About

We only see two things in people; what we want
to see and what they want to show us

I'm not that good at writing about myself. I have been working on this section of my profile for ages now. It is constantly a work in progress, it changes as I grow, as I learn, as I come in and out of depressive episodes. I'm always adding and taking away from it but it can never be me. I can't find a way to describe the essense of myself in words. Fiery, versatile, intuitive, inquisitive, cynical, restrained, accepting, judgemental, compulsive, feminine...masculine? malicious even. In the end they are all still words.

In the real world I am an extremely uncomfortable person, I don't trust many people and it takes me forever to warm up to them and let go. You probably won't like the me that you meet since I've got my walls/masks, whatever you want to call it. I've been told I come off as cold, which I guess is true. I'm a very sarcastic person, it doesn't usualy come off very well in type, I tend to sound like a bitch half the time. Although I really don't try to be, it happens even why I try to avoid it. I've been told I'm intimidating because of that, I'm actually pretty friendly.

I am a thinker, I spend a lot of time alone with not much else other than my thoughts. Common sense is something I'm actually good at so I'm a pretty good decision-maker, usualy for other people when they ask me for advice. I'm pretty unstable really, sometimes I wonder how it's possible for me to be so insightful about anything that has nothing to do with my own life. If I could, I would simply exist in order to observe everything around me.

I love recieving comments and knowing that someone has taken the time just for me. But if you want a proper conversation from me you'll have to comment me with something more than 'hi, how are you?', or at least have something to say after I respond. Sparking up a conversation from small talk isn't what I'm good at. Small talk actually, just makes me feel awkward and I suck at meeting people.