Chapter 1

Well, a warm Welcome to "Ryuu's Story"

This site isn't meant as a comercial about me, or a lame
Story about how a baby grew up to what i am now.
It's just a small page with some of the best and
Worst things that ever happened in my life

OK, so it kinda is a life story.. /care,
If you don't like it, then just don't read it:)
I just made this because i love html and i didn't
Have a subject to make a page about^^ so now you know

~So here it begins with an introduction of myself and the positive things in my life:)~

My name is Ryuu, a nickname of coarse, i don't
Like it when strangers know all of my details.
I was born on the 12th of Juli 1990
I have a little brother named Thei,
2 years younger then me. Wich brings me to the first
Positive thing in my life:)
My brother and I are more like best friends instead of family,
We haven't had a fight for around 8 months now.
Exactly how it should be between brothers,
Trusting each other..spending a lot of time together
A really unbreakable bond
Our pictures:

Despite the fact that we are diffrent in age,
We are on the same line.
Thei is more mature then I was on his age.
Thei has dislection and some other handicaps,
But even so, he is an intelligent and sucessful
Person with a rich social life Like me.
We have almost exactly the same friends,
Likes and dislikes in life.

Our friend-group is a group of mainly alternative people.
At the moment we are a group existing of about 30 friends.
I see about 5 of them each day,
The others I meet about once every week,
But you are unable to correctly count such things.
Without this group, my life wouldn't be as beautiful
As it is now. I've had a lot of great
And special moments with the people
In the group and I'm sure
Many more will follow in the future.
Who are my friends?
Well just take a look at the gallery of my VF:)
I wonder if you are still reading:)
If so, then this is not as uninteresting
As I thought it would be:)

Chapter 2

~As Current Turns To Past~

So now you know how my life currently looks like.
But what about the past?
As the clock ticks backwards we arrive at
A point 7 years ago.
At this point my life wasn't quite what you call "Sunny".
Being the centerpoint of all the bullying wherever
I was. At that time I was quite fat,
Had a bracelet and was the perfect example of someone
Who had never heard of the word "fashion" before.
Everyday I was affraid of going to school..
Affraid of another day full of negativity
And painfull minutes..The time between arriving at school
And the end of a long day
At this awfull place were like a hell to me..
And this repeated itself for 2 long years..
Until I was placed in class 3H4.
That year was the turnpoint in my life.
My bracelets were removed, and my hair grew longer.
After about 4 months I spent my time with a little group
Of alternative people, those people are the same people
Still in the group I spent my time with these days.
I became alternative, and i started loosing weight.
After like 6 months i was transformed from an abomination
To a person accepted by slightly more and more people.
My self-confidence grew, and the bullying decreased dramaticly.

The group of friends grew larger and larger,
And then, a little while later..
Something I first thought to be impossible happened.
A relationship with a girl.
This for a total time of 6 months(but 2 breakups in between).
But despite it wasn't a permanent relation,
My self-confidence increased once again,
And my personality became even stronger.
Later i had 2 more relationships
With a girl named Djara
And a girl named Eef.
They gave me a lot of beatifull memories
I still remember and will for the rest of my life.
In the meanwhile some other less important things happend,
But those were things that also affected
My characteristic growth.
A rough summary of these things:
An addiction to a game called World of Warcraft,
An argument with a good friend wich lasted for over 3 months,
Not finishing secondary school
And a period were I had a lot of problems with my parents.
All those problems were solved shortly after they started,
Exept for the WoW addiction wich lasted over 1.5 years.

In the same period I found myself in a part in life
Which every person in the modern days gets to deal with.
The so called "Experimental Period".
In this period you get to deal with all that god has forbidden
(I am not katholic so No problem here:P) And in that period i tested all kinds of drugs.
I remember it well: The speed, XTC and weed/hasj went OK..
But the coke and ketamine left there marks in my memories.
The test period was over fast.
Since i was smart enough to know
That drugs work only for a little while.
I did not touch them anymore..Till that cold black week..
The week I want but cannot Forget.

Chapter 3

~The Black Week~

The black week, probably the hardest period in my life..
Which lasted about half a year,
In the same perdiod as the start of month 14 of my WoW addiction.
This was something no-one deserves..
The black week was the week that everything went wrong
In 1 small week and made a start for a period of 6 months
Filled with struggle.
In that week I lost practicly everything..
My girlfriend broke up,
My soulmate(best friend in the world)
Had to go to a mental hospital where she still lives now,
I had an argument with a friend wich lasted for over 3 months,
That argument triggered a set of arguments
Between me and some of my friends..
Including my ex-girlfriend,
My mentor on school informed me
That I would not graduate that year and last but not least,
My parents and I got into a battle of nerves again.
This enormous amount of negative energy and the pain
I had to go through at that moment caused me
To get an enormous amount of stress and later caused me
To go in a lesser state of depression.
After a short time I remembered the feeling
I got from Speed and XTC. I began taking it to feel better.
That lasted for 2 months, Then I realized 2 things.
The first thing i realised was that this weaker form of acid
Was slowly destroying me inside,
And the second and probably the thing
That i learned the most from was this:
Stress is something that you create yourself,
The same goes for the negative energy.
People believe that others give you bad energy and that it affects you,
But nothing is further away from the truth.
At the moment I realized that,
I immidiately stopped taking the drugs,
without even facing any side effects.
It made me realize that your will is stronger then any addiction
At that moment YOU...
No-one else but YOURSELF decides
Wheter you are stronger or not.
I began to see the sunny side of everything that was negative
And after less then 2 weeks I was completely healthy,
Happy and confident again.

Chapter 4

Climbing To The Top Again

After what happened i was determined
To solve all my existing problems one by one
Starting with the smaller problems.
After a short while I worked myself from having 8 problems
To only 3 very complex ones.
The 3 leftovers were:
School,
My gone soulmate
And the last remaining argument with a good friend.
With some help i tackled the school problem
By dropping Higher general secundary education
And moving on to highschool with a lower qualification.
My soulmate and I began to write letters
And we called each other every once in a while, she even
Came to visit me a few times,
So now it's just a matter of waiting Before she is back here with us forgood.
The argument with one of my best friend was solved by time itself,
Hate tempers when given time to cool down.
It took some time, but everything got better and better,
people knew they could trust me, and talk with me about anything
Without being affraid that it gets spread around
Through the whole group.
At this very moment, when typing these words,
I am back at the place where I fought so hard for to reach.
If you ask me the question: Are you happy?
My answer would without any doubt be:
As happy as one can be!

Chapter 5*

~The Things I Have To Live With Till My End~

At the 25th of june 2007
I was diagnosed with ED (Exercitive Dreaming)
A frightening corruption in the brain half
where the long term memory is located.
When one falls asleep it first goes
Through the light sleep.
Then the brain activates the information processing,
Which turns the experiences you withnessed that day
Into memories which are saved in the long term memory.
Exercitive Dreaming is a malfunction
That causes the long term memory
To overload while processing the day's experience,
The overload causes old memories and fantasy's
To sort of shoot from their
Saved spot into the brain while you are dreaming.
The brain then begins to process every loose information
Back into the brain wich brings you
In some sort of hypnose.
What happens then is quite weird
Your brain starts to process
Tousands of hours information at once,
which the brain can handle with ease,
But in your head the processed memories
Somehow interfere with your dreamstate,
Which causes you to combine
Those processed memories and fantasies with your dream.
What kind of effct does it have?
You sleep for lets say 5 hours.
But because the brain is processing
All those memories at once you also experience
Everything your brain is processing, which,
In your head slows the time dramaticly.
Sleep for 5 hours, but in your head you dream 5 months.
And the worst isn't that you remember the dream
Since they are never bad.
But because the brain needs to process so much,
It makes a little mistake every once in a while,
Those mistakes cause you to forget certain parts
Of the wrong processed memory. So it is possible
To forget unimportant things like the face of a person
You passed by in town,
But also important things like the name of your best friend,
Or how to use a microwave.
It is a rare and likely impossible to cure malfunction.
They believe it is caused by a mistake made
In the still early production of the baby in the mothers womb,
Which means that there is no cure avaidable
For a fullgrown human.
It has 2 big risks but both have a very low chance to occur.
Your brain makes a mistake when processing the data that contains
Automatic breathing or hartritm, which causes a certain death.

When you hear that you have something like this
It comes as a shock, but like everything,
There is a sunny side: May i die from it,
My deathwish wich i have in my mind
Since my 12th comes true.
When I die, I want to die while doing something I like,
That is my wish. And be honest,
Who doesn't like a beautifull dream^^.
I learned much faster to live with this
When I followed the advise of a friend.
Imagine all the things you're affraid off,
As things you really love.
So i did what she said.
I called my malfunction after something that inspired me.
I called it "Emerald Dream" A world created by the dreams
And fantasies one has built up by believing that somewhere,
at a place only you can find and reach,
This world is waiting for you, a perfect Utopia.

Later on my new school they told me
That I stood above the class's-level of intelligence,
And that I needed to do a few tests to make out
If was really that much smarter then my classmates.
The results were indeed what they expected.
My IQ level was almost 29% higher then my classmates,
And at the level of a half-genious.
With some more tests they diagnosed me with MsM(Multi Stoic Mind).
Wich means that I learn faster,
Memorize better,
Think at high logical level,
And have greatly increased reflexes.
Cool, I tought.
But the thing I should be aware of
Is that it will be harder and harder
To keep order in my head
When I rapitely learn a lot of new information.