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Sex: female
Age: 18
Location: Baltimore Inner Harbor, Maryland, United States
Orientation: Straight
Status: Single
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Member since: August 16, 2007
Last logged in: May 25, 2012, 10:01pm
Occupation: Student/ Fangirl/ Writer/ Nutcase
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Latest Journal Entry: No Subject   May 23, 2012, 02:00am

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ZARAKI_11

For as many times as I have written about myself for various profiles around the internet, I have yet to master what should be said. Often times I read over things I have written and I'm left wondering what convinced me that it was the best thing to say.

I figure I should keep this short, sweet, and entertaining. Then again, that's what I figure, not what I'll end up doing.

The general introduction: My name is Kim, I go by the alias 'Soule Rellim'. I'm 19, American, and mentally disfigured. Freshman in college.

I want to tell you that I'm more than likely the weirdest person you've ever met, but I can't speak for how you perceive things. Not only that, but it seems as if everyone says that same thing. I don't like to be judged.

I consider myself an old soul because I am not like most of the people I've met.

I can't aptly explain who I am and what makes me tick. I have never thought of myself as someone who was composed, or well spoken. I am reckless, impulsive, and although I spend most of my life in my mind, I'm not very logical.

I am artsy, and I prefer to write about and paint things that don't make a lick of sense. I do it because it's the only way I can convey my feelings; not because it makes me seem worldly or unique.

I don't feel sane and I often wonder whether I should get help, or continue the way I am. After all, I've spent the better part of 19 years living this way so why should I change who I've become.

I struggle with my self-esteem, my self-worth, and whether or not I'm a good person. I sin just as often as I breathe and I am not religious. I would prefer to spend my time in a darkened room than out in a crowd. I'm a night owl and I rarely get up before noon, unless it is absolutely necessary.

I suffer from dyslexia, insomnia, and OCD. I find it hard to articulate when put on the spot and therefore I'm quiet when in public. I also smoke, and drink more often than I should.

My inspirations are morbid, dark, and strange; I'm not ashamed of this and I have never been. I have accepted the fact that I am different and I'm happy with it. Or, happy as I can possibly be.

Few people know the real me and I shrink back whenever I feel as if they're on to me. I struggle with the belief that if anyone knew who I really am then I would be alone. Even though I am.

I'm a mental masochist and I enjoy mental struggles: knowledge is power. I also believe that intelligence is highly attractive.

I have more bad qualities than good; I wish I was lying. If this doesn't disturb you, I suppose there's a chance for friendship.

I await your contact.

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  • Pleasantries


  • Alexander the Great
    Archeology/Paleontology
    Monsterquest
    The Joker
    Classic Things
    Prehistoric Things
    Vintage Clothing
    Belt Buckles
    Anime/Manga
    Black and White Movies
    Nosferatu
    Cemeteries/Graveyards
    Yellow Balloons
    Eyeliner
    Dinosaurs
    Europe
    Polka Dots
    DDR
    Batman
    Japanese Culture
    Energy Drinks
    Comics
    Roman/Greek Mythology/War
    Shopping
    Friends
    Victorian Era
    Reading/Books
    Movies
    Tea
    Popcorn
    Full Moons
    Rainy Days
    Halloween Costumes
    Greek Billionaires
    Kick Boxing
    Late Nights
    Snow
    Master/Servant Complexes
    Movie Soundtracks
    Nail Polish
    Fruit Punch
    Hair Dye
    Painting
    United Kingdom
    Operas
    Fog

    Apples
    Midnight
    Fishing
    Vampires
    Lycanthropy
    Platform Boots
    Tragic Romance Movies
    Sunsets
    The Frankenstein Monster
    Spikes
    Black Nail Polish
    Techno-Electro/Club Music
    Metal/Rock/Alternative
    Cheesy Horror Films
    Accomplishments
    Sad,Slow Songs
    Candy Necklaces
    Drag Queens
    Neon Lights
    Icee's/Slurpies
    Cloudy Days
    Good Music
    Beating a Video Game
    Writing Stories
    Dunkin' Donuts
    Video Games
    Pink
    New Clothes
    School Plays
    Make-up/Costume Design
    HTML
    Visiting the Theatre


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  • Irritants


  • Writer's Block
    The Bible
    Headaches
    Math
    Children
    War
    Racism
    Kiss-Asses/Suck Ups
    Terrorism
    Tacky Profiles
    Ignorance
    Bad Break-Ups
    Stupid Commercials
    Bad Movies
    Religion
    No Motivation
    People
    The Way People Drive
    Bad Animes/Mangas
    Feeling Angry
    Bad Songs
    Terrible Music
    Drama
    Waiting Lists at the Library
    Bad Books
    CDs That Skip
    Rap Music
    Homework
    Deadlines
    Homophobes
    After-Parties
    Junk Drawers
    Cluttered Desks
    Hoarding
    Chemicals
    Trash
    Mullets
    Vitamins
    Closed Minds
    Ignorant People
    Troublemakers
    Prima Donnas
    Bad Actors/Actresses
    Trends
    Scammers/Scams
    Exams
    Dependence
    Peanuts
    Liars
    Fakes
    Communists
    Dictators
    Hitler
    Womanizers
    Rapists
    Chores
    Loud People
    Overdue/Late Fees
    Slow Computers
    Peer Pressure
    Weakness of the Human Mind
    Not Having Enough Time
    No Ambition
    Illiteracy
    College Fees
    Child Predators
    Sex Offenders
    Senseless Killing
    Sore Muscles
    Gym Class
    Running
    Burnt Food
    Rudeness
    Bad Hygiene
    Stomach Aches
    Catching Colds/Flus
    Hatred
    Being Rushed
    Bright, Sunny Days
    Yard Work
    My Alarm Clock
    Raw Eggs
    Droughts
    Cold Donuts
    Eating Chicken
    Paranoia
    Rate Whores
    Wannabes
    Heights
    Addictions
    Taking Notes
    Bad Food
    Construction Zones
    Middle of Nowhere
    Crowded Rooms/Places
    Tight Spaces
    Dentist's Office
    Being the Center of Attention
    Talking To Large Audiences
    Grape/Watermelon-Flavored Candy
    Mass Histeria
    Rude Americans
    Genocide
    Complications
    The Smell of Easy Cheese
    The Color Brown


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  • Drugs for your 'Drums



  • A Fire Inside
    A Perfect Circle
    Alice In Chains
    All Time Low
    And One
    Angelspit
    Annie Lennox
    Apocalyptica
    Apoptygma Berzerk
    Aston Magna
    Avenged Sevenfold
    Bach
    Beastie Boys
    Black Sabbath
    Black Stone Cherry
    Blaqk Audio
    Bloodhound Gang
    Breaking Benjamin
    Bullet for My Valentine
    Cage the Elephant
    Cascada
    Celldweller
    Cinema Bizarre
    CKY
    Coal Chamber
    Cobra Starship
    Coheed and Cambria
    Combichrist
    Cranberries, The
    Deadstar Assembly
    Deathstars
    Disturbed
    Doomsday Refreshment Committee
    Dream Theater
    Drowning Pool
    Duderstadt
    Eagles
    Eighteen Visions
    Eisbrecher
    Elvis Costello
    Elvis Presley
    Emilie Autumn
    Epica
    Excision
    Finger Eleven
    Five Finger Death Punch
    Fray, The
    God Module
    Groove Coverage
    HIM
    Hinder
    Iron Maiden
    John Lennon
    Kamelot
    Killswitch Engage
    Kiss
    Korn
    Lacrimas Profundere
    Lacuna Coil
    Laibach
    Lamb of God
    Lifehouse
    Mandragora Scream
    Massiv In Mensch
    Megaherz
    Metallica
    Moonspell
    Mozart
    Nevada Tan
    Nightwish
    Nine Inch Nails
    Nirvana
    Orgy
    Pantera
    Papa Roach
    Placebo
    Poets of the Fall

    Police
    Queen
    Queens of the Stone Age
    Rage Against the Machine
    Rammstein
    Ramones
    Red Hot Chili Peppers
    Rise Against
    Rob Zombie
    Robert Plant
    Rush
    Saliva
    Santana
    Savage Garden
    Seether
    Shadow Reichenstein
    Shadows Fall
    Skillet
    Slipknot
    Smashing Pumpkins
    Smile Empty Soul
    Spice Girls
    Spider Bait
    Static-X
    Stone Sour
    Stone Temple Pilots
    Switchfoot
    Symphony X
    Tears for Fears
    Three Days Grace
    Time Requiem
    Tokio Hotel
    Trapt
    Trivium
    Twisted Sister
    Type O Negative
    Used, The
    UVERworld
    Van Halen
    Venom
    Voivod
    Wednesday 13
    White Zombie
    Within Temptation
    Wumpscut
    X-Japan
    Zeromancer
    Zombie Girl
    3 Doors Down
    69 Eyes


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  • Allegiance

  • I've dedicated this box to the cult, Sweethearts, because it's played a rather large part in my life since May 24th 2008. So it deserves its own special box =D

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