"I'm in a false reality. I'm mentally all here but I'm acting as if I am fine and nothing has gone wrong. But I know... It wasn't some bad dream. This nightmare isn't ending. And it never will...."
Hello, you may call me Nyghtmare. As that is my name. Well. One of them at least. The one that was created by myself and what others have thought of me. Some may call it a monster. But... It's a whole new me...
If you must know, my full name is Laura Ann Ludwig. A 16 year old from northern Minnesota. Gone to the same school my whole life and lived in the same 2 areas my whole life. Had the same friends my whole life. Pretty dull back story there.
Well, that's at least the "normal" side of me. I'm actually much more complicated than that...
By 9th grade I had come completely out of the closet as a lesbian at my highschool. (Thanks to some friends who decided to not shut up about it the year before at the old school. It quickly spread like wildfire.) Some people respected it, some gave me crap, and they still do to say the least. I just ignore them nowadays.
Around this time I had also gotten into the goth culture (thanks to a very dear friend of mine.)
With the combination of those 2 things and my love for music, you'd think I'd have had a lot of hardships. Not really to be honest. It's the school I go to. Pretty understanding people and they look up to me. (Especially the little ones). Because I'm not a bad person. There are many qualities that make me a great friend. I'm very talkative, I'm friendly, love meeting new people, and just an interesting individual.
Nyghtmare was a name created by many people because I don't quite "fit in" with the crowd around where I live. So it tends to be very lonely. But I've used that name to a certain level and have been living up to it with songwriting, guitar playing, saxophone, and bass. Music.
Music for me started at a young age and has influenced me my whole life. Believe it or not, I don't care to use the term "genre" because I listen to almost anything. Because music is an art form and I believe it should not be submitted to labels and titles. Art is art. We should all embrace it. "When all hope is lost. The darkness consumes us. Ripping at who we are. Turning us into hopeless, lifeless, human people. When there's no hope. No light at the end of the tunnel. You can't see yourself going on anymore. Living. Turned painful. In the midst of this hopelessness. This wanting to live somewhere else in some different time. For a 15 year old there was only one known way out. The hardest path. I chose it. And made her into my scarlet angel."
I am a major Marilyn Manson fan. Marilyn Manson has inspired me so much in the rough years I have had in the past. His music, his philosophy, everything, it's all inspiring to an aspiring musician such as myself. As I earlier stated, I am an aspiring musician so many of my likes include the following:
I also enjoy writing and drawing, reading, collecting odd things, shopping, spending time with my friends, and watching t.v.
There isn't much I could say I really dislike. I can't say people who don't agree with me because they are entitled to their own opinions.... But I guess people who go a little overboard, or try to argue and can't defend their reasoning. Homophobes. Overly religious people. And that should be about it. Well... And bullies.
My Chemical Romance
Lamb of God
Nine Inch Nails
The Challis Effect
Voltaire And Many More....