Passing time in the dark solitude of my loneliness, one cigarette at a time, one bottle of nodding elixir whose face looks like mine, one more handful of pills, to hasten my decline.
Stillness in a room of shadows with crumpled paper covering the floor, the madness sets in as it has time and time before, and once again I listen for someone to save me, a voice, a knock from behind my door, but silence, always silence, as my demons form a line, pushing me ever forward, to hasten my decline.
There is no mitigation, no amelioration, in this my life's cruel station, the years have only grown worse with my spirits timekeeper stagnant in his cruel design, for he well knows this curse so perversely divine, hence each day I drink and smoke, and abuse to kill the pain, for each diurnal course that passes, hastens my decline.
On this very May Day, 14 years ago, three guys who met just slightly more than twelve months before in the dark recesses of Rome’s dirties goth clubs decided to forego the celebrations of the day (May 1st is a national holiday in Italy, and a huge concert is organised in one of Rome’s biggest squares, Piazza San Giovanni) and instead hid in one of their homes, playing with samples, synths and drum machines - yes, 2001 was still the year of hardware electronics.
In the Crowley-Harris Thoth deck, the fourteenth Trump is called “Art”, and the Master Therion writes about it: “Transmute all wholly into the image of thy will, bringing each to its true token of perfection. “…Combination of forces, realization, action based on accurate calculation; the way of escape, success after elaborate manoeuvres…”
Fourteen years later, this seems to me the best way to depict my own personal experience with XP8.
I won’t bother you all again with the reasons why we are stopping now: not only I already voiced my thoughts many times in the past year, and you can still read them here or here, but I also keep reading comments like “oh, I’ve heard more from this band now that they quit than ever before”, or “man, that was the longest goodbye ever”.
It was meant to be like this: if I learned something over this years is that unless you are in the business of making pre-canned pop music (which is absolutely a good business, mind you!), you need to create more than “just” music. You need to create a narrative, a myth that people can relate with in every possible way, you need to become an icon for them to both love AND hate.
Only by doing so you can leave a mark.
I think we did leave that mark, among very few others.
No matter what you think of our music or of us personally, you have one opinion about us: and that means we exist in your noosphere, and that is more than 99% of other bands out there. That is our revenge.
Fourteen years ago, XP8 started as a (rather crappy at first) amateurish musical project, and it evolved into a complex hypersigil that will keep on reverberating its message for years to come.
from MARKO RESURRECCION: farewell and goodbye (at least for now)
May 01, 2015, 06:06:pm
Thank you as well for including the fans in this. We're learning from you as well. XP8 is dead was a sad tune man. However I definitely understand the reasoning behind it. I will be following your crew to see what they do next. Thank you.
1. What is my last name? WITHOUT CHECKING FACEBOOK
2. Who is my fiancé WITHOUT LOOKING
3. What is my nickname on here
4. who gave me my nickname
5. what is my favourite colour
6. what is my favourite animal
7. What was my biggest struggle in life? and how long did I deal with this struggle?
8. what is my simple daily routine (what do I do on a normal day)
9. what am I doing every second I can? (no one say masturbate cuz you will be WRONG!!) lol
10. who is my favourite VF model?
1. What is my last name? WITHOUT CHECKING FACEBOOK idk 2. Who is my fiancé WITHOUT LOOKING aaron 3. What is my nickname on here idk 4. who gave me my nickname idk 5. what is my favourite colour idk 6. what is my favourite animal idk 7. What was my biggest struggle in life? and how long did I deal with this struggle? idk 8. what is my simple daily routine (what do I do on a normal day) idk 9. what am I doing every second I can? (no one say masturbate cuz you will be WRONG!!) lol idk 10. who is my favourite VF model? idkI need to talk to you more and get to know you
R.I.P it's been a pleasure meeting and chatting with you guys. You guys always kick ass and thank you for the great music and support to the fans as long as you possibly could. You will be missed greatly.
i need prayers or thoughts please give me something anything
January 21, 2015, 10:48:pm
I know I tell my business too much to people and I have no filter but recently Aaron (my fiancé) unkillablescythe an di have been dealing with something potentially very devastating........ I may not be able to have children see I can make babies and he can make babies but i may be allergic to his ....stuff.... and i still need to talk to the doctor about it but i potentially could bare no children if im correct please God i want children and please I know im young and im not asking for one now but i want to make a baby in the future. please we need your prayers and/or thoughts just anything please help us
Sometimes, when she is alone,
In the dark cloudy night,
Only the lightening shows her the life,
A numb silence surrounds her with strife.
She may feel the words from the dark air,
She would never think of the happening,
But you know what, the silence speaks,
The silence tells us our future,
The time we can't imagine, the uncertainty,
The silence knows all of those,
There is no explanation of that,
She may call it a prejudice or blind belief,
However you define it, it is the fact,
Silence speaks us, warns us, shows us.
It is a kind of opaque mirror,
Behind its, all the future are hidden,
But we only can see the light through it,
We just need to believe inside ourselves,
Then only then we can hear, we can feel,
The dark silence speaks to us all...
I stole this from someone XD but please fill it out
Would you kiss me?
[ ] Hell Yeah
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Maybe
[ ] already did
Would you do me?
[ ] In an instant!
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Maybe
[ ] you look to sweet to fuck
[ ] already did
Am I attractive?
[ ] Heck no
[ ] hot as Hell
[ ] Fine
[ ] Cute
[ ] Okay I think ur pretty
[ ] Sexy
[ ] Ugly!
Do you think im a virgin?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Don't know
Name one thing you would like to do to me?
3 things you would like to know about me?
If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] maybe
What kind of pic would you send me of yourself?
[ ] Fully clothed
[ ] No boxers
[ ] Just in boxers
[ ] Only shirt and boxers
[ ] Naked
[ ] I wouldn't send you anything
[ ] Who needs pics, I have a webcam ;-)
Would you rather..
[ ] Hook up with me
[ ] Cuddle with me
[ ] Date me
[ ] Marry me
[ ] Friends
[ ] Do me
What kind of underwear are you wearing right now?
[ ] boxers
[ ] whitie tighties
[ ] thong
[ ] g-string
[ ] granny panties
[ ] boy shorts
[ ] none
What's your favourite position?
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..
[ ] 1
[ ] 2
[ ] 3
[ ] 4
[ ] 5
[ ] 6
[ ] 7
[ ] 8
[ ] 9
[ ] 10
What would you want me to be to you or what do you think about me?
[ ] Friend
[ ] girlfriend/Boy friend
[ ] Friend with benefit
[ ] I want your number
[ ] Pretty/Cute
[ ] Hottie
[ ] Sexy
[ ] Gorgeous
[ ] Amazingly Beautiful
[ ] I'd take you home in a second
[ ] I'd make out with you right now
[ ] I'd Hit it
[ ] I love you,
What's your favourite color?
Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
Hell yes, in an Instant, hot as hell, no, anything you would be ok with, 1 what fetishes do you have 2 what's your plans for the future 3 do you have tattoos, yes, naked, any of the above, none, don't have a fav, and 10, I think your hot and gf, black, yes
Let me tell you something about pits....
There are different types of pits that give you different feelings
1.You feel that your Pit is full of emotion so you:
a. bottle it upp until you burst
b. let all your emotions out
either way, you will end up emptying your pit of emotion and it will turn into your next type of pit.
2. You feel empty like all your insides just got ripped out and all that is left is a hollow corpse so you:
a. float about in your ghostly empty corpse state and wallow in your emptiness
b. try to fill your pit with unhealthy habits
c. try to fill your pit with healthy habits
if you choose a:
you will never change
if you choose b:
you will go in the dark path that leads you in a spiraling down fall into your pit
if you choose c:
you will develop habits that will make your pit full and make your life feel fulfilled
now here is the question I ask you:
What is your pit? (and more importantly) WHAT WILL YOU DO ABOUT IT?