Hi my name is Brandy, thanks for taking the time to look at this, even if you don't read it all. Overall I am a pretty fucked up person so there is a lot that I would have to explain here. For starters my dad died over the summer in 2007, which I am still recovering from. If you ever make fun of me for missing my father I will fuck you up because if you have not lost a parent then you have no clue how much it messes with you. Though she will not admit it, my mom plays favorites frequently. I am only still alive today because of 2 people although they don't know this, they will also never know how thankfull I am to them, because I can't tell them. I also have the most ironic blood type ever, B positive, my friends find this hilarious because I am the most cynical person you will ever meet.
One thing that most people are surprised by is that fact that I want to become a pastry chef. This fact is surprising to many people because I don't exactly come off as delicate and detail-oriented. Well that is a lie because I am very OCD about how things have to look and I need things to look perfect before other people can see them. Baking is also something that is very hard to do correctly, so it takes someone who is very precise and direction-oriented to do it as a profession. To help in my plans to become a pastry chef by career I want to go to the Western Culinary Institute, next year to do their 2 year baking program, unfortunately it is very expensive so I have to save any money that I get just to have the chance to go there.
Now for something completely different. I haven't cut myself for a little over a year, from doing it almost everyday for 4 years. The only reason I have made it this far is thanks to some of my friends. Oh and by the way if you fucking calling emo because of this I will hunt you down, tie you to a chair, and cut you into tiny pieces while you sit there screaming, helpless. Self mutilation is a serious addiction that is very hard to stop because you are generally always around something you can injure yourself with whether it be a razor or a wall. If you would like to talk to me intelligently about the pros and cons of SI I would love to, as long as you don't say "only emos cut" because statisically you are easily proven wrong.
Just so you know you will find very few pictures of me that haven't been edited to the max. This is because of many things. So if you are bothered by my pictures, well, I don't really care. I can actually stand to look at the altered ones so deal with it or don't look at my pictures. Also there are some unedited ones so don't complain. Also before you ask my name "necro_freak" does not mean that I am a necropheliac or anything else like that, it is a metaphor for a person who I know who used to go by the name "Necro" so stop calling me a necropheliac.
Most of friends are just as fucked up as me but I win that contest overall because I am just so much more to an extreme than any of them are. I find it fun to just beat any fucked up story that they can think up, however it horrifies them. You may also notice that there are a wide range of people who I am friends with, this is because I look for many things in a friendship and each person satisfies a different thing that I look for.
Here are some of the spazzes that I call my friends they are in alpahbetical order, because I am OCD like that. Can you guess who has been an enabler and who has tried to keep me alive?:
First there is Adrian he is fun and entertaining. Adrian is someone who I wouldn't go to if I had a problem but he is still fun to be around and he is very musically talented. I met him while I was in 10th grade and he was in 9th grade, This picture was from Halloween when Megan (she is coming up later) was trying to put fake blood on his face with a syringe and just happened to have failed miserably.
Next up is Amy she is opinionated and smart she is fun to have conversations with. Amy is the eternal president of our school's GSA (I am the treasurer) she cares a lot about the gay community and tries hard to make sure that people are only conveying factual information to others. This picture was taken on Gender Bender day (spirit week) and she is one the few who dressed up.
Then we have Andrew or as we like to call him Stacie, he is hilarious and really random. Andrew is the kind of guy who will just randomly show up to school dressed up as a pirate, or in a gasmask. He cares a lot about his friends and is obsessed with the game "gunz" which I know nothing about so don't ask me at all. This picture is the day before the last day of school and was trying to look mean but in reality he is very nice.
This girl who is looking quite crazy is Becky or Bekk she is actually very smart and very opinionated on controversial issues so we have great but friendly debates in this picture however she didn't know I was going to keep it so she was acting weird. She is almost the polar opposite of me in most of our beliefs but we know what to say to eachother and don't fight about what we believe like some people do with her (Republican+Washington=Fail).
DJ what can I say about DJ other than that he is a complete and total spaz. He is really fun to be around and I think that he is funny when he wants to be. He also seems to get hurt somewhat easily, and falls hard when girls break-up with him so currently he is anti-relationship. DJ has to have the worst spelling of anyone who I know but I still accept him. I know what your thinking and yes that is a little doll thing that he has on his finger.
Then we have Duc he is pretty random as well and he just kind-of dissapears sometimes we don't know why. He will also kind-of just space out and not realize that you are talking to him, though he is not a stoner or anything like that he just doesn't really pay attention. He is kind-of touchy-feely sometimes but not in that creepy kind of way it is more in the way that he will lean on you if you happen to be standing near him. I don't know why but he was trying to be sexy for some odd reason here.
Next up is James he is basically a guinea pig for us because he will do pretty much anything, but he is still cool to be around. James is the kind-of person who will be depressed but you won't know about it, so as a general rule I will try to make him feel better if he is down in any way, but he is also very happy sometimes even if it is for a seemingly stupid reason. In this picture he is glaring at the camera because I said act like a typical american teen.
Up after that is Jess she is sometimes a spaz but she is also very serious sometimes. She is probably gonna be more like herself now that she isn't with her ex anymore because he really hindered her creative personality when she was around us. She also has a slight obsession with squirrels, in-fact that used to be her nickname. This is a picture from prom of me taking a picture of her taking a picture of me.
Then we have Karsen I think I have known him the longest of the people pictured here and he is one of the people who discouraged my cutting when I still did it so he helped me out a lot. I don't think he actually knows how thankful I am to him. But on another note he is really fun to be around and I can open-up about myself with him easier than some of my other friends. He is a really friendly guy, he also writes really good poetry though it is generally extremely metaphoric.
Then there is Katie you may hear me talk about her in cults this is because she is the one who actually took an initiative to stop me from cutting. I am very thankful to have a friend like her. Katie is also a really good listener whenever anyone has a problem because she isn't very quick to judge people when they come to her with a problem. Though she is caring and all of this she is also random sometimes, like while watching The Texas Chainsaw Massacre whenever the girl would run Katie felt the need to say "boobs" which was hilarious to me and Sean. She was pretending to be a ballerina in the picture by the way.
Next is Kiley she is also very cool. Kiley is a great friend but she sometimes take things too personally and overreacts but once she calms down she is reasonable again. Kiley also cares about anyone who is having a problem. And right now obnoxiously enough she is absolutely addicted to the song "I Kissed a Girl" everytime I see her she feels obligated to sing it or play it on her cell phone. She was being a hippie for halloween.
Then there is Megan who I mentioned earlier she is great to be around. Some reasons for this may be because she is random but also cares about people's feeling so she is easy to get along with. And when I say that she cares about people's feelings that means everybodies even if she doe not like someone she will still be nice to them. I think she was dressed up as a dead prom queen for Halloween here.
Nick is after that he is a bit of an asshole but we still love him. Nick also is not the person to ever tell that you are afraid of something because he will take a huge advantage of that, that is why it is good that I know he is afraid of heights. Recently Nick has become slightly more emotional then his usual apathetic self and it is really weird to see hime react like a normal person. Clearly as you can see he loves his juice.
Then there is Ritchie he is a great guy who is very fucking random. By random I mean he will have weird conversations and he also likes to bring up communism whenever possible. Although he is quite random he is also very smart. I don't know what he was eating in this picture though.
Sam, holy fuck, he is the most random person I know. For example he will scream across campus to get someone's attention. Which we took full advantage of when we were trying to get people to join Drama Club. He is quite epic as his picture shows.
Finally we have Sean he is great and always has great ideas of stuff for us to do. He is also our ride anywhere because he is the only one of us with a car and can legally drive. Since he is the only one with a car this can be quite inconvenient when we need 5 or 6 people to get somewhere. This might not sound too bad but you have to take into account that he has a 2-door car. I miss Sean very much hopefully he will come back from North Carolina as soon as humanly possible, because he had to move down there because it is where his mom's family lives. He was a pirate for halloween.
Likes
animals, axes, baking, blood, blown glass, books on anxiety, books on phobias, books on SI, candles, cats, colored duct tape, colored electrical tape, cooking shows, deviant art, documentaries, editing pictures, fire, gas masks, glow sticks, goggles, Halloween, horror movies, horror novels, knives, masochism, my friends, painters masks, psychology, rats, refillable lighters, research books, roses, sadism, saws, scythes, sickles, stars, steel toe boots, taking pictures, the discovery channel, the food network, the history channel, turtles, writing/reading poetry, If you want to know more just ask me and I will be happy to answer any questions that you may have.
A lot of things actually, animal abuse, annoying people, anxiety, bad spelling/grammar (I am a grammar/spelling Nazi), being alone, country music, depression, doctors, emos, fake people, George W. Bush, girls who walk around in flip flops when it is 30 degrees and complain about the cold, global warming, homophobia, my family, my OCD, panic attacks, people who think that all people who self mutilate are emo, people who won't stop talking, pointless books, pointless tv shows, rap music, rejection, right-wing conservatives, scene kids, spoiled people, stupid people, therapists, those people who stare at me, when it is hot, whores, ... other things that I can't think of right this second.
Favorite Music
3, 3 Days Grace, AC/DC, Aerosmith, Against Me!, Alice Cooper, Alice In Chains, Alien Ant Farm, Angelspit, Angerfist, Anti-flag, Arch Enemy, Art of Fighters, Atreyu, Ayria, Bad Religion, Basshunter, Beatles, Beck, Birthday Massacre, Black Dahlia Murder, Black Sabbath, Bleeding Through, Blink 182, Bloodhound Gang, Breaking Benjamin, Bullet for My Valentine, Buch, Cake, Cannibal Corpse, Caustic Christ, Chevelle, Children of Bodom, Chimaira, CKY, Columbine, Combichrist, Deadsy, Deftones, Deicide, Dimmu Borgir, Disturbed, Donkey Rollers, Drowning Pool, Eighteen Visions, Everclear, Exies, Finger Eleven, Foo Fighters, Fuel, Garbage, God Module, Godsmack, Goo Goo Dolls, Green Day, Grendel, Hanzel und Gretyl, Hatebreed, Helmet, Hole, In Flames, In This Moment, Jane’s Addiction, Kandles at Nine, Killswitch Engage, Kittie, Knives in the Attic, Korn, Lacuna Coil, Lamb of God, Led Zeppelin, Linkin Park, Lit, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Marilyn Manson, Metallica, Metric, Mindless Self Indulgence, Ministry, Misfits, Mudvayne, Murderdolls, Mushroomhead, Neophyte, Nightcore, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Offspring, Opeth, Otep, P.O.D, Pantera, Papa Roach, Pearl Jam, Pendulum, Pink Floyd, Porcelain and The Tramps, Powerman 5000, Presidents of the United States of America, Prodigy, Psyclon Nine, Puddle of Mudd, Queen, Queens of the Stone Age, Radiohead, Rage Against the Machine, Rammstein, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Rob Zombie, Rotterdam Terror Corps, Saliva, Schoolyard Heroes, Scooter, Seether, Serj Tankian, Sex Pistols, She Wants Revenge, Skinny Puppy, Slayer, Sleater-Kinney, Slipknot, Smashing Pumpkins, Social Distortion, Soundgarden, Static-X, Stone Temple Pilots, Sublime, Suicide Commando, System of a Down, T3chn0ph0b1a, Terror Punk Syndicate, The Clash, The Divine Madness, The Kovenant, The Ramones, The Shotgun Suicides, The Sin: Decay, Thoughts Lost, Three Inches of Blood, Tool, Trivium, Twisted Sister, Unter Null, Veruca Salt, Weezer, White Zombie, XP8, Zero Down... and a lot others I cant think of right now.
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