Per the previous journal entry, I wanted to let those of you who actually read this that I ended up getting another car. I went "trick or treating" for one on Hallowe'en and am loving what I'm driving.
I've been running around crazy with my job, and also a relationship. I see him quite frequently (as he lives merely minutes away) and he's already met my parents and most of my family. I've met a chunk of his family as well. It's been quite awesome so far and I'm antsy to see how it progresses. Day by day.
In the meantime, havent been shooting much lately. My creative outlets have been here and there, I dont feel that inspired lately to do much drawing, but a few hands-on outlets I lack the materials to do so, but I make due where I can. I've sifted through all the old shirts I could and cut them up into scarves, made some nifty ones! Other than that, not much else is going on besides work and training again. Seems like TKD wants me to test in the summer for my next rank. Bring it on!
Other than that, I havent been very active on this site, partially because I'm not interested in talking to the majority of people who message me on here. If it isnt a Skype proposition, it's a lame "Heyyy" with nothing else and I've better things to do with my time than respond to messages that dont stimulate me intellectually. I should at least keep active in the cults though, I admit.
The winds of change are stirring and I'm making it that way
October 27, 2013, 09:22:pm
So, a week ago, I drove down to Toledo, Ohio for a photoshoot event. I spent the shooting hours running up and down stairs, racing against time constraints to change from outfit to outfit, and having a blast with it all. What happened while I attempted to drive home is the real story.
I've never driven to Toledo by myself and was in unfamiliar territory. I got hit by another vehicle at an intersection, and the impact practically took off the entire front bumper, with some engine damage to boot. I didnt get faulted for the accident, the cops informed me the other driver would be (they left the scene of the accident, and were unlicensed). About 40 minutes later, the actual owner of the other car came back (to retrieve her license plate that came off in the accident, that I found, with the cops standing next to me). She gave her statement, and I was taken to the safety building after my car was towed to the city lot. My car is still there.
This past week has been a rollercoaster and I've got some unfavourable answers but they're not as bad as they sound. The other vehicle's insurance faulted me (failure to yield), which means I'm getting no help towards my totaled car, or so it seemed at that point. I spoke to my claims handler, and she said the only person who's called on this claim is me, and they havent heard anything from the other person. Meaning, my claim is closed and no one is getting money from anyone. I dont get money for my totaled car, the other vehicle's owner isnt getting any money towards the property damage done to her vehicle.
My other worry was getting my car towed back home, but after speaking to the city lot again about the issue (and the shocker of a soap opera involving my car, my car's ownership information being incorrectly entered and showing up as owned by my dead mom), a cop at the lot informed me that as long as I brought my ID and proof of ownership, I'd be allowed access into my car to retrieve my belongings, and as long as I didnt sign the release papers, I owed the lot no money.
For the record, I'm fine and suffered no injuries from the accident. I've been doing insurance footwork all week and also making calls and sending inquiries about car financing and getting insurance quotes for full coverage. I may have found my next insurance company and I might know, with good financing, what car I could be getting. I have a car loan application from my credit union waiting to be printed off.
So, things are going to be changing and I'm making it so. I'm also dead-set on waiting for nobody and I'm ceasing waiting for people to get their heads out of their asses. I'm waiting for nobody, it's all my life now and no one is going to get in the way or hold me back.
I just deleted all of my messages that I had in my VF inbox. I dont respond to about 90% of the messages I receive. I figure this way, when I get a message, I can choose to delete it or respond right there, rather than ignore it completely.
I might revamp my profile here coming up but we'll see.
Life's been interesting, to say the least. I'm now working as a fitness instructor at a charter school in Detroit, it's MEAP week and so that gives me a little time to plan a new path for teaching. I can dish out push-ups all day if a scholar isnt following directions, but there's got to be more on that approach, and I need a better flow. Plotting, plotting, plotting......
On the creative note, I signed up for a group shoot in Toledo this coming weekend, and I was fully booked within two days. Not sure what that's all about but yay, new pictures soon!
I seem to get a lot of people messaging me over how blunt I am in my profile about people who are addicted to cocaine, heroine, or meth. I'm talking about addiction, not a recreational, once-every-other-blue-moon usage.
Addiction is a disease, I can understand that.
I also see addiction as selfish. Think about it. Addicted to cigarettes, the second-hand smoke causes diseases and illness in people who dont even smoke. Granted, I'm not personally going to go into a smoker's house and tell them to not smoke around me, but after a few smokers have seen the effect on me, they take care to turn on a fan and open a window. I explained to them that it's their house, I'm not going to tell them what to do in it.
However, in the case of harder drugs like those listed above, I'm flat out not going to go to their house if they're an addict. I've yet to hear of weed, shrooms or LSD being deadly (unless someone has a severely bad trip while on the latter two). Drugs like coke, heroine, meth and even PCP have been known to not only be highly addicting, but also deadly, even after just one dose.
I understand it's your life, you can do with it what you want, however, I'm a firm believer in "Do what thou wilt and harm none" approach. Do what you want, as long as it doesnt harm anyone else.
Go ahead and do your hard drugs, as long as you're not causing misery for those around you.
If you are so addicted to a drug that you're stealing money from loved ones, stealing their belongings to pawn off for your next fix, doing drugs in their house, making them uncomfortable, it's high time to get help. And I mean HELP, before a cop catches you. Otherwise, a cop is going to catch you and now you've caused the tears of those around you.
Addiction may be a disease, but it's also selfish. And doing drugs is a choice. You could've made the choice to not start doing a certain thing in the first place.
I admit, I dont know the pain of addiction (other than coffee... woo, I get a headache when I dont drink caffeine. Boo hoo). I dont know what it's like to do a hard drug, nor do I want to know. I've been in the presence of an addict who whipped out crack rocks to smoke with his cousin. Repeated times, they offered for me to do it with them. Repeated times they were turned down. I dont want to get caught and have that on my record, I've got long-term plans in my life that would be hindered, or flat out lost, if I did certain drugs.
While I can see addiction as a disease, I also see it as that person threw a lot of their potential life away and they are now ruled by their addictions. If you do it for recreation, whatever. Just dont do them around me. If it's your house, I'll just leave.
But if getting your next fix is the only thing on your mind, get help. If you're harming others to get your next fix, and you're doing it without a second thought, get caught. Maybe getting caught will lead you to help.