Try_to_be_a_lady at Vampirefreaks.com

About Me

Alone locked within my padded cell away from the freaks of the world. In my own little bubble I am free.In my mind tormented from the Evil that lurks my soul.Comfort within the pills the razors and the burning of my own hate.Peace within the demons that have raised me.Loneiless that has forfilled my heart never lets me rest.Will never let me see life as It truly Is.Always stuck between fantasy and reality always torn between trust and fate always the one to be hurt always the one to cry always the one to hurt you.

Suddenly I have no reason to breathe,No reason to go on fighting,No reason to hold my head high.

being punished.Being a victim of hate.Being a somebody people don't see.

EVERYONE IGNORE ME,
It's ok,I'm suffering but you don't have to care!

I choose to live my life in the background.I choose to not to be noticed.I choose not to be a friend.I choose not to be loved.I choose to be a fighter.I choose to be that girl.I choose to be alone.I choose to be a poet.I choose to be the one who fades away...

I walk this lie,I pretend like so many do.I hold on to my faith and I awake each morning with this hope.I live this lie day by day and take all the shit thats Is thrown In my face.I respect those that respect me.I go on sufering,I go on being unseen.I hold my tears back and I scream In the dark,I forget my past and It never forgets me.

I hang in there like people tell me to they don't understand Im on the edge of life and Im about ready to jump. My fears face me night after night,I bring my blanket right over my face and I hope there is a God to save me from the evil that haunts me,To take away the pain,the hurt the anger But nothing happens,They are still here and still hurting me...And I lost my faith

If you read this then you should know that I don't care if you love me,hate,lust me,like me.You have a choice in this world and the choice is yours...Do as you wish.Don't look back at your past and regret the things you have done good or the bad just be happy within yourself and know that you made the right choice

Stuff I Like

Burning down the churches that have brain washed many people.
Being alone to think about the world Im in and the best ways to escape the on going lies.
Writing poems.
Listening to my music that frees my soul for just a second.
razors.

Fire.
Torturing Dolls
Drawing
Reading
Writing Stories
Freaks
The feeling you get when you OD
Watching animal tortuer films
Rituals
Hospital-Scaples.Gloves-
Stealing wheel chairs
Anit depressants

Acid-Weed.mushrooms
Porn Movies-Making porn movies
Watching fat people eat
The sound of fingernails on a chalk board
Getting Inked up
The sky 10mins before It rains Getting fingered in a taxi

Stuff I Hate

Sluty girls
Ignorent fucks
Samantha Wibberly-You are a dirty fucking whore who asked to be raped.
Odd socks
The colour Yellow
Running out of booze and smokes
People who try to control me
People who yell
People who think their better than me Daylight
People who stair at me when I eat
Being surrounded by pitty
My pen running out of ink
Emos
Fakes
Seafood
People who bitch about their religion
People who dont like to see things from the otherside of an arguement.
Churhes
Living this life

Musical Stuff

Psycroptic
Still Remains
Deicide
My Dying Bride
Perversist
Solar Thorn
Suffokate
AC/DC
Hatebreed
System Of a Down
Rammstein

And many more