I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to

Well how nice of you to take a look on my profile and actually take the time to read what I write down. But that also means I need to type in a few things that tell you about me now. That was never one of my best qualities, talking about myself, but let's give it a try anyway. If this is not enough information for you, then feel free to send me a message. I don't guarantee an answer, especially as it comes to cheesy pick-up lines, but I will answer when the question or message is interesting.Give it a try anyway and you will see what happens.

I don't like putting my real name online on profiles, so if you don't want to call me Psychotica or Psy, then sexy or cutey will do as well ;) .... I am 26-year old girl from the Netherlands with red hair (natural red hair, but I dyed it even more red) and greenish eyes. I think my eyes are actually high in the top5 of best features on my body, although a lot of the men will probably put one of my other features on the first place. But I like them a lot, and I have been told they change colours a bit when my mood changes, not sure how that works but it sounds neat! I am a bit chubby but I can handle my curves. I do want to loose some more weight though, being curvey does not mean beeing completely round. I am also a tiney girl in length wich makes people assume I am a sweet girl. When you did not taste me, you don't know if I am sweet or not ;) ... So don't assume, people. I am not hot, I have a rather normal temptature thank you. Sexy, that I might be sometimes, yes. Confident as well every now and then but that is exactly what makes girl sexy. It's not all about physical appearance, it's about charisma.

And what if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep

Yeah, I'm just me, but I have no need for being someone else. Well how to define my character and me as a person is not easy. I am rather easy-going but also very passionate, wich sometimes make people think I am a bitch, cause I even put passion into the way I discuss. I have strong opinions and don't easily fold when I don't agree. However I am a big fan of respect, so I feel everyone is entitled to their own opinions. I am not one to force my opinion on you. I understand that my way of looking at life might not really always work for you and vica versa. It's a personal look on things. I like the diversity we have as people, wouldn't the world be grey if we are all the same? Choose the way you want to live your life for your own reasons. Don't be a follower, don't be a sheep, just be you. Don't follow a path someone else set for you, follow your own path. Individuality is the key and people who love you, will love you for who you are.

I've decided to choose my own path long time ago. This ment for me I met some interesting people on my way, whom had paths that either temporarily or long-term ran and run next to mine. And the contact with those people helps making me into the person I am today as well as the person I am becoming. Yes even short-term relationships and friendships have their purposes. As it comes to friendship, I think I interact better with most men then I do with women. This because I am not a girly girl, There is more to life then make-up, shoes and gossip. I prefer a good talk about music or spirituality. Music is one of my true loves, and spirituality has a major effect on my life, since I am both a witch and also highly sensitive. Besides that I am rather artistic. I write a lot. Lyrics, poems, short stories, etc. And sometimes I draw as well. I can be a bit weird from tim to time, but hey embrace your innerweirdness, right? Or was it your innerchild.... Well in this case its the same, cause I am a person who sometimes react on impulses, and decide that day she wants to do something. Either way, Let's continue, I told you enough for now about who I am as a person.

I am a work in progress
dressed in the fabric of a world unfolding
offering me intricate patterns of questions
rhythms that never come clean
and strengths that you still haven't seen

I have a lot of likes, I can be easily amused, come to think of it. But I will put down some of the main things I like. Well there it is:

*Yeah I fully admit to it, I like sex. But not just the sex itself but the whole package including feeling sexy, flirting, playing games, the entire seduction. However don't get me wrong, casual sex ain't really my thing anymore. I gave up on the random one nightstands years back. Good sex can also exist in a friendship with benefits and in a relationship. Talk, sweeties, communicate your sexlife.
*I don't need other people to validate me, but yes it would be a lie if I said I don't like compliments. I like feeling wanted and loved. When people give compliments they really mean, it's a good feeling. Don't overdo it. Sometimes a look or simple gesture can mean more then hearing the same thing over and over again.
*I have a liking for water, and especially the sea. That means I like to swim, I really enjoy it. But also it means I like the walks on the beach. It can really clear up the clutter in my mind. The somehow standard romantic gesture of taking a woman to the beach to watch the sunset, would really work for me.
*I like my loved ones and if you manage to become one of them, you can count on me being there for you whenever I can. I love being there for them, helping them, protecting them and especially accepting them for who they are. My mother, my sisters and some of my other loved ones are heroes in my opinion because of their look on life.

*I like life in general, yes things happen that aren't always that great, but the sun still comes up every morning. Life is what you make of it, and I choose not only to see the bad thing but also the happyness it brings.
*I like it when people can see something or someone for its true value, a lot of people easily underestimate or overestimate things and persons. And that colours the way they talk and listen to people. A lot of persons don't really listen because of that. They're judgemental. Really listen, ask questions, its the key to good conversation.
*I like to help people and listen to them, but that does also mean I can be very honest, and not always give the answer people want to hear from me. However that's because I care and know that hearing the truth helps.
*I like discussions about things that interest me, because I like to hear why people came to certain conclusions. Discussions can teach you a lot about how a person works. That's also why I discuss, I don't necessary want to be right, No I actually like it to hear your opinions and knowledge.

*I love animals and nature. I actually do volunteer-work with cats and kittens. Animals are just as precious as us humanbeings.
*I am really into spirituality. I am a witch, but I also like to learn about more spiritual beliefs and everything surrounding it. I already read and learned more about Sjamans, Druids, Indian belief systems, Wicca (wich is not the same as witchcraft), etc. But since none of us ever stops learning through out his or her life, I love to know more.
*I like music, and I like it a lot. It has an important part in my life, I listen to music every day.
*I like poetry and the arts in general. One of my favorite artist as it comes to paintings is Luis Royo and I have put some of his work on my page. Alsoe her are a few of the lyrics I wrote myself, I wrote about 500 poems and lyrics, I think:
Wings of the moment
Desensify
The sweet persistance

Strange, the way beauty can hurt the unopened eye
Much more than all of the filth and pain
That we're soaked in ever could

Otep - Bloodpig

Dislikes:

Well lets see... I am not a person that is easy in disliking things. Might be that I am rather easy-going at most (not always, I have been told that I can appear bitchy because I am strong opiniated). However I do have dislikes like everyone does. Call it a natural balance if you may. It means at least every one has their own opinion and view on life and does not change it for you. But this are a few of my dislikes:

*Judgemental opinions
*People with misplaced arrogance (nothing wrong with arrogance in total, I like people who know their qualities).
*Been lied to, I am a big fan of honesty. I rather hear things I dislike then find out the truth later.
*If people call me a liar, or say I lied when I did not do so.
*Betrayal, it's so unnecessary and people, trust is sacred.
*People who hurt loved ones.
*Being somewhere where I can not take a moment for myself when I really need to do so.
* Wasps, spiders, passing big trucks, thunder/lightning, people who hurt animals, shortage of money.
*I think I dislike it the most, when people try to change you for their own benefit. The way they want to see you and suits them the best. People who like to tame you in a way. If I chose to change, it will be because I want to do so. Like a quote out of Sex and the city says: "Maybe some women weren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they're supposed to run wild until they find someone just as wild to run with."

My first act of treason was picking up a pen
My
First act of love was
Finding myself again

Favorite Music:

I really have a versatile taste in music so I can never mention all the bands here wich I listen to. But let me give it a go to mention at least some of the bands:

Anathema, After Forever, Autumn, Beethoven, Bon Jovi, Cradle of Filth, Dimmu Borgir, Emilie Autumn, Enigma, Epica, Evergrey, Flowing tears, Hans Zimmer, In this moment, Jeff Buckley, Katatonia, Korn, Linkin Park, Maria Mena, Meatloaf, Moonspell, My dying bride, Nine inch nails, Nightwish, Oomph, Otep, Opeth, Pain of Salvation, Paradise lost, Porcupine tree, Riverside, Rasputina, Sonata Arctica, System of a down, Tori Amos, Walls of Jericho. Check here for more of the bands I listen to as well: Clickityclick

I turn to see what I purport to be
I transgress established hierarchies
I hope you will accept my company
That my behaviour is what you want it to be
I present you being what I am
I present you wanting what I can
Tori Amos - Here in my head

I stated earlier that I thought beauty was measured by someone's charisma and not by fysical appearance. However in the magazines, on tv, etc people are confronted with ridiculous high standards as it comes to appearances, set by today's society. This creates a lot of eating disorders and low self esteem, and that just has to stop. This video shows that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes, because it's all about your radiance, and that comes from happyness.

Homepage: www.insideout-project.nl
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Link 3: www.psynya.net

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RuleOfThrees [Reply]	Jul 24, 2008, 07:27pm I'm make the most of being awake enough to write. Its only one day to the weekend after all
RuleOfThrees [Reply]	Jul 24, 2008, 07:22pm I'm not working tomorrow, so no I don't
MyIonJugulars [Reply]	Jul 24, 2008, 03:16pm I'll bear that in mind. hehe<p><b><font color=aqua>Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.</b></font>
MyIonJugulars [Reply]	Jul 24, 2008, 03:13pm I saw those, but they were very small. LOL<p><b><font color=aqua>Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.</b></font>
MyIonJugulars [Reply]	Jul 24, 2008, 03:03pm I know, but I may not have time to comment later. LOL<p><b><font color=aqua>Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.</b></font>
RuleOfThrees [Reply]	Jul 23, 2008, 03:17pm I used to be able to write well, but it kind of went by the wayside a few years back when life got too busy. Trying to pick it up again feels terribly clumsy. As in, whenever I tried to write anything very meaningful I always ended up feeling like I should be able to produce better. Not that I've tried for ages. My life is actually pretty free of vices. Coffee is the big one. At least its clean, cheap and legal though
RuleOfThrees [Reply]	Jul 23, 2008, 02:54pm I know exactly what you mean. There are too many books out there to have read all of them, no matter how hard we try. Anne Rice seems to be a particular blindspot for me. It fairly common on VF assume that as an avid reader who has a profile here I must adore her stuff. It always seems to illicit surprise when I admit not to have. Mmmm, coffee. My other addiction. Now you've mentioned it I feel the need to go put the kettle on
RuleOfThrees [Reply]	Jul 23, 2008, 02:44pm I'm a fairly prolific reader as well, but *most* of the stuff on my book shelf I would feel more comfortable recommending than that particular book. I shouldn't lay into it too badly though. It was a birthday present a few years back, and the givers heart was in the right place
RuleOfThrees [Reply]	Jul 23, 2008, 02:38pm The book is Pages of Pain, by Troy Denning, which despite its rather eyecatching title is actually a decidedly mediocre piece of fantasy fiction. Not something I'd particularly recommend to anyone
finally_falling8 [Reply]	Jul 23, 2008, 11:01am Thank you!!!!

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