| Inside My given name, is Jessica. Please refer to me by either my username, given name, or if you have a cool nickname go ahead and run it by me but, if I don't like it... I was born in North Bend, OR. A kind of shit hole that you just can't uproot yourself from. It's my home. It's also a weakness. "Come on vacation, leave on probation, come back on a violation" they say. It's mostly true. :nod I used to be. I once was. But now I am. And it was a hard road. "And tell me, I guess you have some ideas of what could "come out" of the box." A monster. A wreck. A destroyer. A selfish, uncaring beast. Distorted, sorrowful. Unable to ever be happy. These are the things inside myself I had to accept, in order to be what I am, today. I am still far from my Ideal Self, but the transformation so far has been staggering. "I can't run away from what's inside. But I can change it. I know this. I just don't know how. Someday that box will fall away and I will truly emerge. But I'd rather have the choice of what comes out and faces the world, and when." And I did. I had to walk through hell and torment to burn away the scars of my mind. I had to stand on the edge of it all, and look into the abyss, and face what was staring back, and accept it. Since then I've stopped merely surviving and have started Living. And since then, I have learned my purpose. I am a Teacher of Self. A Healer of the Heart. An Inspirator of Life. I'm sure this all sounds very arrogant, but I say this humbly. I do not want to be the Hero. Nor a Savior. I just want to help. To assist others in learning how to develop a healthy respect for themselves, and how to see the magic in their lives. To find their balance, and forge their own path. The Good/Bad  The Bad My People These are the people I love. The people I consider Family. Best Friends. Best People.  "If I ignore idiots, is it important intellectually? If it is infact important, I intentionally ignore idiots..." - Batty I met you in mid 2007. In the early days, I was certainly infatuated by you. But fortunately as I got to know you better my fondness for you took root on a deeper level, helping fortify our friendship and make it what it is today. Honestly it feels like any words I type wont do justice to how happy and grateful I am that you are still part of my life. Much love for you. <3  I feel happiest when I'm contemplating the meaning of the universe, and the order of things, what is real and what is not. I love and study the unknown, seek answers which don't exist - STAARI I remember how we met, lol. It was in the Old Paranormal. I had given my opinions on the Ouija Board and on a members dream. On June 10th I received a personal invitation from you to Enlightened_Minds, and it went from there. After the Old Paranormal was deleted, you asked me if I wanted to help create the New Paranormal. It was created, and we became great friends! I admire you and the knowledge you hold greatly. People From VFersOfOregon  "If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him keep step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away." - Thoreau - Randee I met you when I joined VFers way back in 2006, though it says Feb of '07 [shouldn't have left and come back. :stare]. I didn't really know you very well for quite a bit of my time at VFers but, once I decided I wanted to be more active and be more help in the cult, we became friends. Though we haven't known one another long, and have only met once, you've already done for me. And I appreciate that.  All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never ever be boring - Chuck Palanhiuk - Nicole I met you shortly after joining VFers as well. It didn't take us long to at least be on a friendly basis. I always admired your positive and up beat personality, and your sense of humor. Not only are you gorgeous [look at her!], you are talented and a pleasure to know. We will meet face to face! :shakefist <3  "I'd be lying if I said I was a nice, friendly, or outgoing guy. I don't get along to well with most people. Oddly enough even though I don't get along with most I do like to talk to anyone and everyone despite lacking social skills and being somewhat of a loner." - Leroy Lol. Man. When I met you [not the first time], I hated your guts. Though from what I remember the feeling was mutual. XD Though, after we decided to put our pride aside, and tried to understand one another, ironically we became pretty good friends. One of THE most unique people I know, you are talented, intelligent, and FUCKING HILARIOUS. I swear you can make me laugh NO MATTER what. Interestingly enough, you also know how to push my buttons. Though I surmise we'll be friends for a while, despite the roller coaster of emotions you put me on, lulz. People from ANGER My ANGER Family  For those who know me will say that I will help you out in any situation that I can. However, I will warn you now. I hate bitches and those who judge me. - Steph Being the unofficial owner of ANGER says a lot in itself. ANGER is not an easy place to lead often. While I don't know much about you, I consider us friends. When things got hard for me, and I was on a side all by myself, you gave me the chance to earn yours and the others respect. I appreciate that greatly, and am happy that I am where I am in ANGER, and very grateful to be part of the ANGER family.  "I have many aspirations, and my life will be what I want of it. Right now I'm struggling in many aspects but I will pull through all of this and find my way to the glory I've always wanted. I will not hold you down in your path, please don't expect to hold me down in mine. " - Crystal [ROFL LFMAO] Sorry. Just thinking about how we started out makes me laugh HxC. I mean, it wasn't funny then but, compared to us now, it's hilarious. You are on this list because I care and respect you deeply. The more I learn, the more I do. You are one tough broad [and I mean that in a loving way], and you handle most things people would pull their own hair out with grace. You're beautiful and charismatic and smart. And we get along famously. Thanks for caring, doll.  The way to win jis heart? Slash an entrance in my stomach, reach in a hand underneath my ribcage, feel around a bit and yank it out. Watch out for my pancreas. That fella's feisty! - Mike Mike. Mike, Mike, Mike. How is it possible you can be THAT smexy? Srsly? XD Anyway, lulz. Not only are you HAWT beyond reason, you are deep, intellectual, talented, and original. The more we talk the more I learn, and the more I learn the more I WANT to learn. So, keep it coming, doll.  "Im A Honest Person Ill Tell You Straight Up How I Feel Bout Shyt So Dont Ask Me How You Look In That Outfit If You Dont Wanna Know My True Opinion Cuz Ill Tell Ya Lol." - Steve Man we had it rough when we first met, didn't we? Though, with quite a few of the other members of the ANGER family, we ended up becoming friends. We don't know one another very well, but I admire you and your ability to tell it how you see it, FUCK everyone else. As you say, MMFCL. Even though I'm... not a clown. =P  "I hate a lot of people, everyone says I shouldn't and that hate is a strong word...but it's also a strong feeling..so yeah I DO hate people." - Seni It's ironic how the people I'm closest to in ANGER are the people I had the most problems with? You are fucking TOUGH, and it amazes me sometimes. You've got beauty, brains, and one hell of a mouth. And I love it. And though I am not a clown, MMFCL. <3 Honorable Mention: Amatsu CardboardTubeSamurai Cyllan hipcheck KiRi_Flavored_Corgi know_the_truth Lynzi OverlordBast Paintbox_Redemption Ryoji_Tess spikejonez TwiztidB Vali-Ent Philosophies/Quotes I'll start with the Rules I live my life by: The Golden Rule An' Harm None, An' Do What Ye Will I have to say, I learned a lot from a movie called The Secret. [If you have any interest in it, please let me know and I will direct you to a place you can watch it on your PC for free]. "You’ve probably been sitting there wondering, “What is The Secret?” I’ll tell you how I’ve come to understand it. We all work with one infinite power. We all guide ourselves by exactly the same laws. The natural laws of the Universe are so precise that we don’t even have any difficulty building spaceships, we can send people to the moon, and we can time the landing with the precision of a fraction of a second. Wherever you are, we’re all working with one power — one law — it’s attraction! The Secret is the Law of Attraction! Everything that’s coming into your life you are attracting into your life. And it’s attracted to you by virtue of the images you’re holding in your mind. It’s what you’re thinking. Whatever is going on in your mind you are attracting to you. - from Bob Proctor" More Notes From The Secret "Perfect love isn't loving a perfect person. It's about loving an imperfect person, perfectly." I firmly believe that sometimes you have to be tough to get through. Not every situation should be handled by coddling and such. As I always say: You can catch a fly with honey, but that doesn't always mean they'll be listening. They could be too focused on the sweets. Sometimes, you have to use vinegar, to have them come to their senses, even though the initial response might be outwardly unfavorable. I also believe that you should always follow your heart. But be wary, the heart is a tricky compass. I haven't lost faith, myself [in humanity]. I believe in duality. I believe in balance. I believe that while humanity can be petty. It can be weak and selfish. I also believe that it can be noble. Strong and selfless. And I believe that, that is my purpose. Well, helping people realize this, at least. Helping them find the happiness that life has to offer. Helping them understand that struggle and hardships are what evolve us. What shape us and how we handle it dictates who we are. Some call me an idealist, not a realist. But really, I fancy myself as a bit of both. Whether I was given this purpose, or I gave this purpose to myself, I don't really know. I just, once again, believe this is what I'm meant to do. I feel it, I guess you could say. And it's one of the most important aspects of my life. Written 01.07.09 3:23 am More Information |
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