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 She's not mine anymore, but hey, I still love her more then the stars love the night sky. The girl above would happen to be Kai, the love of my life. I don't know what I'm exactly writing about. Whether it's to get her back, or to just say sorry; she needs to see it. Kai, I love you. Even back when we first met, I loved you. It was weird, because I didn't know what was happening. I just knew that I made a complete idiot out of myself, and I wanted you to znote me back. And when you did? My heart broke. Not from anything bad, I didn't know I loved you yet. But because it was excited. And after we started talking? I'd sit at my computer & refresh the page every 10 seconds. I'd jump up and down after seeing your name on my pro. It was like a fairy tale, but it wasn't. The day you asked me out, March 26, 2009, was.. nearly amazing. Nearly because it wasn't amazing, it was beyond. And to skip ahead a little, you're everything I've ever hoped I'd find. You completely understand me, more then I understand myself. The promises we made each other, the words we said, I was so confused at first. Why would you want me? You were amazing, I was.. nothing like you. I came to you complaining and you still talked to me. It's amazing. Just like you. And I know I'm an asshole, and I break you. But I'm so glad your still here. And that's why today, January 16, 2010, I'm going to change. You're amazing, darling. You're perfect inside and out. The way you talk to fast, or the way you just keep talking.. it makes me smile like nothing else can. I know it's been hard and a never ending battle between us, but I can still say I love you and mean it. I can still say you're that amazing person I met. You're still my everything, my first love and my life. And I guess that's why I'm going to change. I love you. |
