Hi there

I'm Kim,m 19 years old and living with my soon to be husband in beverwijk. I am a housewife and I love it! Don't think I just sit on my Ass all day, it's a fulltime job. Cleaning the house, taking care of the Pets. And make sure we have a nice healthy dinner at the table everyday!

I used to be a lesbian, but i met this person on the internet. and after sum time we met, and now we are going to get merried soon. I know this sound stupid but i dont love sex with guys. But i do love sex with him Because he is my love and my soul. If I'm in bed wioth him i'm there with him not with a guy.. Sounds weird i know. It's ok for him that i still have sex with girls and all because he know I will never leave him!

I didn't completed school, I was a put in a hospital when i was 14 and after that i thought school doesn't make me happy so I QUIT! I'm a patient for 12 years now and for the first time in my life I feel happy. being a housewife and stuff! I did learned something. I've learned piercing from a nice lady with her own body-art salon and yes I'm good at it. I also help out at th lokal animal hospital, Non profit offcourse! I just love animals.

I got this Borderline personality disorder and I dont care what you think about that. It's not who I am, it's what I have. I also take med's and you can tell me that not good blablabla but I don't care! If i don't take them I will be this crying wreck!

I love animals! I got 2 cats, Luna and Kyra. Luna i found and i was her mother for 2 months. Everyday I had to feed her but she is my BIGGEST love! Kyra I got from a friend, she's so pretty and I also love her! I also got 3 Python regius and 2 Boa c.c. they are all tamed and cute. The 2 little Boa's are only 1 year old now and not that big. Can't wait thill they are! :P

Loves

Stephanie
My Very best friend!

Love
Sex
Friends
Making Pictures
Music
Clothes
Cats
Snakes
Chocolate
Milk
Pink
Make-up
Dancing
FUN
Flirting ;]
Vf
GothicModels
Dutch Kittens!
Hugging
Fish
Meat
Veggies
Colours
Piercings
Tattoo's
Art

Music

CombiChrist
Vnv Nation
K's Choice
Apocalyptica
The Ramones
Amy Studt
Meredith Brooks
NIN
MM
Nas Drovje
Evanescense
Misfits

Writing

A commonly used word to remember some features of
borderline personality disorder is PRAISE:
P - Paranoid ideas
R - Relationship instability
A - Angry outbursts, affective instability, abandonment fears
I - Impulsive behavior, identity disturbance
S - Suicidal behavior
E - Emptiness
Thoughts

I wish that i could kiss you right now..
I wish that i could hold you now..
I wish that everything was gone..

But not my love for you..
that will never go away..

sometimes you have that..
you meet someone and you just feel its ok..
thats what i feel now..
I cant touch you anymore..
can't kiss you anymore..
but in my heart...
you will be forever..

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I will never leave you my love..
And i love you coz you give me freedom..
and you make me feel whole again..
but mostly i love you..
because you let me free..
free to do what i want...
what i need..
and free in what i feel...
My heart will bleed for you my love..

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And you girls..
the Girls from DK
You're so nice to me..
even when i am totally f*cked up..
so here a place for you girls..
Love you all!

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My family
I hate them..
I wish they didnt excist..
they think i'm still a child..
but i'm not..
i know i'm only 19..
but i have seen so much more then that..
I've seen big fights between lovers..
and Depressing ppl in one house..
i've seen the death of ppl i love..
and they where to young to die...
And yes i am gonna merry Martijn!
and you cant stop me from doing that!!!
nothing can stop me from doing what i want!!

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so this was it..
for now..
maybe... maybe i will trust ppl someday again
but now i can't..
i can shout and scream what i feel..
but nobody will know how i feel..
deep inside..
i trusted one person..
and she's gone ...
lets hope i can find someone that can let me feel..
feel ME again..
coz now..
i just feel like how ppl see me..

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Crying... all day now..
cutting but not telling.
i need help..
but i cant trust someone enough to help me..

Hates

Fighting
Crying
Loving
Hurding
Anorexia
Boulimia
Suicide
Caring
Meanings
Thinking