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Free Satanic layouts at SatanSpace.comUnderground Insides are tearing Convulsing Wailing Weeping hearts Show their face Confronting the Task of Death Clicking, Clicking The Hand moves backwards Seconds speeding soundlessly Tearing wider Light searing through Blazing bitterness bites The hole shut Pearing and searing without intent Slam the head into Sand Run fingers over The Mahogany Mattress Faltering familiarity Holds the shade Fastened Glued Never breaking ground ~ Consumption of the Flame Evergreens sway with the sounds of chirping birds Nothing disturbs those under the great evergreen Butterflies swirl in the wake of a breeze Lightning flashes All scatters Terrified of the crashes Haunting curiosity grips me Closer I inch To the scene of despair Bile wrenches upwards Severed bodies of birds lie in the shade of the evergreen Charred, smelling of burning flesh and feathers Death swirls around me Destroying all in its path Silently I creep out of its hold I am just an observer Too interested for my own safety Firelight catches my glance Dancing flames among the clouds Tethered to the Heavens They reach down Drawling me into its embrace Shadows surround the flame, enveloping me Ashes emerge I fall Colliding with the great evergreen The flame abandons me, moving to its next victim ~ Destiny Fire They said she will grow to forget him They were wrong There was nothing left for her No tears left to shed Swallowed by the sea of black They will learn to forget her Destiny Fire Shit Snap out of it Business suits and miniature cell phones Mental note to steal Just another picture Left home Heart set on the city That's the girl that ran away She's weird Lost in thought Needed it fast You're beautiful Whispered in her ear Crossed her arms Don't say that Alley By Ninth Street No Address I love you ~ Bus Stop Observations The hard bench keeps me alert of those around me. So many people, so many possibilities. Each person holding a different purpose in life. A woman hushes her crying baby. A man reads the latest newspaper, focusing on the sports section. A grandmother hums to herself a tune, remembering her youth. A boy, around ten or so, rides his bike in circles to pass the time. A young man bobs his head to the beat of the music emanating from his headphones. The sun beats down and little beads of sweat form on my forehead. I squint my eyes in an attempt to gather my surroundings. A tree with wilting leaves. Pavement partially covered with sand. Blacktop, crisscrossed with white, yellow and blue paint, all in various stages of fade. A few sparse fluffy clouds in the sky, severely cut by black power lines. A Burger King, a Checkers, a diner and a bar, all within eyesight. Such a beautiful day. So many things to do. So many places to visit. Not enough time. I would like to just sit here. Watch everything. But that is unfortunately impossible today. The bus approaches. All activity ceases. Everyone moves into a jumbled line. Race to the front. Get the best seat. God forbid you are stuck next to someone you don’t know. ~ Fuck God Your God is dead He writhed in pain Till I ripped his heart out He begged and pleaded For me to be merciful Is that your ideal leader? A coward A fake Who cried when faced with death Who is He to condemn me? Who is He to say I'll burn in Hell? Who is He to say I'm not worthy for Heaven? I may be a bastard But I don't deserve torture God is dead Forever lost to my eyes I will not bend myself to His rules I will do as I please Fuck God I will not spend my life worshiping a megalomaniac I have better things to do With the little time I have Fuck church Fuck damnation Fuck the wine Fuck the bread Fuck the sinners Fuck the pure ones Fuck Judgment Day Your fucking God is dead Don't try to revive Him He is a lost cause He has gone to Hell If he will ever emerge He will be tainted Contorted and twisted God is fucked And I am not I am free of Him ~ Remembering the Forgotten Death is the beginning of a Journey A never ending, wondrous journey The traveler may or may not be willing As the casket lowers Flowers fall Tears form ans splash to the ground Those left behind Begin to hate Lash out in anger Cry until there are no more tears left As rain falls on the freshly dug dirt A life is washed away Memories turn to stone Forgotten yet remembered As weeds grow upon the dirt Time moves on You are joined by those you love By those you despise And by those you never knew One life is made While others fade Emotions stir and lines blur But one thing is unrelenting and constant Someone will remember what someone forgets ~ Endless Burning Feelings intervenes fate Wind blows differently Unpredictable feared change Tempers flaring everywhere Fights appearing suddenly People enter fire Minds melding quickly Stomach wrenching apart Lungs inhaling smoke Eyes burning endlessly Despair flooding senses Unclear thoughts overriding Fear exploding chances Paths closed forever Unrelenting pain searing Time slowing down Hope fades away Death consumes all No life remains Destruction reigns supreme ~ Freak I walk down the street in broad daylight A car drives by and the driver yells out the window "FREAK!" I wear black-therefore I must be depressed I listen to metal music-therefore I must be violent I don't go to church-therefore I must be a devil worshiper I wear a trench coat-therefore I must be homicidal I like vampires-therefore I must drink blood I find death beautiful and mysterious-therefore I must be suicidal I love pentagrams-therefore I must be a witch I like the night-therefore I must be trouble I like horror-therefore I must be disturbed I have been accused of all of these things Freak, maybe Depressed, not sure Violent, at times Devil worshiper, who in their right mind would worship evil? Not me. Homicidal, no, not at all Blood lover, everyone has to love it or at least appreciate it, blood keeps us alive Suicidal, my life is to good Witch, I wish Trouble, no, my conscience gets the best of me Disturbed, slightly Next time, look deeper before you judge me. I am not the person who you think I am. It is impossible to know someone at just a glance. How would you feel if I judge you with only a glance? Angry? I thought so. Please stop doing it to me. Or maybe, because of you, I'll become what you think I am for a split second ~ Curiosity-A Sharp Toothed Friend Have you ever had a sudden attraction to someone? Blinding and uncontrolling? Mind boggling? Desire dripping off of every thought? Someone that has been right in front of your eyes but now you all at once truly see them Makes you think Stopping your breath in wonder Contemplating all the possibilities All the consequences Curious as to why you never saw it before Hesitant on whether or not to act Do you want to risk something bad happening? Do you want to change something that has undeniably worked up to this point? You can't think properly You feel frozen in time You ask: "What is the measure of happiness?" "What does it mean to be truly happy?" "Can more than one achieve happiness in conjunction?" Who knows? I sure don't I'm just lost in my thoughts Reflecting on matter of the heart verses the mind ~ Torturous Love Hey Asshole-- Will you let me in on what I did wrong? Why the fuck are you shutting me out? Suddenly Without explanation Mother fucker-TELL ME! I think I deserve and explanation You always made me laugh You always made me smile You always made me blush Now, you make me cry Not knowing the reason why Please I'm waiting For your reply After all those hours on the phone How can you ignore me, leaving me all alone? I let you glimpse into my soul A rare privilege given to no one I worried about you constantly And this is how you repay me? You fucking jerk You always made me laugh You always made me smile You always made me blush Now, you make me cry Not knowing the reason why Please I'm waiting For your reply I love you, you fucking shithead You said you loved me too Was it a fucking lie? Is it a one sided thing? Did you change your mind? I need to know why You always made me laugh You always made me smile You always made me blush Now, you make me cry Not knowing the reason why Please I'm waiting For your reply You always made me laugh You always made me smile You always made me blush Now, you make me cry Not knowing the reason why Please I'm waiting For your reply DON'T KEEP ME WAITING You always made me laugh You always made me smile You always made me blush Now, you make me cry Not knowing the reason why Please I'm waiting For your reply Answer me asshole I can't stand the pain of not knowing ~ THE ACT Crowd swaying Arms encircling Eyes connecting Lips touching Breath aligning Hands moving Minds racing Conscience flickering Heart pumping Blood flowing Palms sweating Time quickening Noises blaring Bodies crashing People rising Universe disappearing Everything fading Two Existing ~ Numb My wish has come true You're not here Was it for the best? Probably You're not here to comfort me You're not here to scold me You're not here to make me smile You're not here to make me laugh You're not here to make me cry You're not here to challenge me I've already forgotten what it's like To live with you As if you were never here at all It's been a long it since we last spoke It should hurt to know that But for some reason, unknown to me, it doesn't I don't feel anything I must be numb Still in shock Why aren't you pushing to see us? Have you already moved on? I'm not sure if I have I just don't know But what I do know is I miss you ~ The Way I Am I hate the things people do The things people think How they act How they expect you to act How they push so hard Sorry, I need some alone time If you don't respect my space Then you can back off I am a Solitary Creature I need to be by myself sometimes When I sink into that mood Everything makes me angry I do apologize for my actions Or lack there of I have resolved myself to a certain behavior It'll take more than a week to Alter that mindset I have fought to keep If I tell you to back off a bit Or withdraw from your touch I'm sorry, but I can't help it I'm not used to it We're moving so fast and it scares me Just give me a little bit of reflecting time I have to get used to you To integrate you into my lifestyle If it takes longer than you expect Remember, it's not your fault It's mine ~ A Cerulean Paradise Floating toward a place whitened by a bright light Light so bright it prevents all vision A sense of clarity and peace My eyes adjusting, regaining my sight Beautiful black roses bloom everywhere Water flows through cracks in the ground Beauty is everywhere, unfaltering The water is made up of the same cleansing color as the sky Cerulean blue, the purest of all blues The wind whips through my hair The wind sends countless numbers of butterflies swirling around me This place seems unreal It is like a dream, like it shouldn’t exist Purged of all the evils of life My soul is finally at rest Who could have known that the afterlife would be this fulfilling It felt like I had been waiting an eternity to enter this amazing realm My journey has been completed The weary traveler has reached the end of the road What lies ahead, is for someone else to discover I am finished I will forever dwell in this cerulean paradise ~ Cycle of Terror Bathing in a pool Pool of blood and sorrow Absorbing all the desire and sin Everything has changed Turned upside down abandoned The want for everything good has melted away The forgotten feeling encased in hate Nothing pure is left to protect Cradled in fear, embracing the darkness Screams fill the air Nothing to comfort you in your hour of need All senses are numbed Empty and lost, all is gone Unable to shed a single tear for the other damned souls You are one of them now Trapped forever in this ongoing cycle of terror Pain and sorrow for all eternity Get used to it Forget all you have known It is all useless here All memory of you is wiped away Enter your sentence with hate Full of desire and sin ~ A Wish For Bliss Forty-eight hours of bliss Gone in a blink of an eye I want to see you again Look into your beautiful brown eyes Run my fingers through your long burgundy hair Hear your soothing deep voice See your heart-melting smile Where are you? I look for you everywhere Are you looking for me too? I think about you constantly It’s amazing how two days can change a person so much We stayed up all night Talking about everything and anything You looked up at me through a curtain of silky burgundy hair I want to feel your arm around my waist again, keeping me safe I need to find you But all I have is a name No one knows you Every time I think about you, a small smile creeps on my face Reliving the memory of you over again in my mind That’s all you are, a mere memory A deep regret, a secret desire I’m always wondering what it would be like to be with you I miss you and I only met you once Once is not enough I need more I want you, only you ~ Dented All gone but one One chance to do something right But knowing me I'll fuck it up Just like I always do Is there anytime That I get it right? Can't I ever come out on top? Why are you afraid of me? Am I really that scary? You have to tell me What it is I'm doing wrong I need to know The unknown is slowly eating me alive Am I selfish? Am I harsh? Am I too aggressive? Why do I frighten you? You have to at least give me that Please don't keep me in the dark about this ~ Justice By Suffocation Your kiss tastes of hate Draining life away from my fate Do I taste the same Am I the one to blame I want to feel it once more Saturating me with disdain to the core Your breathing become much faster now I want to stop it but I'm not sure how My hand covers your lips Its his blood in which he sips Hush, I am doing you a favor, my love Your breath feels warm against my glove You must be made the martyr There is nothing left for you to barter You have destroyed too many lives With one swift flick of your knives A cold chill overcomes your skin You are paying for your sin I'm sorry I has to do this But you took those whom I miss You will thank me in the end Your death is just around the bend The flowers that I shall place on your grave Are for those that you wrongfully deprave I feel no shame in this act You are evil and that's a fact ~ Journey Down the River of Death You became withdrawn Your body was found at dawn No one knew you were being tormented Your story will now never be lamented Your wrists were slit, deep and wide Too many times he had wounded your pride Love was so far from your reach Your heart was so hard to breach The sky swirls with your tears Collected over these many years He repeatedly beat you down Embedding in your head a thorny crown All I wanted was to feel your embrace Now it’s gone, without a trace This is the river of death in which you now float In an aged, rickety wooden boat All trivial worries whisked far away You are settled in a place with never-ending day People do care for you up here No matter how desolate it may appear The river you ride is driven by lost hopes But back to this world, there are no ropes In due time, I too will ride the river That thought makes me moan and shiver ~ My Crimson Pain Piercing needles in my flesh Pinching and poking, ripping away skin Drawing blood, crimson and rich The crimson stream drips on the perfectly white satin cloth It is tainted now Beauty is masked by the crimson stream Spreading, engulfing the pristine color It hardens, making it its own The stream stops but the pain still lingers A reminder of my dark thoughts The white cloth is thrown into a corner Crumpled up Never to emerge again It will not overtake me I will not be tempted to do it It feels so good it’s scary Scared that I love it Scared that I won’t be able to stop It will not mold my feelings I am stronger than it It will not control me The pain is lost in a sea of tears It may be gone for now It will resurface again I hope I can fight it I am stronger than it, I can feel it ~ Unreliable Another broken promise Another disappointment Why can’t you just keep your promises Just another one down the drain Stop making promises, you never keep them I’m sick of counting on you I’m let down once again I can’t rely on you for anything except being unreliable Chorus: It’s so damn pathetic The words ‘I promise’ should never be uttered from your mouth ever again You’re so fucking pathetic I can’t trust you to follow through You say tomorrow or another time Bullshit, just shut the hell up You don’t mean it Another tear drips down my face, another lost promise I can’t ask you for anything It’s not just me either You let everyone down so much it’s sickening Is it so hard to do what you say The glass filled with every broken promise is overflowing with tears Chorus Stop filling me with false hopes Just leave me alone I don’t want anything from you anymore Chorus So damn pathetic So unreliable ~ Time Expired Confined to this box I see too many locks Red water rising All there is left is compromising At this critical hour I have lost all my power Mixed up in a daze Befuddled by this twisting maze No time to waste I must make haste Fading air and light Why can’t I ever be right? My mistakes led me down these trails The box is shut with iron nails Taste of water in my throat I am drowning in this moat For me it is too late I have failed to wake Nothing remaining of this soul I have paid my toll ~ Wading Through A Dream Come to me Brother of mine, Come swim the river surrounded by pine. Nothing will hurt you when I am around, But don’t you utter a sound. Do you hear the moon call? It wishes for you to fall. Darkness desires you; you’re clean. It is not in your nature to be mean. The water splashes over my face, You just stand there and pace. You enjoy watching me in pain. The leeches, it is my blood they drain. Oh Brother, save me from this terrible ending. It’s impossible for you to be so condescending. ~ Soulless Void Tears of blood flow down my face Wooden spear through my delicate heart Torn from my body and cast aside Writhing on the floor far away from me Overwhelming sadness overtakes me Whispering wind of fear taking my breath Unfamiliar, distant feeling running through my veins Blackness blurring my vision Ringing, blocking out all sounds around A single lone cry penetrates the perfect silence Earsplitting, tearing up my mind Breaking it into pieces A gaunt figure appears in front of me It picks up my shredded heart Putting its finger to its mouth for silence Grasping my heart in its silver hands Restoring it back to its original shape Holding out my heart in front of me An inch away from touching my soul It closes its fists and destroys my hope Eternal silence overtakes me as I am consumed by the figure ~ Dear Lecture Junkie- I don't give a fuck what you think of me Why should I care You tell me I'm self absorbed So fucking what I like the way I am What matters is that I don't end up like you You are a piece of shit Smothered in failure after failure I wont be a failure like you I refuse to do anything but succeed I have my own dreams You aren't going to smash them You try to bring me down but it won't work You don't realize I'm full of apathy towards you When it comes to your bullshit You are a pain in my ass Lecture after lecture, I'm fucking sick of it Its like nails on a chalkboard I just wanna rip your fucking nails off Maybe then you'll shut the hell up And leave me alone Just go away I'm sorry to say it, but your presence pisses me off Just go away I'll only ask nicely once Then you'll regret all you did to anger me |