"Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence." -Max Ehrmman (from the Desiderata)"
Status: I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. -Walden Thoreau
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Latest Journal Entry: Join it ladies. February 01, 2013, 01:56pm
Profile:Amanda, friends call me Mandi. Generally I'm easy going and try to be nice, I can be a really good listener but don't get me wrong, I have a wild streak a mile wide. If I don't like you you will know it, if I do like you you will know it. I am kool like that.
It took me a long time to come to the realization of what I believe. I always knew that yes, I agree with some parts of this religion and other pieces of that. It wasn't until my brother passed away because of substance abuse and mental illness that I finally found what I call my religion. I am a muslim, I follow Islam. I am so very greatful to God that He finally gave me the peace I had fought for so many years to find.
Frequently I am asked about what was it that completely won me over for Islam so I will just explain here. It started back in 2004 right about the time I was Confirmed (in Catholicism when you come to be about 13/14 you are "finalized" as a member of the Catholic church). I went through the motions mainly because that was what was expected of me but it felt really empty to me. For the next few years I spent a lot of time and effort looking into other religions from Judaism, Buddhism, numerous Christian sects to anything that came up including atheism. Atheism didn't work for me though because I knew there was a God but wasn't quite sure how to reach It. The only religion I was unwilling to hear out was Islam, any time it came up I pushed it aside and thought it would be too hard for me. I was frustrated and it seemed like I couldn't find an answer. I kept praying to God to show me some answer and give me some peace, then a few weeks later my older brother passed away in May of 2008 and I felt like I had to find out what my relationship with God is. I know it's weird but I wanted to make that link to find peace spiritually so I wouldn't find it in substances like he did. At any rate, Islam came up again but I actually learned about it with a real focus and found answers to the questions I had, there were valid reasons behind the actions of the faith, there was an order to things that I didn't see from other religions. I lived in a more "Islamic" way for a few months (no drinking, five times prayer, etc.) and found that it wasn't that hard; I can do this. I converted in August of 2008 and have been a lot happier and more at peace since then.
Favorite color is green, I like brown eyes, favorite season is Autumn, month is October, number is 17, animal is panther, flower is Stargazer Lilies, I love rainy days, I like meeting new people even though I am semi-antisocial, and I can be moody. 5'1'' (152.5cm), I cannot tan.
Typically there is no predicting me. I have an odd mind where I think about things in ways others might not, I try to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Of course there are instances where I can be down right miserable just like anyone else. And I am random. You know, the temper mental artist type. I like all art but especially photography. For me, photography is taking something seen daily that goes unnoticed and making it something you will never forget.
Most people that know me think I am a ton of fun but there's a lot more to me than that. Life's been turbulent for me but I wouldn't change anything because it's made me who I am today. Don't expect to get to know the deep-down me because most likely you won't even come close. If there's something else you wanted to know just ask.
Likes:I like many things, photography(Black and white mostly), music, horror movies; especially obscure movies and most Tim Burton films, Autumn, the arts in general, I enjoy singing and dancing although I don�t do either well, reading is relaxing at times (Chuck Palahniuk is my favorite author), knives, fire, and firing a gun, solitude has always appealed to me, hearing and discussing the opinions of others, storms of all kinds, boots, and I am sure there are other things that don't come to mind just yet.
Dislikes:Chemistry, bright lights, loud noise, egotistical jerks, racists, prejudice people in general, people without manners, overly talkative people, and animal abuse. That is about it for now but if anything else comes to me I will surely add it.
Favorite Music:As with most people there are random bands that play a song or two that I like. My favorite music at the time being would be from Blue October, SOAD, Eve 6, and Tool.