I went out tonight trying to get rid of the Download Depression lol but I have ended up feeling even worse. I don't know if it's he weekend catching up with me or something but at one point I really thought I was going to be sick so I've come home early. It's 1am so not toooo early but still earlier than I'd like.
I really miss Download already.
I never, ever thought I would but I do.
I miss crawling out of my tent at silly times in the morning and drinking for breakfast, I miss stumbling back to my tent in the dark drunk and happy, I miss hearing all the birds and the planes and the wind and rain, I miss the Crazy Norwegians and our boys, I even miss the sleep deprivation and everything.
Today has made me smile though sooo many people have told me they missed me. It sounds silly cos I've only been away for a few days but literally the amount of texts and messages I was left and all the people that popped up on facebook and stuff the second I went on was lovely.
I uploaded 2 photos from Download, both are from the Sunday though so I look awful after a full weekend of all booze and no sleep. I swear to god my eyes are wonky...I was so wasted it's untrue and they were took in the morning. Attractive.
Millie is coming on Friday!
So excited. I hope she has fun.
Right bed time...I am up at 9am to buy HIM and Thirty Seconds To Mars tickets on pre-sale.
Goodnight.
I hoooooome!
I've never been so happy to see my bed. I've hardly slept the last few nights and shattered just isn't the word.
Download was fucking amazing though...worth every second of it.
The Friday blew a bit due to the sheer lack of organisation on their part and the night was too cold to sleep but then it just got better and better.
Sunday was the best day by far; gorgeous weather, drinking since dawn, meeting Rammstein, being on the barrier for them and then spending all night in the village on all the rides drinking.
It was really fantastic.
I have broken 2 bags, lost my umbrella, snapped a chain, broke a ring, got mud everywhere, ruined a tent, got sunburn (which includes a love heart shape on my boob) twisted my knee, took a lot of skin off my toes and been kicked in the head multiple times but it was all amazing and I guess I didn't do as much damage as I thought I might.
If I were to try and mention all the funny times I'd be here forever because I was always laughing at something. My throat hurts so much from singing, laughing and screaming.
The people were amazing. Felicia and Kim obviously but then everyone we met James and all his friends and then Dom, Ben and Bobby. The crazy Norwegian guys were amazing! Sam and the other Sam too...so many people. Well just guys actually but fuck it they're more fun anyway!
A guy made my day on the Sunday...after being there all weekend he came up and asked me if I was just there for the day, to which I replied no. He then said I looked in too good condition to have been there all weekend and my hair looked perfect. I'm sure he was probably lying but still!
I think that's all I have to say for the moment I need to unpack my stuff and I'd love to sleep but I'm sure this wont be the last time I mention this weekend.
...My Best friend.
So we're setting off to Download in a few hours and she suggested we take some reading material for the journey.
So I told her to come in my room as I have a subscription to Bizarre magazine and she might find it interesting.
She sits on my bed with about 10 issues and all I can hear is "Oh wow....look at her....god those tits...I want them all....I'm a lesbian...this is amazing...why am I only finding out about this now?"
She really makes me laugh.
And now I'm sat in bed naked and she insists on walking in my room again and again.
This weekend is going to be an interesting one!
I shall write again once I'm back home!
Download Baby.
And lastly because no journal entry is complete without some totally unnecessary soppy sentence:
Baxter I Love You Billions and Billions. I will miss you like fuck but then once I'm back you're mine forever.
I Love You Baby.
Maybe you don't need to...I'm still single. *Baxter*Not hinting or anything. ^ :PCan't wait to see you. Girly drunk times!Chat to you when I get back babe.
I say met, he literally locked eyes with me as he passed by.
I knew who he was, but at the time, I went completely blank!
Its those eyes, I'm telling you.
Central London is full of too many good looking people, hah.
So tomorrow I am going to Download Festival. This time in 24 hours I will be there, my tent will be pitched (hopefully) and I will be on my way to meet James ready to go to the signing tent for HIM.
I am really excited.
I am on my way out in a minute to go to German and then when I get home my night will consist of unpacking and repacking everything so me and Felicia can check we have everything and see if we have any stuff we can leave out. The we need to try and fit the alcohol in somewhere.
I need to double check my iPod, speakers and phone are fully charged too before getting a shower and getting into bed.
I have been so tired this week I def think pro plus in on the cards for the weekend. I'd love a early night tonight but I don't think that's going to happen. As tired as I am, I am actually considering staying awake all night because I have so much stuff to do and I need to be up early tomorrow anyway.
I'm not happy about leaving Mike in the house to be honest, I have a feeling we'll come back to an absolute state but there's really nothing I can do about it. I just hope no-one goes in my room. :/
I really wish Bax was coming with me, he's the only thing missing from an otherwise perfect weekend but I have my fingers crossed it's going to be great anyway.
I hope I get to talk to him a lot tonight so I don't miss him quite as much.
Baxter
I love me a guy with a goatee. Both of the guys ive dated had goatees, all the guys ive had crushes on had goatees. Theyre just so sexy(: I love me a guy with a goatee.
I hate those fuckn tails guys have on the back of theyre head though
HIM and Rammstein are going to be signing at Download this weekend. That means there's a very high possibility I am going to get to meet my 2 favourite bands in the world.
I have liked HIM ever since I can remember and I got my Heartagram tattoo for my 16th Birthday. I am 22 this year and still love them to death. As for Rammstein they are just absolute gods.
There are other really good bands too like Papa Roach and Bullet for my Valentine etc but I can't even believe HIM and Rammstein are going to be there. Ville and Till. I am so, so, so happy.
I am a bit of a wimp though and have wimped out of meeting loads of band members before now but I am determined to go this time!
This is going to be the best weekend ever. Honestly can't contain my excitement!
Today, this woman came into the toilets I was in with her two daughters. It wasn’t until I listened into her conversation that I realised she was Japanese/speaking Japanese, aha. I plucked up the courage to ask her if she was Japanese and she said yes, and was kinda shocked that I started speaking it to her(especially since me and my friend were being super loud and dumb before she walked in, hah).
Anyway, we continued on the conversation, and I was able to reply correctly to phrases that I had never used/heard before. It made me quite proud of myself to think that although I don’t study/dedicate my time to studying it like I used to, i’m still okay at it.
Today’s encounter with her really made me want to study harder. I even told my mum and she was saying how badly she’d love to hear me speak fluently one day.
Today was fun.
I woke up and went to my first German class. It was fun...I did learn stuff but I mainly learnt that it's hard! I didn't stress though and I kept going, I'm not going to give in either. I even came home and did my homework....well most of it, but it's still more than I've ever done before.
I then went alcohol shopping ready for Download.
Me and Felicia are taking 3 litres of white wine, a litre of Oak Heart rum and 10 cans of Kopparberg between us.
I then also have cherry sourz, apple sourz and Jager probably just for me and my friend is bringing disaronno and archers for us too.
I miiight take some vodka or Mango vodka too but I'm not a massive vodka fan really.
We then came home after a long day and started packing.
I was really tired but then all of a sudden I was rolling over laughing at Felicia. She has this big proper camping rucksack thing that is bigger than her and she's got it on her back with her sleeping bag and camping mat strapped to it. I laughed so hard. If she puts one more thing in it I'm positive she'll be on her back. It probably wasn't that funny, until she tried to clip the straps over her and they either went above her boobs making them like flat, squashed and really funny or you could fasten them above her boobs and I literally pissed myself at her, it like pulled them together freakishly close and high, it was hilarious.
I just know I am guna be knackered when we're setting off and then as soon as I see her I'm going to be in a good mood. I couldn't stop laughing.
I need to go to bed soon cos I'm shattered and I have German again tomorrow and then I'm going to do yet more shopping. I just want to sleeeeep but it'll be worth it. Guna miss my Prince so much but it wont be long until he's here for good.
Not be long Beautful. Im gong to make you the happiest girl in the world cause you deserve that and so much more, your the only one i need in my life. Ill be here for you no matter what anytime, Your my world miss!
You wont be saying that when I'm drunk calling you at silly times in the morning from Download telling you to come and rescue me. :')I Love You Baby. Can't wait to have you here with me.You're Perfect. Far more than I deserve.
i hope you and millie have fun hun
I'll try and keep my hands to myself 
Yes girly drunk times.I am so excited it is unreal.Have a great time, be safe.Love you! 
