Today is one of those days where I feel like absolute shit for an unknown reason. Every slight I overlooked before is now getting on my nerves. So just a little reminder, if you're going to talk to someone, fucking talk to them. Don't just disappear without an explanation. It doesn't take long to simply explain you don't have time to talk, or you're not in the mood.
Nah, fuck you all. I need a damn cigarette.
Mood: Take a fucking guess, genius Music: Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots
Over 5 full pages of pictures, uninterrupted. Yup. Holy shit.
Recent Photos is one of the places I go to find rad people. But literally half of it was the one dude.
I mean.. I'm impressed, don't get me wrong. But gtfo out of here.
So I got blocked tonight, haha. Was having a decent chat with a new VF user, when suddenly she was doubting the legitimacy of my account and the things I'd been saying. It's like.. Bitch, this account is 3 years old. It's not even my first one.
I find the situation funny, but I'm annoyed at the same time. Annoyed I can't have a laugh at them for being so suspicious. brambi, if y'all are curious.
Mood: A little miffed, a little chipper Music: Say Your Prayers - Dead Letter Circus
Whisper in the yard and turn the trees all into toys,
Lay there on the ground and turn the dirt into your joy,
From what I see and what I know
It's all been boring lately so I suggest we trade a question mark in for a maybe,
Time your riddles right and make a point that has no sense,
Make sure that you're smiling and the money's been well spent,
Innocence and ignorance it all goes hand in hand,
I'm not sure that I'm right but I hope you'll understand
I hope that you're still searching for the start that has no end,
And all the plastic people ave now become your friends,
Before you start to drift and your soul begins to scream,
I just wanted to tell you that you're only listening to 'A Dream'
Chemical restrains as liquid courses your veins
Death couldn't reach you or even over trace your name
You scream to the heavens and reckoning for someone to blame
As i hide in the shadows beside the window frame
You don't see me or who i have became
But you know that i will not let your beauty be claimed
I will not let the darkness hold you in its restraint
For if i do then i am the one to blame
So i let you rest in slumbers truly
Not to become victim to the worlds cruelty
For you are my overdose synthesized beauty
Overdose Synthesized Beauty
December 19, 2015, 05:41:pm
Anhedonia Just because something you read doesn't adhere to your specific tastes in writing does not in any form make it "gay shit". Have some respect for others' freedom of expression. Twisted_Nitemares86 this is a very beautiful poem you've written. you're quite talented and I hope to read more of your work
To the freaks, geeks, nerds, weirdos, or anything in between
It is our time to stand and be free
The society has washed you away like a bacteria disease
But i will stand with you if you will stand with me
Who are they to judge the way we dress, act, or how we are living
We are allowed to be a human in our own simplicity
For walking at night in the city is our paradise
So no more shall you live your life in disguise
March up and stand tall
Show them that you will never fall
That you can stand as a equal
This is the message i am sending to you... this your call
To my children and to you all
I no longer wanna see you cry
Cause you all are special in my eyes
That's what I'm talking bout. someone who can speak of the matters from the heart. Letting the world be known of our existence. We will rise together from the shadows of the night. And stand up to the light against every one who doubts our presence. Am I right???
I get migranes thinking of your name
I set visions aside and put them in wilted frames
Just wondering what was and what became
We were meant for so much more and to think i said we would rise to fame
Now i pour gasoline on broken promises and watch our lives together burn in flames
I thought that i would not have to say goodbye and now i lay disdain
hopeless in a prison that is built with memories of pain
i never wanna know what has lead this way
i tried to walk away but it is was so hard till you pushed me and left me alone in the rain
now i keep thinking of what is now the past hoping just to remember your face
So ashes turn to ashes we all fall down
Trying to get back up is so much harder now
You took away my smile and turned it into a frown
i wear a crown of thorns knowing that i am alone on this forsaken mound
i wanna get back up but i dont know how
Is this what it is like to feel the affects of wow
like your brain is jumped off the edge and land is not insight
because as strong as i am... i cant seem to bring out the might
the crows yell at me in the night
knowing i am a failure but all i wanted to be is a winner
you knew it all along
that you can kill me if you pull the trigger
Welcome to a world where things are not as they seem
And your mind opens up to things that are filled with make believe
A twisted strange land where nothing is as nothing may be
And standing in the middle of this strange dream is a girl i have never seen
Looking up at me she quickly bowed and said... My name is Alice
A peculiar being of adventurous sight
A strong but fragile thing.. holding on to what she calls might
Always searching for the ending of darkness to reach the light
Her name is Alice
A powerful soul of malice
A quick but fragrant willow filled with life's chalice
A sovereign person who runs through this maze so fast
Her name is Alice
A amazing darling of true imagination
Who keeps hope in this madness of divination
A lost foreign majestic being of creation
Her name is Alice
So sleep so close my beautiful Alice
Let your imagination run free
You will now always remember me
A creator of the paths in your dreams
cause i found my savior of make believe... Her name is Alice
I've watched the vomit circle the drain. much like dreams, always do. a sense of insecurities. crashing stars come and go. but being committed is my solace. watch me go down with the ship. every minute is sinking into my thoughts. but yet, I won't lie and say this will all be okay. because I know, this is only the end. not some false idol idea for a new beginning. Fuck the heroes, I'm not looking to save anybody. why react when you're looking for a reason to snap. stir your own damn pot. i'm looking for an absolute retire. been down this road before. not by choice. but when do we ever decide. thinking of the past, it's all been lost. trying to always find myself. but who's to say, we ever wanna truly find the monster inside. waging a war on immunity. this is alive, in here...saving an obsolete world. just to let the chains rust around the ankles. waiting for something innocent to defy the absence of proof. tell me, why should I care. keep your secrets, I'll find them soon enough. make damn sure, this won't tire. run the gauntlet and discover which fears to hold onto. nobody sleeps when being a defeatist is all contest and no reward. feet lost in the sand, a perfect condition to fail. close the casket to hide the forbidden on the inside. give space to a meaning of focus. let me say it, consider the source. vacancy has opened up, when the hospital beds have revoked the patients
You're slightly confused. You dress in black. Wonders go beyond abuse. A functional heart is lacking. You soak your hands in blood. Watch the darkness cover over you. Live within your chainsmoke. Run the night with a knife in hand. Speak in riddles and claim nothing. Burning down the world. Maniacal to watch the demise. Smash the glass, build the tower. Just to tear it away. Is this what it's like to be a super villain? How does it feel, to feel your soul die. Torture what survives. Laugh in the face of living. Watch as security is stolen. Lick that chill that creeps up. Raise the dead and lose your head in thrill. Is this what it's like to be a super villain?
I hide and haunt
I search for things I most desperately want
Wait in the shadows as my ghost steadily haunt
They drag me down with my demons and steadily taunt
What can I do but hurt
For the angels are lurking in darkness in no more time for light cause it is burnt
My insides are blackened as ink as they are slowly turned
So around and around the rosies as we all fall down in the hell where we all mourn
no more pain cause my emotions can not handle this roller coaster ride as my mind is slowly churned
Where did that beautiful go or where did she come
As I am loosing the race toward sacred sacrifices of the unloved
I just want to be noticed and rise above
To no longer feel as if I am pushed or shoved
But what can you ask of a monster from the dirt
The one who has crawled through the ground like a worm
Never seeing the sun or feeling its warmth
I am just a man masquerade of a Frankenstein heart
why don't we, wait until the flesh is burnt.
self inflicted but only to shed some light.
like a whisper to the flame.
wishing for protection upon birthday candles.
but knowing in the back of the mind, that dreams are meant to fantasize on.
reality hits and the shadows consume.
feeling this pressure has the back against the wall.
all the while, the other three close in.
breathing becomes sparge, like trapped in a jar of smoke.
and knowing that crying won't help.
dislocate the heart and fade to black.
this lack of life has became all too familiar.