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I dreamed that when I found that person he would take me away and we would live forever together. I now know that love dont happen as a fairy tale at all. Its better than that. Much better. I now know that love isn't all about my perfect dream, or my perfect fantasy. It's the smaller things that are the best. The way he says my name,the way he tells me Im beautiful at all times, the way I feel when I think of him and think of his touch, the warmth I feel when Im sad and I imagine him hugging me, telling me it'll be ok, it'll get better, the way he gives me butterflies in a moment. I long for is touch,Im always miserable without him, everyday after day,I hurt and urne to be next to him. I know once I am,I'd never leave him,ever. As long as he would have me I'd stay forever...." Maybe,just maybe you are the one thing in my life that I can ever call mine. You feel in a different way than I do about you. You hate yourself. I love you. I hate myself. You love me. We have that in common. Maybe among other things. Of course,I said forever...how do I start forever with you? I'd never run from forever. I cant run.Your the only one I'd run too. Before you I would never run to anyone, I'd sit in my room and cry about how I had noone to hug while I was in pain. I still dont have anyone to hold while crying but least your there to talk too.... And I know you will be next to me for real someday and forever... Well well Im back early unfortunately early. I was supposed to leave Sunday on the bus then didn't want to ride back alone on the bus so my parents were coming to get me Saturday, Well fucking snow storms were coming and had to leave fucking Friday. That pissed me off so bad,I was crying. I wanted more time with my baby. Anyways to the brighter side.... The fist time I met my baby (Colt),it was amazing. After a whole night of waiting for him to get here on a bus, after a shit ton of delays in Dallas,he finally got here at 5:30am when he was supposed to be here fucking at 1am that morning. Well I went inside the store and then didn't see him,I was like WTF man?! Then He came around to the front of the door,and everything changed and was brighter in an instant.:D That was amazing. Then we hugged ect,got all that outta the way,and he met my mom,my mom likes him well. Thats a plus! Then like we went home and my parents went to bed soon after that, and we went walking around outside,I showed him around the "middle of nowhere" farm I live on :lol And we sat around in the bamboo doing couple things and smoking. Then came back to my house and went out to eat Chinese food.Yum!Both our favorites! Then we came home and chilled some,talked to the family more, I took him driving around and to the cementary,and hung out there awhile,was very romantic! Hehe Then we came home,I took him to the pond and fields here,we layed out in the opening for an hour I know,omg that was awesome,we are so passionate together.The sun was shining through the trees and his eyes seem to glow green when the sun hits them,its so mesmerizing.I can stare into them all fucking day :D I loved it more than anything in this world. I cannot wait til next time. Then we drank some after getting to my house yet again. And fell asleep together which was best! Then he woke me up saying he better get on the couch before my dad found us :lol that was funny. So the next day we spent it getting ready for the bus ride,and he met more of my family. Then we just enjoyed our time. Later that night,we got on the bus,which the ride was amazing,we made out the whole way pretty much,if we weren't trying to sleep. Which sleep was impossible to do on that thing,he made my boob go to sleep by sleeping on it. :roflmao But in Dallas it was kool cause it was just us two in the city, alone no parents and so on. It was awesome! So after waiting 5 hours we finally got on the bus and on our way to OK City. That was a loooooooong ass ride there.God I never thought it would end. But watching the sun rise on the road with everyone else on the bus dead asleep and my lovey on my boob :lol sleeping semi ok was nice,I'd watch the sunrise and hills then watch him for a little bit. It was nice. Then finally got to his house. Met his family ect. Watched a movie with them all.I think we watched Legion.It was eh not that good but I was just more consecrated on Colt.Hehe We cuddled on front of his parents. That was weird cause they didn't say a thing. We drank more another time and watched a movie. First night I was at his house we fell asleep together and that was again amazing. I woke up and seen him and heard "Hello beautiful".:D and got a good morning kiss. we only got to sleep together all night twice. I had to sleep with his sister once.Ugh that sucked being away fro him that night. I met his friends,that was fun lol.I seen they get annoying but it was funny. They finally left,I think that's when we went out to eat.It was koool.And yummmy!!! He was always so sweet.Always being nice,always being a great boyfriend,kissing my cheek,kissing me every time I turned around :) Making me feel amazing.If I ever say anything bad he says NO! :lol at me and makes me admit Im great.Hes just so amazing. And waking up next to him and him kissing me in the morning was great. Also no fucking.Hes sweet.He makes LOVE!!!!! :hearts hehe yay! Thats great as fuck. I never wanted to leave.I could lay in his arms forever and ever. Its that great.I would never get sick of him. Everything we did just worked out perfectly.Hes a good kisser,he did everything right and just perfect. I cannot wait til Im with him next time. It should be summer.I hope so! Ill die if not.:lol It was just too fucking amazing. I cant wait for forever to start. Well I dont know what else to say and this is very fucking long so yeahh. All I know is....I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!! :hearts I was just so happy with him.And I needed it so bad.He made me happy and the whole time I was with him I was not sad or pissed. Niether was he.We aere perfect together. Need proof??? 
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