Who I am

Do I like who I am,
Or should I change?
I get these feelings that are very strange.
Sometimes I don't know who I am,
Or what I want in life.
But then I think of all I have,
And what it means to me.
And realize that I should be happy just being me.
I want a life that's full of fun,
And happiness all the way through.
But that's not life because life's a b***h,
And that is true.
Happiness finds everyone sometime in their life,
I don't know if it's found me, but then I think it has.

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Why I am here

One day I prayed to god why he put me on this earth.I told him I just want to die because there is no reason for me to be here.When he didn't answer back I thought of killing myself all night. The next day I prayed again and asked why I'm here. When he answered back he said I will see one day when it comes true. When I asked him what it was he didn't answer back. I wonder what it was all day that I asked him to give me a sign to let me know what it was. The next few days nothing happen there wasn't even a sign. Then i thought hey what the heck let me do something that I will regret.One day i met someone who changed my life in the last few days. A few years past and I prayed to god asking is this the sign you said you'll give me. When he answered he said yes, that you was put on this earth to be loved. I told him thank you that I appreciate it, he said your welcome and to enjoy what I have. I went to sleep knowing that I was here for one reason and that reason is to be loved by you.

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My life

In my wonderful eyes, the life I see is like a beautiful sky.
Living in this world is like a happiness that God could share to us all.
Then why did I feel so sad, I should be joyful that I been alive.
But no, there nothing special about my life, all I could feel is the darkness that surround me.
I hate to see myself disgusted with the people that around me, why can't I be happy just like everyone else.
If living like this, in this life.
I rather cut myself & go to the other sides. Maybe that where I will truly found happiness.

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