I feel as if I am a lost soul in a world full of loneliness. I am cold and hate filled inside. At times I wish that the coldness could be thawed but then I realize that I am the way I am because emotions hurt to much. Trust is to hard to come by and although I have given up on someone to save me I still secretly wish for it. The best thing about being alone is that you explain yourself to no one. I think at times I can never be forgiven for some mistakes I have made. I feel as if my soul is soaked with sin and there is nothing strong enough to wipe it clean. I do believe in people having soul mates and there is an individual for everyone... except me. At times I feel as if I am heartless but then remember if I let myself have a heart someone would just tear it out again... I don't know if maybe I'm being punished for something and I'm to be left alone for all time or the right person just hasn't come along... I am starting to fear that I must just be destined to die alone on the twisted nails of fate...
Graveyards and old cemeteries give me a sense of peace. A feeling of home that I haven't felt in so long. Long unknowing walks in the woods after twilight gives me a sense of self awareness. I love the snow capped trees and the ice on the ground, the most beautiful sight is watching the blood melt the snow.
Religious fanatics. Judgmental bastards. People who thrive on betrayal and lies.