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Zephyyr@DA
Art is Life.

Sometimes, I imagine that you're in one of those cars driving by beneath my window, and you're coming to save me from killing myself in this town.

.Alyssa.Artist.Writer.Daughter.Lover.
A Constant Kind of Heartache

These moments, as beautiful as they are... They're evil when they're gone...

life
-that one special boy
-kisses in the rain
-staying up till sunrise
-love songs
-dancing in an empty house
-touches with cold fingers
-holding hands
-crying for no reason
-no regrets
-never settling down
-trees dancing in the wind
-brown paper packages tied with string
-butterfly wings
-CD rainbows on my ceiling
-beauty that no one else understands

I am the skeleton dancer. I have wings, and fangs, and stars in my eyes. A cold puppy nose. I am as consequential as the wind, I was built up of the rain. You'll say I'm a dreamer, under my rainbows and dark clouds. I leave thumbnails of poetry on brick walls and table tops. I'm a kaldorei hunter, a faerie priest, a human loving vampire. I am ripped-knee-jeans and sleeves-over-hands. Chest, ribs, lungs;; inhale, exhale, repeat. I live for magic-marker tattoos, and I swear, I could teach the world to love.

i am
-in love
-my vampire affinity
-17
-chemophobic
-wiccan&agnostic(how strange)
-pierced&tattooed
-pansexual
-a hand fetish
-O’Barr obsessed
-a pin up
-BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
-vegetarian
-art obsessed

Markus. You are the love of my life. It really is that simple. You are my heart. You are in my soul. You understand, even when every phrase is nonsense. There are things I want to tell you that there just aren't words for yet. There's so much keeping us apart for now, but someday we'll be free. Real love is forever.

Alannah. My vampire. My pirate. My kindred spirit. My heart. My everything. You are the only one who as always been there for me, unfaltering. We grew up together, and you shaped the person I've become. There are so many memories, and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I love you so much.

Jade. My beautiful elf warrior, my Paradise. I've fallen head over heels in love with you, and I cannot even recall when it happened. Someday, we'll show them. We'll dance with the willow trees, and fly to the moon. We'll re-write all the story books. I love you.

And those who left too soon. Corey Clark and Stephanie Gestier.
I'll miss you always... RIP.

I want to be someone who understands. Arthur Rimbaud, James O'Barr. Salvador Dali and Stephenie Meyer. Miss Susanna Kaysen. I just want to be free.

the end