. (also since I am in a relationship, please don't send me any weird flirty messages or dick pics, I'm not interested and it makes me uncomfortable)
I also love to read!! From a nice t h i c c book about Ravens or Mountains of Madness, to a comic about a guy named Johnny that likes to slaughter people. Manga is also super awesome too! (I have quite the collection of manga and comic books muahaha) I really enjoy H.P Lovecraft's work most. Dagon, The Call of Cthulhu, At The Mountains of Madness, and The Shadow Over Innsmouth are my favorites. Stephen King is also another favorite author of mine. The Mist, IT, Misery, and Rose Madder are my favorites by him.
I am also the proud mommy of two baby gerbils! They're brothers from the same litter, and their names are Bailey and Benny. I absolutely adore rodents, so if you ever want to talk to me about something, cute fuzzy rodent babies are probably a good conversation starter haha. I also have 3 cats!!
I think thats about it for now though. I'll add or subtract more later if I feel the need to do so.
Eating, sleeping, drawing, cooking, reading, playing with my gerbil babies, organizing my altar, sniffing candles, smoking leaf, staring into space, daydreaming, napping, baths with fancy bath bombs
People (Anthropophobic), small talk, heat (summer time), sleeping without a fan on, being expected to socialize all the time and getting shit for not, having to get up right after i sit down after a long day (happens all the time uhg), being awake lol
My ultimate favorite musician is Devin Townsend. I have never in my life been obsessed with a famous person until I discovered heavy Devy. His music literally latched onto my soul and hasn't ever let go and it just makes me feel so alive. Uhg I love him.
Some other bands/artists I'm into OTHER than Devin Townsend: Sisters of Mercy, Bauhaus, The Cure, A Perfect Circle, Opeth, Strapping Young Lad, Nine Inch Nails, The Birthday Massacre, System of a Down, Nightwish, London After Midnight, Blind Guardian, Linkin Park, Allegaeon, Celtic Women, Akira Yamaoka, Blockhead, Carbon Based Lifeforms, Blank Banshee, Saint Pepsi, Shpongle, XXYYXX, Sacred Tapestry, PrisimCorp, Pogo, The Prodigy, and some other stuff I'll add later.