Every once in a while a brilliant summery of myself will just buzz through my head; I am waiting for that moment so I can write something worthwhile here.
I have shamelessly been a vegetarian for seven years. I have been exercising for one year, and before that I was horribly depressed and sedentary so I had virtually no muscle large enough for the human eye to see! Haha. I think I've done well though.
You are foolish if you think that I care about others eating meat. Look at where I am from. In Texas, the pork is so good it tastes like they slaughtered the pigs out back. (but I still don't like it... meat makes me feel sick... and who's to say I even have morals in the first place?)
Lately all I do is exercise, vidja gaems, and try to find work (but I have come to some conclusions on that). I aspire to a lot of things and am eager to make something of myself.
If I could choose to be a "mythical" (QUOTES!) creature I would be an elf. I wish I was an elf. Yes, I do. I want the woods to be my home, and I wish to smell of cinnamon and wine... these desires deeply influence my body soap, shampoo, and perfume preferences... I can atleast be an elf at heart.
My western zodiac sign is leo. I am a powerful and highly intimidating lioness... or some unscrupulous fucks like to think of me as a bunny! (haha) I used to never think I was true to my sign; I became amazed at how little I knew myself.
My Chinese zodiac is the water monkey. Which means I am supposedly troublesome, intelligent, sensitive, somewhat silly, and empathetic. This is most likely true.
Often times, I am not quite who I want to be, yet always relentless. I want to be kind and righteous in a non-self-righteous way, but my inevitable misanthropy forms darkness inside of me. Generally, it's nothing person and I still respect people although I can't stand being around them. This makes it difficult to find friends, and has been a constant problem throughout my life.
On a brighter note, I dream of owning a beautiful garden someday. One that will welcome cute little snakes and especially exotic spiders to my home. Certain animals always make me smile when I see them... well probably most animals actually. Bees and spiders make me particularly happy. I long to sit outside and drink tea amongst them and my cherished plants.
Spiders, cats, clowns, treas, tea, elves, smelling like an elf, bees, MMOs, Xbox, X-men (originaly), culture, dancing, exercise, delicious/healthy food, fresh air, beaches, cute girls, my husband, shoes
shoes that are expensive and/or leather
Emilie Autumn, Angelspit, The Dresden Dolls, Otep, Humanwine, orchestra music (always goes right through my veins when I hear it), Mindless Self-Indulgence