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DRUG INDUCED Sinking in an ocean of discord, I refuse to be rescued by the ship you're aboard. I'd rather risk my life alone than die by your side... Now if i stopped being selfish and climbed aboard your ship with no direction or destination, would we be stranded? I'm sure as we were... Dying of hunger and thirst ,before i could give you water you 'd eat me alive first... I KEEP YOUR PICTURES IN THE MIRRORS, IN ORDER TO REMEMBER TO TAKE MY PAINKILLERS, DURING MY MORNING MAKE-UP ROUTINE. MY IMAGE NEXT TO YOURS, MINE IS THE REAL THING, YOURS IS A MEMORY.. WHEN THE PAINKILLERS KICK IN MY IMAGE WARPS AND BLENDS TO THE FAKE THAT YOU ARE, AND I APPRECIATE YOU FUCKING ME OVER AND I AM SO THANKFUL THAT YOU ARE A SELFISH PRICK, CUZ WITHOUT YOU I COULDN'T BE AN ADDICT. I LIKE BEING SO MESSED UP THAT WHEN I BREAK MY BONES I SMILE ( JUST LIKE YOU SMILE WHEN YOU BREAK MY HEART) I LOVE BEING IN DENIAL, I LOVE PASSING OUT AN LETTING MY DREAMS FALL APART... ______________________________________________________________________ ---------------------------------------------------------------------- _______________________________________________________________________ Twisting, ripping, gauging out. Emotions, my life to pieces, the good qualities. Fighting through this lack luster life. Fighting for a new one. You'll never let that be. You'll never let me rest in peace.I'm not here for everyone to fall on, to walk on..I'm especially not here for you to right your wrong..Being, Breathing.You, Carbon Monoxide. I'm built on blood, it's whats in my veins, not love. It's not like you ever tried, It's kind of like you think you're good enough to live above. When they burn you down.. When your mind is sharp, with your head out of the clouds, you remember I'm the idiot who always catches you before you hit the ground... _________________________________________________________________________ ------------------------------------------------------------------------- _________________________________________________________________________ this is it, your true colors, well they're not as vibrant as i thot they'd be, but are they noticeable? certainly. you used to be mine, but now you turn to the ones that made you that clear ,dark color of red wine. Clear as in i can see right through you, dark as in you do only what you want to do. We used to take on the world when i was with you, and now you are black and i am blue. Black as in you are used and bruised. blue as in the sky is no more. Black and red remind me of everything youve said and my cold empty bed. Blue as in clear show me what i've missed all this year.... We're not on the same page. we're not even in the same book. I can't even spell it out, my words are being erased and my page is becoming blank.Can't close the cover on yourself so you turn the blame page on me. Your promises are empty like your head. You just stand there waiting, awake , but appearing dead. This is the end of our story, writers block is setting in. Im falling asleep, so from now on you'll have to meet me in my dream... Good memories dont hide typical bullshit in my life. Good memories dont make up for what youve become. Bad times make me wish you never called me your wife. Bad times are more often than some. In my heart theres a flame, no mistake its not of love, its burning off your name. You left the door open and i closed it when the weather was harsh. Now i say fuck the door, im building a wall. Now i say fuck you, cuz you are trash....

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