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neo-shaman
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Latest Journal Entry: "Heroes" May 11, 2008, 04:10pm
Profile: UNDER CONSTRUCTION- Music is Balance Music is Lethal I Function By the Fire That Burns inside Me Fuck Death, This is Life -Andi Sexgang "i'm an architecht! they call me a butcher. i'm a pioneer, they call me primitive. i'm purity, they call me perverted" - nicky wire & richey james. most think that i'm nothing more than a low life junkie. and only because of how i look. but i'm more. little baby nothing: “No god reached me, faded films and loving books Black and white TV All the world does not exist for me” crazy diamond: ”Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.” “The miner of truth and delusion” urban spaceman: “I'm the urban spaceman babe, but here comes the twist I don't exist” cosmic dancer: “I danced myself right out the womb I danced myself into the tomb” beautiful freak: “Some people think you have a problem” teenage lobotomy: “Now I am a real sickie” some think that there is something wrong with me, that i'm sick. but i'm not. i just want to live, no matter how miserable my life is. though most of the time i found all life around me, all creatures around me and my life totally meaningless and want to turn all energy to one destroying force and kill myself. i want to find true beauty. i just realized there ain't such. there is no love, there is no friendship, no warmness. NOT FOR ME. i have wasted half of my life waiting that some one would like me. i have wasted my days in the false belief that someone actually cares about me. feel free to speak to me. i'm allways intrested in meeting new people. you can call me neo i have sunk very deep in the world of culture. i’m very interested in all kinds of art, like photography, graphic design, photography and of course films. myself, i photograph quite a lot (some of my pics can be found on my journal), i paint with aquarelles and oils, sometimes draw by hand or using Shi-Painter Pro. i’d describe my style as… colorful, sharp, expressionistic and quite rough, but it varies. sometimes i do psychedelic pics, sometimes i do everything black and white. i write too, poetry and prose. i wouldn’t say i’m good, but i like doing it. my stories don’t usually have happy endings, ‘cos i don’t stop at the right point. i like to write grotesque, dark, still humorous stories, in my own nihilistic style, with realism close to nausea. i love books. i love comics. i love films. i love theater, opera, ballet and musicals. i live and breathe culture. i love music. that is my first true love. i have been brought up with music. i have been listening to many, many kinds of music since knee high, so i’m pretty open minded. i like to go deeper into music than just the surface. i know pretty much about music, but i’m keen to know more. i love going to gigs and fests. i feel alive there. most of the times i feel like a somnambulist. i’m interested in politics. i’m a member of a leftist political youth organization Vasemmistonuoret. i’ve got strong opinions. but i’m open minded. i have also been many times part of the finnish Gay Pride –fest. i dislike many things, like the usual clichés; homophobia, racism, sexism. i hate extreme religious societies that still live in the 10th century. of course, i’m not against them, they can live in peace. it’s just annoying how some religious societies are crushing people just because they don’t fit in the religion’s norms. i’m an atheist. i don’t hate god. there ain’t such. but i hate the church. as an institution. what i really hate is the extreme right. i also hate pretty much this world. the world is a horrible place to live. i try hard to see the good things in it, but news always drag me down. death. war. slavery. senseless killing. suicides in the name of some terrorist god. war against terrorism that doesn’t even exist. big, fat men are scared of small flies around them. ridiculous. in the mean time i just loathe everything. i pretty much think about the world.. human race is the worst thing ever happened to the earth. “we are the all singing, all dancing crap of the world” unfortunately Tyler Durden is right. i am part of the sick generation raised by the 21st century. over sexualized, capitalized, stressed, alcoholic and narcotic, mentally unstable generation. brought up to believe that we will be like the skinny girls on MTV, like great athletics or superheroes. when we face the truth we collapse. most of the time i just try to be not like that generation. most of the time my life is quite good. :neo-shaman product info: XXX XXX XXX XXX XXX XXX XXX so there's some things about me. like i already said, i like meeting new people, or just drop by and say hello. i don't believe in this: "DON'T comment me if u have nothing to say than just 'hi 10 rate me back' cos i'll just block you and never reply. say somthing intelligent", cos i don't really care if i get comments like 'hello'. saying hello and thank you are good ways to meet new people. but 'hi nice profile 10 rate me back' won't make me rate you. but i always reply to comments and maybe i'll rate you back when i get to know you. if someone likes to know something more about me, or has any questions about anything i'll be happy to answer. i'm as shy as you are. you can call me neo. ALL I REALLY WANNA SAY IS OPEN YOUR EYES Be true, for without Art Life Itself means Nothing -Andi Sex Gang PS. MSN: yes i have, but i won't tell if you won't ask me. and no, i DON'T have a webcam e-mail: yes i have, and i'll gladly tell you if i want to. layout made by neo-shaman 2007
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