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Profile:Welcome! My name is Paul,
I live in the Netherlands were i am currently working on a DnD campaign and am finishing up the content of my vast upgrade of D&D 3.5 which i call D&D 3.87. Beside that i am a Gold Smith, although i haven't made anything in years. If you're looking at my photo's you might be wondering what kind of heritage i have, well, i'm a melange of several Asian and European races. Though i am mostly Dutch i do have parts of Indonesian, Chinese, Russian, German and Belgium bloodlines.
I was brought up as an atheist, but have learned to be more relaxed in life, and stopped dwelling on details and self-deflective thinking, as has become common among all people in the Western World. I started to use my intuition and visual capacities to understand how everything works, and more importantly that everything still works even if thoughts are absent.
I have a website, originally meant for my Gold Smithing Company, but it has become filled with mostly other things: My idea's and a few pictures of things i've designed: www.symbolics.nl
The Basics are all in dutch, but my ideas are also available in English. If you like thinking, it can be worth your time to read them: Symbolics.nl Theory Page
Now for the personal detail:
I have changed enormously over the last years. Yet, very little has changed to the outside world that does not care to get to know me. I used to feel like a freak and an incomplete person in every sense, ruled by distress, fear and without purpose.
I am still a reject i guess, as people rarely take the effort to talk to me, or maybe they are just to scared of what they see in my eyes... the unpopular burden of Understanding.
On the surface i dress like i come directly from The Matrix movie, which to me is a rather accurate reflection. Some people think i might be vain, others might think that my presence is kind of cool, and others will feel the seriousness of my Matrix reenactment.
I like attention, i am afraid of it and addicted to it, and since i hate cowardice i strive to overthrow it in myself and others. I barter for attention with people giving in return my visions and insights.
I always had lots of trouble socializing. I hate superficial contact, and this makes things hard for me. I am not a very good Icebreaker, but when i feel required to i will be extremely straight forward and honest. Also, if you care to listen i have a lot to tell, too much as you might already have noticed by the size of this text. I strive to keep things relevant however.
I'm very lucky to have a couple of very good friends who know me inside and out, that share my hobbies and interests. I love hanging around with them and do fun things like going to the movie theater or playing games or going out.
I love to dance when the music is right. I don't go out that often because the music at most parties is either revolting or simply too negative for my taste. I often wonder if a new age of awesome Gothic parties will return... i fear they won't.
I really need people around me. When i'm alone for too long i tend to become a bit nervous and sometimes even paranoid. Simply talking to other people is often enough to restore my sanity rather quickly.
If i'm at a Gothic party, you will most likely find me dancing to the best of my abilities on the dance floor, i consider dancing an art, and i strive to perfect my reflection of the music.
As is pretty obvious by now, i like talking, and i have a vast amount of subjects i am interested in. The subjects usually include Social Behavior, Psychology, Paranormal Phenomena, Quantum Physics, Nature, Health, Alternative Medicine, Spirituality, Magic, Ancient and Recent History, and even International Politics and Economics!
A few years ago i studied or rather was fixated on what i thought to be the most fascinating things i have come across and sought the ultimate answers to big questions, and i have come across most interesting conclusions that i have been attempting to shape into solid theories (scientifically they are only hypothesis) They are constantly developing and new theory's come to fit between the elder ones.
The fundamentals are mostly written down on pages in the Theory section of my Symbolics.nl site, but there is so much that most of it is simply in my head...
Personally i think The Matrix 2: Reloaded, and 3: Revolutions, are HIGHLY underrated!
The only thing is these movies should be seen without any interrupt. Together they are 1 epic movie!
I have had dreams about many details in this movie, such strong dreams that they echo into my mind until this day.
For me this movie is a spiritual symbolic guide and inspiration for my path as the Awakener.
"If you want to know the future, you have to understand the choices that you have already made".
Likes:Feeling like i exist, recognition, the moments beauty can enter my soul, good conversations, nice cuddly women, good Melodic Metal, Classic Gothic Rock, the most sophisticated melodic Psychedelic Trance/Synth Pop/Synth Rock, the pinnacle of the old Jungle music, Baroque Classical Music, dancing on 80s music and Synth Pop at parties, things i want to do or know that i don't even know about yet, people who know the true value of wisdom, people that have control over their own mind, the moment i finally realize i was wrong, impressive paranormal encounters, organic food, good art, Macross, Babylon 5, D&D, Women who play table top D&D and look good as well, the woman from my dreams (Noctivagamaerea), Wave Gothic Treffen, doing new things that i fear, stop doing old things i refused to let go, being able to change, feeling like time lasts forever and yet having a great time, when the inspiration of infinite structure hits me once again, walking around in forests and parks in brought daylight after having an emotional breakthrough, feeling the plants and sunlight, fulfilling lifelong dreams thought impossible to achieve, when patience finally pays off. Long and peaceful calm, Fighting in the Infowars, United States Libertarianism, People that want to know the truth.
Dislikes:Fish, people that willingly ignore me, my own fear to show people who i am resulting in a lack of ability to socialize in large groups of people, breaking up with someone i really love.
Most importantly, the ones who deserve all the hatred of this world; The relentlessly ambitiously obsessed and the horrors they've created in this world:
1 Rothschild/Goldman Sachs/JP Morgan Investment Bankers, and the economic Destruction they have unleashed upon the entire world. They call themselves the Elite, but they are in fact the elements within humanity that have started all wars, all genocide and all destruction of nature, with their fake cherity organizations and "help" to poor countries. They must be purged from this world for the Genocidal Psychopaths they are. DEATH TO THE BANKSTERS!
2 Eugenicist Anti-human idiots, that have been conned by Global Warming advocates and Media-pushed 'Science' into believing the terrible lie that humanity is filth and needs to be eradicated.
3 Intelligent People that have learned to reason their way into a feeling of comfort, no matter how much lies and disregard of truths is needed to do it: Wannabe Elitist Intellect Reality Deniers
4 People that let fear direct their opinions, lives and reality over reason and common sense. They hide behind religion (of any kind) or let books, popular opinion or a politician dictate their reality without pursuing the depths of actual truth in spiritual pursuit.
5 People that have let go of all dignity and think drug abuse, aggression, torture and/or parasitic behavior are cool. They are not! I hate you with a vengeance!
6 Worthless People... vapid, uncaring, irresponsible, unreliable, childish slaves who will do anything to be considered a "person pro-establishment" and also the weak self-diluted people that tolerate these people and do not try to stop them from sinking deeper into their offensive intolerable anti-social behavior that ruins the atmosphere and poisons the hearts of all who come in contact with their manipulative behavior. Expose these people for what they are and watch them crumble!
7 Cowardly People who believe they don't need to or can't take action against the slow self destruction of this world and their cowardly and ignorant ways of deflecting their focus towards trivial interests. Take the pain and wake up!
Favorite Music:I am a fan of the following groups: Absurd Minds, Birthday Massacre, Colony 5, Digicult, Hochico, Mind.In.A.Box, Neurotic Fish, Seabound, Type O Negative, VNV Nation
In general i like music with the following components and styles: 'non-Cliche melodied', Music containing C64 or Amiga 1200 sound effects, anything with brilliant text (not just good text); EBM, Wave, Psytrance, Synthpop, Futurepop, Duran Duran, 80s, non-depressing music, non-eugenics, non-transhumanist, non-globalist cultural implanted music (pop music). I am however extremely specific in my musical likings, some bands just don't cut it, others are immortal...
The following videos are of great significance, and i urge all who can find the time to watch them and take them to heart!
Link 1: http://www.infowars.com/stream.pls
Link 2: http://www.naturalnews.com/
Link 3: http://freemantv.com/