You Smother Me

This whole page is for you Brandy, everything. Because I really couldn't survive without you here with me. You mean the world, and that's never going to change because I am the luckiest person in the world to have you, and I'll never let you go. There really are no words to describe how much you really mean to me. If we can be this strong and have never met each other...

Well, I think we've made it pretty far.

And if you're a mistake;

then just know I'm pretty damn proud and happy with my little mistake. ?

Well, as you can tell, Brandy Lynn Johnson takes up the rather...large part of my life.
This girl is the best part of me, more than 'my other half'.
And I may be young, and people may think what they like, but the sad truth is that sometimes, younger people are smarter an dmore experienced than those older.
"You're too young to be in love."
If I was too young to be in love, then this world would be screwed as for the future. Love doesn't depend on age, it depends on depth and maturity of a person, their midset.
"You're just bisexual for the trend"
While not conforming to being straight has grown...larger, it doesn't mean there aren't people who are truly gay or lesbian or bisexual. That's sort of the fact of the world and a dead, obvious, given.
To the main point though;
I wake up, I call to wake her up and it automatically makes my day start better.
I text her at lunch hour if I'm at school. If not I get on the computer and we talk for most the day.
Before I go to sleep I call her and I sleep better. If my parasomnia acts up, I call her and I can get back to sleep.
The only thing I'll ever need in life, the only thing I really want. True love is hard to find, and rare...but we're the definition. No words will ever describe you or how much I love you. You have no clue.

Heck, I don't even understand this feeling. That's the beauty.

There's really no way to describe what Brandy really does mean to me...and there's times where it hurts because I can't. I don't know what I'd do without her, I don't know how I was without her before. She keeps me in tact, she keeps me alive, she keeps me happier than I ever have been. She's the reason I'm who I am. Every little thing, flaw, every part of her...it just makes her more perfect.

Now I can breath easier, and life's because worth ling now. There's not a second I regret with her. This may sound stupid, or cheesy, or anything else to other people, but all I'm worried about is you knowing. There's really not much more I can say for you Branders, because you've heard it a million times before and I'm still not satisfied with trying to explain and I know I never will be.

Oddly enough, that's one of the best things in the world for me.

I'll always love her, and she's the thing keeping me alive each day. She really did save my life, and I'll never be able to repay her with anything but giving her me in every aspect. I'm so lucky to have her, and I don't deserve her. She's gorgeous, talented, beyond perfect...and she'll deny it for a while, but I'll keep telling her because I know someday I'll be able to show her how much she means to me, even if it's when I'm dying, holding her hand, smiling up at her and telling her how much I love her, I'll have given her my whole life, and I still wouldn't have given her enough. She deserves more than I'll ever be able to give her, but I'll try harder to keep her happy more than anything else I'll try for. As long as she's happy, everything will be okay.

She's the balance and constant for my life, really the only thing I'll know I have forever. She...she makes everything just seem brighter and more vivid. There's really no way to explain that feeling unless you have it for yourself. I thank God every day that I have her, and that she'll always be mine and I'll always be able to be hers.
After a year together, it's hard to imagine life hasn't even started yet. But when it does, I know it'll be the best I could ever have asked for as long as you're there just to smile at me every day. You're truly the most beautiful thing on this earth, each flaw,, each bit of appearance, each little quirk...I'm always in awe by everything. You're every little thing in the world combined into one masterpiece of perfection. You're my inspiration, my will, my all. All I need. Always and forever.

You're my hero, you've taught me everything. You make me cry just thinking about how truly amazing, how truly just...how much of a blessing you are. I'll never give up for you, I'll never let go, I'll always be here.

The world is ugly, but you're beautiful to me. Are you thinking of me? Can we both be ugly? Are you thinking I'm the one? We could fight it to the end. I just want to hold your hand. And you're probably just too good. I just wanted you to know. 1-4-3-6-3-7.

I don't think anybody understands what you mean Brandy, but I know I do, and that's all I need to keep you here. You're my everything.

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