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Hello stranger, I am Sarah. Or that's what everyone calls me. The truth is "Sarah" doesn't quite capture who I am, yet I don't know what does. I don't know who I am. I don't know who I'll will be. If I'll ever be something. I am loud, annoying, funny, weird, nice, mean, creative, shy, sad, fragile, strong. A few words can't describe who I am. I can be mean, people tell my I'm pretty violent too. But in fact I'm really kind. I always try to help everyone out with their problems, I'm not selfish and I love sharing. Money is of no value to me. I'm broke most of the time and when I do have money, it's gone in 2 seconds. I am not the kind of girl you'll find at parties, but at home, with a close circle of friends, or just sitting at my computer; writing and chatting. Or behind my piano. I am not the kind of girl that will act like a slut in front of a guy. Or kisses them after only knowing them for a few minutes. I am not the kind of girl that flirts and moves on. If I have a relationship, I want it to be special. Not just something meaningless with someone I don't know. I'm single, yes. I'm looking, yes. I don't like being single. I don't like the feeling of being cold and alone. I like being held. I have two passions in my life. Writing and the piano. I write whenever I have the time. I play the piano everytime I see my instrument (and it's in the middle of the living room, so I see it A LOT). I have two goals in my life. one is to have at least one book published. Right now I'm working on a story and I'm going to make something special of it. It's in dutch. So if you're interested, just ask me, and you can read. My other goal is to become a piano teacher. But recently I've been beginning to lose hope in the entire music industry. I might not be as pretty as some people in this plastc world, but at least I have brains. I read tons of books, english and dutch. I love watching movies and all kinds of them; english, dutch, spanish, german, french, japanese, korean, chinese,... My friends and family mean the world to me. I love them with my entire heart. Even though sometimes things don't quite work out, I know inside of me they will always be here. That may sound really corny, but it's what I feel. I've been given the chance to get to know my brother better, and for the first time in 16 years I actually feel like I'm his sister. Like we're related. I have two really close friends; Kata and Sarah. They mean everything to me. I have never had a fight with them and when we ever have a discussion it doesn't result in to not talking to each other for months. I can tell them anything without being judged, without being looked at weird. I don't really watch tv a lot. Just quiz shows and The Simpsons. Other than that I also watch anime, but that doesn't air here, which sucks. Most of the time i'm listening to music. I don't leave the house without my iPod. I burn my own cds with songs I like, just so I could play them really loud and bother everyone here in the house. I listen to classical music, sue me. I think it's beautiful, it doesn't need words to describe feelings. But other than that I listen to; Rock, alternative, metal, hardcore, screamo, punk, punkrock, and so on. I won't be posting all of my bands, because that doesn't matter. I think the best bands are the ones that aren't famous. I simply adore cooking. I could do it all day, and I'm pretty damn good at it too. I don't know what else I could say about myself. I suppose you have a picture of who I am now. Although I should warn you, I am not what you think I am. Comment me all you like, and I will reply, as long as you're not a scary 45 year old man.

They hold my heart.

Jackie I could write entire pages About this girl And I'd still wouldn't be able To describe how amazing she is She is so beautiful So honest So sweet And so amazingly funny She can make me laugh my ass off We talk about the most random things And I love it Whenever I talk to her I feel all happy She gives great advice She honestly is so smart She always knows exactly what to say She is one of my very best friends She understands me completely And she forgives me for my dumb mistakes Jackie stay my friend forever And I promise you I will see you one day And we'll eat sweeties and watch scary movies I love you Dheac I honestly don't know were to start He has helped me through so much He has never left my side He has never let me down And he has never hurt me He means so much to me It's unbelievable And even though We talk about the most silly things ever I know He loves and cares about me And I seriously love him so much He is one of my very best friends He's so smart So unique So utterly amazing I can't honestly imagine my life Without him anymore You are so beautiful Dheac I peanut you Cow Doody Melissa My God She is amazing And every word she says convinces me more of that She's got such a vivid imagination She can make me smile so much She can make me laugh so hard And she helps me out a million times I hope she knows how amazing she really is I'll always be by her side I can't imagine it otherwise She has a part of me And without her There is no real me She is so smart Her writings are so good I love reading her stories I love talking to her too There isn't a day that goes by Without talking to her I will always be right here for her Whenever she needs me I won't let her fall I won't lie anymore And I mean it with my entire heart When I tell her: "I love you"