Signed up in 2004, had fancy self-made layouts, bought premium membership, got featured, created and joined cults, met new friends and been away for months... guess I've had a bit of VF-history, so don't be surprised if I don't check back every day...

A bit of VF sociology for your entertainment
TOP CRAP ON VF - beware!!!

"I'm a very opinionated person and I know everybody on this site thinks that I'm a spoiled little brag... " - well, first of all, I highly doubt anybody thinks of you at all, secondly I don't think that sticking your nose into stuff that's none of your business and never listening to others makes you an OPINIONATED person. It just shows that you're an ignorant, immature kiddo.

"I can spell every word in the dictionary/dictionerry." - that's not such a great achievment at the age of 15, hun'. 12 years ago it would have been a bigger deal though.

"I speak five languages and my IQ is 150, I have papers about it." - and in what way does it make you a better person? If you were emotionally intelligent, you wouldn't feel the need to let the whole world know about it anyway.

"I'm not a goth. I'm myself and I cannot be labelled." - yeah, and you're the only person who cannot be labelled in the whole universe, again. And why would you be a goth? Just because you wear black like millions of other kids who think Korn or Rasmus is "gauthique"?

"I went through plastic surgery when I turned 18 because I care about my appearance and I simply feel better this way, DEAL WITH IT / GET OVER IT." - No way, I think I will have sleepless nights because of this, right. I can't stop thinking of you - a complete stranger 20 thousand kilometers away from me - having plastic tits.

"This is my beloved boyfriend; don't try to steal him, he adores me. Hands off bitches, he is all mine!" - yeah, sure, every chick who gets to see a photoshopped picture of him would cross the ocean only to steal him from you. If he loves you so much, he wouldn't be enticed so easily anyway.

"Don't tell me I'm beautiful and unique because I know that. Don't say things like "nice profile, 10 for you", only leave me a comment if you have something intelligent to say." - well, yeah, first comments are usually written about the latest discoveries in cancer research or a Nobel-Prize winning essay on world peace.

"I don't need your stupid comments and new friends on VF. I'm the most popular girl in our area and I don't give a fuck what you rate me." - what makes this comment particularly genuine is that fact that it's usually pursued by the following remark:

"I'm a premium, bitch, I can see you!" - come on, for heaven's sake!!! You can't be serious!!! However, it can get even more childish, I've already seen the following remarkable threat:

"Don't mess with me: my brother has known Jet since kindergarten. / I have admins for friends." - OMG, I've already ordered a copy of the Holy Bible to be able to pray every night, I'm so damn afraid now.

"Don't ask me if I can help you with html because I will not help you, bitch. Get yourself a life" - it's a big, big shame, I really thought you're the only person in the whole world who knows what html stands for. Yeah, I cannot just google what I want or click "view source", I definitely ::::have to:::: ask for YOUR guidance as you are the ::::only:::: person who COULD help me -but of course you won't. I think I will hang myself now.

Now... did I leave anything out?

Dear friends, I just couldn't help myself and made a list of my absolute CPPP's, namely Community Portal Pet Peeves. These are the things that truly piss me off on myspace and other sites, so... well, you know who you are! XDD

- advertisement-ridden hackers (for heaven's sake, I only click on an ad if I want to support the site owner because he/she fucking deserves it, which obviously means that I'm not going to do that for an intrusive, pushy cocksucker I don't even know!!!)

- shallow artist-wannabes posting superficial blogs three times a day (with just a link – normally youtube – or some hoax-like repost in it)

- „please comment on my new pix" bulletins on myspace, AT LEAST five times a day

- kiddos adding photoshopped pictures of well-known paintings, referring to them as „their" art

- people who regularly visit your profile/blog and never ever comment, inc. real-life friends

- people who do not – from some sort of a strange reason – use punctuation of any kind

- people who add me on msn just because they want to know where I bought my skirt

- people who fucking repost everything without thinking first: many of these messages are fucking hoax-craps (I specially dislike the „Tom is closing myspace" and the „if you pass this on, you get a free iPod"-kind of messages)!

- friend collectors and picture stealers (how pathetic can you get? and how pointless that is?!)

- random acquiantances on iwiw who only accept add requests by their 20 close friends

- assholes on soulseek who do not allow more than two uploads per user (why does it disturb anybody, and what's the point of sharing files then???)

- when I see that ld50's „normal questions" thread only contains questions but never any answers (nobody actually gives a fuck abt the others)

- the funniest shit: the fact that the majority of VF admins tell you well in advance that you shouldn't bother them with:

· "problems with ratings or downraters
· reporting users for nudity
· complaining about other users
· transferring your premium membership
· transferring cult ownership
· any other site-related problems"

so you begin to wonder why the hell they are actually site administrators if you're better off praying to God… *lmao*

And now... well, let's face the facts. I just looove surveys and quizes. The same applies to personality tests. Yes, I have a vein for psychology.

It was such a naive idea to make a survey with such complex, thought-provoking questions that I simply had to fill it. :) -lol- Now you really have an idea what I voted last month at the latest elections (and the same thing four years ago, by the way... at least I'm consistent in my views ;).

What is your stand on.....
Abortion?:	I'm pro-choice, though I could never do it, no matter what. It's still better than killing a newborn baby or letting a child suffer for long years. In certain cases, it may be the only solution for everyone involved.
Death Penalty?:	I'm against it, we cannot play god. Prison-life should be much tougher though and penalties much stricter.
Prostitution?:	It's a naive idea to take steps to demoulish it, it's the 'most ancient profession' after all. Let them do their job and control them more carefully to avoid diseases and try to stop AIDS.
Alcohol?:	Medicine if not abused or used in an addictive way.
Marijuana?:	Should be legalised, everybody can obtain it and it's natural. (Doesn't have effect on me though.) It's stupid you may be in danger due to the lack of control (somebody selling you bad homemade stuff) and it's silly the goverment loses tax on a product so widely-used.
Other drugs?:	A complex issue, the goverment's current attitude must be supervised for sure.
Gay marriage?:	Let them give the choice to do what they feel like doing as long as they don't hurt anybody. I give them my full support.
Illegal immigrants?:	Change immigration law or world economics. I personally do not care where my doctor was born as long as he is a good doctor.
Smoking?:	I hate it, people should be asked not to smoke in restaurants and public places, but not much we can do about it in this country where everybody smokes everywhere.
Drunk driving?:	Don't do it, as easy a that.
Cloning?:	It's a popular view to be against it, but think of it as perhaps the only thing that can save the life of a creature or a species (by changing its biological setting e.g. chromosomes etc) and you'll see it in a different light.
Racism?:	I have zero tolerance when it comes to this issue. Moreover, it lacks rationals, too.
Premarital sex?:	Oh come on, does this term still exist?
Religion?:	Essential for the community from the point of survival, no real spiritual background these days though. Might serve as a guidance for many at the same time.
The war in Iraq?:	Never should have happened.
Bush?:	Looks like a monkey.
Downloading music?:	As long as cds cost more than what you make a day, there's no solution for the problem. I try to support artists in every possible way though.
The legal drinking age?:	Ok, certain rules are needed, but nobody takes this one seriously. 21 for poor Americans is particularly stupid. It's up to your individual decision: I never got drunk before my 18th birthday. Simply didn't feel the need to.
Porn?:	Nothing special, it's hard to find truly exciting ones. Suggesting things, to me at least, is sexier than showing everything without boundaries.
Suicide?:	Only a surface solution that makes things even harder afterwards.
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PERSONALITY :)

Your Birthdate: October 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

People Envy Your Ingenuity

You're a person with unique ideas, big plans, and a zany outlook on life. Many people look to you for inspiration. People envy your creativity and "who cares?" attitude. They feel very ordinary next to you - and they usually are!

You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read. Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are: A true wordsmith - a master of words Original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration Highly energetic, up for any challenge Entertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world. And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it! The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

Your Psyche is Violet

You are spiritual, intuitive, and serene. People trust you to rescue them from bad situations, and you usually come through. While you are quite enlightened, you find that your path is very lonely. When you are too violet: you can't connect to ordinary life or ordinary people When you don't have enough violet: you lack wisdom and can't learn from the past

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

Your Personality is 27% Addictive

You don't have an addictive personality - at least, not usually. You can indulge in vices freely, and there's little chance that you'll get hooked.

You Are 72% Addicted to Myspace

Your Myspace addiction factor is: High You are officially addicted to Myspace. It's quite possible you haven't seen a real person in days.

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing. You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere. And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile. You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about. You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid. Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen. Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

You Are 51% Impulsive

You're quite impulsive, but you never are reckless. You qualify as a very spontaneous person, but you still know how to honor your commitments. And while responsibility doesn't come easy to you, having fun does!

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Overall, you are very content in your life. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

You Are 24% American

You're as American as Key Lime Tofu Pie Otherwise known as un-American! You belong in Cairo or Paris... Get out fast - before you end up in Gitmo!

Your Career Personality: Capable, Friendly, and Energetic

Your Ideal Careers: Actor Advertising Executive Artist Counselor Entrepreneur Musician Politician Psychologist Teacher Television Reporter

You Should Be A Poet

You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways. And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery... Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever. You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words. You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel. People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation. When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

Your Inner European is Dutch!

Open minded and tolerant. You're up for just about anything.

You Are a Drama Princess (or Prince)

(You are more dramatic than 30% of the population.) You're not over the top dramatic, but you have your moments. You know how to steal the spotlight... And how to act out to get your way. People around you know that you're good for a laugh. But at times, your drama gets a bit too much for everyone. Tone it down a tad, and you'll still be the center of attention.

WORLD VIEW, POLITICS

You scored as Idealist. Idealism centers around the belief that we are moving towards something greater. An odd mix of evolutionist and spiritualist, you see the divine within ourselves, waiting to emerge over time. Many religious traditions express how the divine spirit lost its identity, thus creating our world of turmoil, but in time it will find itself and all things will again become one. Idealist 100% Cultural Creative 81% Existentialist 56% Postmodernist 56% Fundamentalist 56% Materialist 50% Modernist 44% Romanticist 19% What is Your World View? (updated) created with QuizFarm.com

Your Political Profile:

Overall: 30% Conservative, 70% Liberal

Social Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

SCENE-RELATED ISSUES :)

Romantic Goth 63% Old-school Goth 63% Industrial/Rivet-Head 63% Perky Goff 63% Cyber-goth 63% Anything-Goes Goth 58% Ethereal Goth 46% Death Rocker 33% Fantasy Goth 17% Understanding Outsider 13% Confused Outsider 0% What subcategory of Goth best fits you? created with QuizFarm.com

What subcategory of Goth best fits you?
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What is YOUR industrial band?

You are VNV nation.VNV nation is a 2 man group. Ronan Harris has an Amazing voice. Their lyrics mostly deal with Anti War issues and or Futuristic type shit. One of the most inspirational industrial bands today ,although they could easily be classified as Techno. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Which Shame to Industrial Music Am I?

You are Ronan Harris of VNV Nation. You have probably single-handedly sold more Access Virus synthesizers than their entire marketing campaign. Your reused presets leave everything you do sounding almost identical, including your remixes and production for other bands. You carry a sword, you carry a sword (through a battlefield).Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

What electronic genre are you? Industrial Dance Heavy, Hard, Faster, More!!

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This little short story-like thingy is by me. I didn't add it because I think it'd be a masterpiece, but simply because it tells a lot about me, therefore it belongs to my profile.

Fragile

Peacefully and calmly, the kitten sat at the entrance. Nobody knew how it ended up there, but it seemed to be at ease with its new location. People passed by with morning-scurry in their eyes, no one gave a thought about the tiny visitor. The little thing appeared to be utterly alone, yet in a cheerful mood. Its hair was scruffy and windswept. Red and white, with brown stripes, it clearly derived from an ethnically diverse family, I concluded.

Carefully, I decided to approach the kitty, knowing that I might scare him away. He did not move, in fact he let me take him in my laps as though we had been long-term buddies. I could easily touch him, hold him, play with him. He seemed to trust me from the very first moment I made a step in his direction.

He was so small that I could comfortably have him sit in my two palms. Light as a feather, he looked at me playfully with his freshly-opened eyes. I could feel his soft skin and the warmth of his tiny body.

All of a sudden, a wave of fear crossed my stomach. It hit me as I realized how vulnerable he actually was. Just a bad move, and I can hurt him, crash him, destroy him … within a second. Too easy to harm such a fragile little creature.

But the kitten had no awareness of these thoughts. He continued the game with me, happily and without a care for the world. The notion of fear had not yet made its footprint in his genes, his consciousness was still free from pain and hurt. His instincts had not yet warned him about human cruelty; he had never encountered the experience of being the weakest, being the vulnerable. Just one touch, an unintentional slip of the finger, and he may fall.

A sudden surge of strange sadness started to take control of my mind. It began to dawn on me how much I have in common with my new friend. Oh so many times, I take part in the beautifully coloured games of my life passionately and playfully, without even considering the possibility of being hurt. I give out all I have, I show myself without hiding…often to an audience that is not worthy of gaining an insight of my innermost world.

I have had my share of disappointment and refusal. I’ve tasted the flavour of deception and fraudulence. I had to learn the art of letting it go. I’d been rejected and denied by people I gifted with my trust and intended to give a lot. All these years have taught me to swallow my rage and taste its wisdom. The things I’ve been through gave me a lesson of putting aside unnecessary pride, but not dignity. My door is open, but I…I know how to protect what I have inside.

The war is over, no need to fight.