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All about me.

So.. I Guess you ended op here
You might as well read what I have to say,
But I have to warn you:
The following text contains no pictures and such (:

I'm called Nienke, But I'd like it if you'd call me Nini or Nin.
I don't think my age really matters,
But just for the ones that are interested: I'm 18 years old.
I'm a (hbo) psychology student.
I live in Tilburg,and I'm okay with that for now.
I'm not here to find love or someone to have sex with.
As a matter of fact, I'm only here because I'm bored.
I like a good conversation, I like to get to know people,
And I even like a good laugh at times. But that's all you'll get from me.

So, My life..

Well.. I don't really have a life.
I live from day to day, and I'll see where I'll end up.
The only thing I can tell you is:
I get up in the morning, and go to sleep in the evening.
And even that isn't for sure.
I haven't really got a stable life,
Every day is new. Every day is different.
I like it this way. I don't plan things.
I'm too lazy for that anyway.
Oh, I do have things that I do very often,
some might call them 'Hobbies'.
I read a lot, And I also like to write.
I like to travel, and I like to go out at times.
I hope to learn how to play piano some day.
What I like to do most,
Is to lie awake in my bed at a school day,
Just before I have to get up.
Those are my best moments,But they never last long.

My personality..

Well, I guess I have to disappoint you another time.
I do not believe in such a thing.
I don't have a personality,
and neither do you.
We all make ourselves up,
We can be whoever we want to be.
We're all just actors in a neverending play called 'Life'.
What I can tell you about my true self is that I'm insecure,
And that's no part of any 'personality';
I wasn't born insecure. I've gotten insecure through experiences.
Most of the time I don't act insecure, though.
I do not trust myself, And I have even less trust in others.
I'm very happy with that because I've been naive in the past.
I'd rather have no trust in anyone than trust in people that'd betray me.
I can't tell I'm a happy or sad person,
Because emotions tend to change all the time.
I can't say if I'm happy about my 'life' either,
Because that's something that changes by the day as well.

My looks

Can't say I don't have a look, because I do.
Most of the time I'm not pleased with it, like most people.
I'm no 'cyber', 'goth', or whatever you people make up these days.
I am whatever I feel like wearing in the morning.
I guess I look like a girl, that's pretty obvious.
I don't really care about genders though,
I like guys and I like girls just as long as they're nice to me.
I've got brown hair and brown eyes.
I'm around 1.72 metres, I weigh like 65 kilos,
And I couldn't care less about your opinion on that.
It's all just me, But it won't tell you anything.
I'm not saying I don't care if people think I'm ugly,
Hearing people don't like the way I look often makes me sad.
But when I come to senses, I know real friends won't like me
more or less if I'm prettier or uglier, skinnier or more fat.
I don't need a strangers opinion on my looks.

What I do hate are the kind of 'Don't judge me, I won't judge you'-people.
EVERYONE judges people by looks when they first see them,
Because you don't know anything else about them.
Imagine; You're single and looking, and you're at a pub.
When you talk to someone, It'd be someone you'd consider pretty, right?
Not just any random person or someone you find less attractive.
I(,you,we) judge people on their looks all the time,
It's the only thing that's for sure about a person,
The only thing you can touch. The only things that's real.
Still I'd prefer someone interesting over someone pretty.
I'm not saying looks are all that matter, but it all starts with them in any way.

Religion. Something I turn my back on.

I think it's really naive to believe things other PEOPLE made up.
I can't say I'm sure that god excists,
But I can't say he doesn't excist either.
I'm not sure about anything,
But there are things I would find comforting.
For example, I like to believe in reincarnation,
Because death scares me. Yes, I'm afraid of dying.
Everyone should think for himself,
instead of obeying some stupid book filled with rules.
People shouldn't harm eachother, because they don't want to,
not because some book says they shouldn't.
(Because then they won't go to heaven or whatever..)
That's stupid, ignorant and most of all selfish.
I try to live a good life, and to be good for the people around me.
I also don't eat meat, by the way.
I can't blame people who do as long as they don't know what happens to animals,
But I do blame the people that DO know and still eat it, People disgust me!
I also don't eat 'normal' eggs and try to avoid dairy products as much as I can.
I've been vegetarian for over a year now.
I'm not against death, But I am against torturing innocent animals.
Death does scare me, But it is necessary.
How scary would a world that doesnt change be..
Or a life without an end..
Oh, I'm not straight edge though.
I don't do drugs, I adore a smoke from time to time,
I drink alcohol on some occasions.
I've NEVER been really drunk,
And I can control myself very well.
I'm not planning on going straigh-edge either.
I like drinking a bottle of Grolsch or something now and then.

Love. The most important thing.

After years of hurting others and being hurt, I found the perfect guy for me.
His name is Richard (and he won't let me post any pictures of him here, but trust me he's handsome. n_n)
I love him. Forever. So leave me alone :D

My sexuality is something I'm not sure about.
I don't like I like one gender in specific.
People always say they don't like someone because of how they look,
Well why judge them on their genders then?
I think I just love someone for who he/she is,
and that love has nothing to do with sexuality.
Some of you will strongly disagree with me on that though,
but I respect people with other opinions about it.
I've never dated girls though.
But that's mainly because 99% of the girls don't think the way I do.
(Most claim to be straight and go like 'Eww!' if you say you're not)

Well, that's pretty much it.

Watch this if you eat meat O.o