Soul still feeding from the loss.

I'm Ronda, and evidently you want to know about me, demonstrated by the fact that you are reading this. I'm not going to tell you my entire life story, because you will never know me from reading a few paragraphs on a computer screen. I'm young, but if you judge me on it, you deserve to have been aborted. Age shouldn't be used to define one's maturity. It's just another number. I've been through a lot of shit and experienced more in my life than anyone should at this age. It fills in the gap between my age and maturity level.

Lets just get some shit straight. I'm not here to impress anyone, but I seem do to do that without effort. Don't pretend you know me, when you really don't. You can take the rumors you've heard and shove them up your ass. I'm not your typical female. I don't tolerate anyone's bullshit. I will never tolerate any of your prissy I'm-better-than-you scene shit.

I have lots of ambitions. Some of which could kill me. However, I will achieve them. I have lots of ideas, most of which never work. I keep lots of things to myself. Nevertheless, I can be very opinionated. I'm honest, though I can never decide on things. In the time it takes you to blink I'll have changed my mind. I tend to speak before I think and I have got quite a few people who don't like me because of it. Though, to tell you the truth, I really couldn't give a shit.

Now is the part where I'm supposed to say how nobody understands me, how the whole world is against my very being simply because my music taste is different, right?
Give me a break. I have close friends who understand me perfectly, and newly made friends who are on their way there. I don't feel the need to conform what's socially acceptable amongst other people my age, as it isn't my fault if others can't broaden their horizons. I love the way I dress, and I'll listen to whatever I think sounds good, whether it's what you like or not. I have my opinions and thoughts, and I'll damn well stick to them. I just can't be fucked to take any notice of people who have a problem with it.

I'm pretty much a closed box. Not many people get a look inside, not even some of my closest friends do. My life hasn't been a easy ride, but I'm still here, I'm still standing. There's always someone to knock me down, but I'll just get back up. You're not going to break me. Half the people in my life who think they know me, really don't. I'm a different person behind closed doors. I don't trust people easily. With that said, if you stab me in the back, I'll stab you in the mother fucking face. I tend to be very nice, but piss me off and I'll probably just hate you forever. Respect me and I'll respect you. Fail, and I'll antagonize you until you can't stand it anymore. With that said, I dislike MOST females. It seems as though the majority of them serve no real purpose other than to be burned, beheaded, or impaled.

I can't stand it when people patronize me, I'm not fucking stupid. I am still capable of having a conversation with you even though I am all of a year younger or something ridiculous like that. In fact, I am most likely as intelligent as you if not, more. Though I really couldn't care what you think. Because what you think, and what you know are two completely different things. I worry about my character, not my reputation. Your character is who you are, and your reputation is what people think you are. There's a difference.

You may find me extremely offensive. I can be hypocritical and egotistical. I'm a smart-ass and need an attitude adjustment. I'm impatient, stubborn and argumentative. According to others, I am pessimistic and cynical. I'll do whatever the fuck I want, whether it fits your cool or not. Don't like it? Get the fuck out. I'm honest to the point of rudeness, so if you're easily offended, don't come my way.

When I was about twelve years old, I made a very important decision in my life to not believe in a higher source.
Personally, I despise religion much more than I do the idea of a God/gods. I feel that people who put all of their faith in something or someone else have some kind of problem with their own self-confidence, but religion itself causes far more problems than just belief in a divine presence.
And although I personally do not believe in God whatsoever, I am aware that other people have their own views and it's not my place to convince them otherwise.
I believe that 'God' has not created man, but man has created 'God'. If man did not create 'God', who did?
He is fabricated to answer questions that cannot be answered otherwise. My mom tells me all the time that having faith makes life easier. Yeah, maybe to her, but to me it sounds like religion is being used to deny your responsibilities for your own actions.
How is the world run? How is everything you know made by? Rules. Equations. Properties. What's the equation for 'God'?
Everything in the world that we know and can prove has a formula. [ex. A+B=C]. 'God' has no rule. The way to disprove 'God' is simple. You can't prove it. It's as simple as that. You can prove gravity. You can prove HIV and cancer. You can even prove love. But there is no way you can prove 'God'. Why waste your life believing in something that is non-existent?
No offense towards people that choose to believe in a higher source, but I do not, and never again will.

I'm not going to go on about how I'm going to rip out your hair if you don't like me. Truth is, I probably wouldn't like you either. You'd probably annoy the shit out of me and I'd be forced to ingest glass.
I have an odd taste in music, deal with it. I have an odd taste in everything, actually..
Don't like it? Leave my fucking page. Theres a "block" option, make use of it. I promise, I won't miss you if you're that much of an ignorant cunt.

I make mistakes. I don't respect authority. Basically, to sum it all up, I'm a mess from hell. But I fucking like it.