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My name is Alisa sounds just like it is spelled. I am 30 years old and have been on VF for a few years now. Gave up the rate bar years ago so don't bother doing a rate on me, so I just won't just rate you back. When I sit and consider who I am or what I am about two words come to mind. Quiet chaos. I am intelligent, beautiful (although I didn't really grow into my beauty until I was in my early twenties and my sexuality until my mid twenties. Maybe because I was so torn mentally when I was younger. I still am torn. My mind goes back and forth as I struggle to remind myself of who I am. I am loyal to you until you are untrue to me. I can be a bitch while still being a best friend. I am into anime deeply, I also draw and write poems that mostly go unshared. I have been in love and out of love. I have two cats, Thanatos and Bacchus that I hold very dear to me. I have a tarantula named Aurora Rose. I have found a few very good friends here on VF Emi, Nat, Gabby, Rach, Synn and my Mother. My music style would be all forms of metal. Although if I could only listen to one band for the rest of my life it would be KoRn. They have song for everything it seems. I grew up in Utah and just recently moved to California the outcome of that is still unknown to me. Written By my Sister, Jennifer
Some anime I love, obviously Naruto and Bleach . I have bipolar disorder, severe depression and panic attacks. Which leaves room for a lot to say. But, not right now. I wrote that sentences a while back but, I have decided to NOT elaborate on it any more as it is a depressing subject obviously. I don't need to be reminded of it anymore then I am throughout the normal day. I love to read science fiction, fantasy novels, comics and mangas. My favorite authors are Robert Jordan, Dennis L. McKiernan, Frank and Brian Herbert and John L. Anderson. Here is some more info about me some of it is the same as above. Listening to music. Mostly KoRn, Marilyn Manson and Cradle Of Filth. Those are my 3 favorite bands but there are a lot more that I love. Watching anime (as I have said or rather my sister).Naruto, Bleach, Death Note, Ouran High School Host Club, Trinity Blood and Loveless being my top 6 animes. I spend all my computer time on Neopets, VF and WoW. However, I haven't been able to be on WOW in a while.


Quotes
You fall on your knees. You beg, you plead. Can I be someone else for all the time I hate myself.

You failure devour your heart in every hour. Your drowning in your imperfection.

"I won't be broken again, I've got to breath, I can't keep going under"

You dance with black roses and weep with sunshine.

My Loveless name

Heartless; One Without A Heart.

A Gothic Romance by Cradle of Filth

For hours I scoured the surrounding grounds
In vain that we might meet
When storm clouds broke, ashened, fatigued
I sought refuge in a cemetery



I am totally in love with Uchiha Itachi and this is my favorite AMV of him.



Favorite Song from Naruto




Favorite Song of ItaxSaku



Favorite Song Of The Week

Haunted by Evanescence

Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here

When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there

Watching me
Wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you
Loving you
I won't let you pull me down

Hunting you I can smell you alive
Your heart pounding in my head

Watching me
Wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me
Raping me
Watching me
(Watching me
Wanting me)
I can feel you pull me down
(Fearing you
Loving you)
I won't let you pull me down