IM SORRY
All I had was all I gave
Weakness came from energy I saved
Unbearable pain I suffered through
The sacrifice I made because I love you
I worry too much I can’t sleep at night
I survived through our fights
I always think I’m not good enough
It’s hard for me to show my love
But in the end I realize
That you appreciate the sacrifice
You understand that I am trying my best
And you see me for me and leave out all the rest
SOMETHING I WILL NEVER KNOW
Something I will never know
Is what you thought was what you showed
And when you said “I love you”
I could believe that it was true
Something I will never know
Is when you said “yes” you really meant “no”
Did I bother you when I called
Would you catch me when I fall?
Something I will never know
Was if my guard was to low
And I will never see
if you had true love, if you would love me
IVE BEEN HURT
When the phone rings
When your name is on caller ID
When the radio sings
The song you dedicated to me
I start remembering
The love we had and how it used to be
When I here the words
When someone says “I love you”
I feel the hurt
The “love” I thought we had, I believed was true
Behind those eyes I didn’t see the jerk
when someone tells me they love me, I will start out new
FOREVER RUNNING
Rumors so out of control
About something so personal
Crazy how it spreads so fast
It sucks when you’re the one to hear it last
Makes you doubt who you trust
Keep it to yourself if you must
Try to hide but you’ll be found
Your whole life you'll be running around
Shed the tears when at home
Somewhere you think you’re free to roam
But everywhere you go the truth will be found
Your life and dreams will fall to the ground
LISTEN TO YOUR HEART
I listened to my heart
When I know I should
But the truth was misplaced
My heart was misunderstood
I thought I was right
Everything was moving smoothly along
I thought I was prepared for the worse
I ignored what my heart said when everything was going wrong
Now I’m left with broken pieces
Of the heart misunderstood
I'm giving up on love
Because this broken heart says I should
MORE THAN FRIENDS
In the end
I still believe
That “just friends”
Isn’t good enough for me
If his heart was a token
It will get all I adore
In my hands, he would awoken
Hed see to this life he has more
But his heart is gracefully occupied
I know now it will never be
But these hands are always open wide
My eyes are looking for oppurtunity
JUST LIKE THEM
When I would fall
Nobody was there
When I was about to die
Nobody would care
When I shed a tear
Nobody asked why
When there were thousands of cuts on my wrists
They’d just walk by
I will forever be hurt
My life will soon end
But why am I telling you?
You’re just like them.
BE HERE
Wipe the blood from my wrist
Wipe my tears away
Catch all my falling dreams
Catch my shooting star
Promise you will be here
Promise you will forever be
Hold me tight like you always do
Hold my heart and protect it from harm
Block all my enemies
Block this pain I feel
Wrap your arms around me, keep me safe
Wrap your heart around mine, it keeps me alive
TANGLED CHAINED WALLS
I feel trapped in these tangled walls. Time passes as I try to figure out how to unravel myself. My impatience detains me as I give up easily. I see a door open wide. I at first not try, all my hope has fallen. I run to the door with all my energy. Im almost there as the door starts to close. I near the the closing door and as soon as my fingers approach it shuts in my face and thechains tighten and pull me back. The force of dragging across the cold wet floor feels how ive always felt. Wet from tears. Cold. Uncomfortable…. Trapped. I resist as best as I can to loosen he grip of these tight chains but my strength isn’t as abundant as before. My hope has left.
Here I am, lifeless, on the cold wet floor, tangled in these chains… forever.
TANGLED CHAINS
I lie there on the cold floor. Lifeless. Thinking. With my eyes focusing on the dim light ahead. I feel as though if I tried, I can reach this light. Regain my strength. My knowledge. My hope… My life.
I wish I could trust my courage. It is what led me astray thinking I can do anything. It is what confused my spinning mind. My stolen soul. My broken heart. These rattling chains detain me. When they tighten, like a starving snake around its prey, they wrap around me. Choke me. Pull me farther back.
Contrarily, the rusty chains patronize me as they loosen. Feeling the tension ease, I gain a small bit of confidence. But my memory pulls me down, harder and farther than the heavy chains. My experiences haunt me.
For the rest of my eking existence, I will lie here, cuddled in this coldness, avoiding every chance of survival.
WALK WITH ME DOWN MY GRAVE
Walk with me down my grave
Hold my hand
Just listen, you'll understand
We can confess, suffer consequences
Walk with me down my grave
Say our last goodbye
Wipe your last tears, please don’t cry
After you cover me secure
Stay five minutes just to be sure
Walk with me down my grave
Promise you will remember me
Promise you'll cherish every memory
Its amazing the love we share
I needed you love, it was there
Walk with me down my grave
You never wanted to let go
Told me you loved me smooth and slow
A teardrop role down your face
Depressing how we gotta say goodbye like this
WHEN I VISIT YOUR GRAVE
Yesterday, I visited your grave
I placed to items on the cold grass, next to the shiny stone
The first, was a Band-Aid to resemble how you are a Band-Aid over my heart
You sow it together and keep everything safe from harm
The next was a compass
For you are a guide for my lost soul
Now that you are gone my heart is broken
Its falling apart
My lost soul is nowhere in sight
Its lost its direction and is lost in this sea of life
CONFUSION
Thoughts race through my head as though they have to get out. Scrambling through my skull searching for any hope of survival. Clutter my head, affecting my concentration. This busy and tired community is unhealthy for me. As a thought approaches what it thinks is a safe passageway it builds what little hope it has left. But the sweet escape is to good to be true and ends to an abrupt halt of a surprising swirl of confusion. The dead end reminds me of the many problems I have not yet conquered.
Eyes wide awake when time to settle down but heavy when the need to be alert is required. My strength weakens as these thoughts tire me. I am now unaware of what is around. I now can’t see what affects me.
JUST SAY IT
You answer when I call
You reply when I text
You invite me to the mall
Even with your friends
I was surprised when you went out of your way
And just said out of the blue
Three simple words today
“I love you”
STARVATION
I'm dying from the hunger
Craving what used to be
I can’t stand this starvation any longer
Teasing myself from what I can’t see
My life depends on what this supplies
So I’m dying from the loss
Save me now, with one simple device
You would feed me this no matter the cost
No need for searching, it’s already there
There's no dead ends, no sacrifice
If you love me, if you really care
You’d give me what satisfies
PLACE OF YOUR HEART
Well leave this place. Run until we can’t run anymore, we’ll leave this place and find somewhere only for us.
Go to the place where blind can see. Where amazing experiences are from what's seen.
Go to the place where the deaf can hear. Where the first sound heard is the beating of your heart.
Where the weak is strong. And can fight the harm.
Your heart is a safe place, so warm. So peaceful. Your heart is somewhere to run to, to get away. We can avoid all harm together. We can get away from it all.
No need to pack our bags
No need for arrangements
No need to plan our alibi
We will miss no one or nothing, because we got each other, and that’s all we need
ONE
This fight is just one but just one can break a heart
A rock is just one but just one can cause anything to fall apart
What you said, you did not mean, I know
But that really hurt, and that hurt cant show
Bruises so painful and cuts so deep
A promise is just one but just one is hard to keep
A tear is just one, but just one can’t show this pain I feel
I try to deny, but I know this is real
To save myself from this pain, there’s only one way
Is say goodbye and start a new day
GOING AWAY
There's only one life for us to live
And I need someone who has love to give
Your just one obstacle I have overcame
I know there are more levels to this life game
I learn from mistakes and never forget what's not right
So I’m avoiding your problems and all your fights
I’m leaving again but this time I’m not coming back,
I’m going somewhere I know I can unpack
And not worry about being hurt and having to say goodbye
Or when you say your going out I don’t have to ask why
Where I feel loved every day
And its not here, so I’m going away
