Hey just looking for a Female friend or a Ghoul Friend to chill with or to hang out with like a date (notting at all Fishy)
just kinda got out of a Bad break up a few months ago...kinda need some light shine upon me for once.
so i am single...so please no worries.. i respect women & there wishes.
in the walnutport & Whitehall area... hit me up.
kinda sucks not having any one to chill with around where i live. &
and i cant take and of my friends who have Kids any more!
its a killer on me.. i want to have a family and all but my friends who have kids Cant have any kind of life!
If you like hanging out in graveyards and funerals and hearse‘s, 'ghost hunting' to name a couple, I think you might do alright and be alright to be my friend.I love meeting new people and would love to talk and hear your opinions & thoughts about what makes your knees weak ;D so feel free to message me anytime (IN MY INBOX_...i am very opened minded.
Naughty post (send it to me in my inbox and I'll do the same) Naughty game this is called the "NAUGHTY GAME". Repost this; see how many MESSAGES people give you... Mark all that apply Would you kiss me? [ ] Hell Yeah [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Maybe [ ] already did
Would you do me? [ ] In an instant! [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Maybe [ ] you look to sweet to fuck [ ] already did
Am I attractive? [ ] Heck no [ ] hot as Hell [ ] Fine [ ] Cute [ ] Okay I think ur pretty [ ] Sexy [ ] Ugly!
Do you think im a virgin? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Don't know
Name one thing you would like to do to me?
3 things you would like to know about me? 1.) 2.) 3.)
If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] maybe
What kind of pic would you send me of yourself? [ ] Fully clothed [ ] No boxers [ ] Just in boxers [ ] Only shirt and boxers [ ] Naked [ ] I wouldn't send you anything [ ] Who needs pics, I have a webcam ;-)
Would you rather.. [ ] Hook up with me [ ] Cuddle with me [ ] Date me [ ] Marry me [ ] Friends [ ] Do me
What kind of underwear are you wearing right now? [ ] boxers [ ] whitie tighties [ ] thong [ ] g-string [ ] granny panties [ ] boy shorts [ ] none
What's ur favourite position?
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me.. [ ] 1 [ ] 2 [ ] 3 [ ] 4 [ ] 5 [ ] 6 [ ] 7 [ ] 8 [ ] 9 [ ] 10
What would you want me to be to you or what do you think about me? [ ] Friend [ ] girlfriend/Boy friend [ ] Friend with benefit [ ] I want your number [ ] Pretty/Cute [ ] Hottie [ ] Sexy [ ] Gorgeous [ ] Amazingly Beautiful [ ] I'd take you home in a second [ ] I'd make out with you right now [ ] I'd Hit it [ ] I love you,
What's your favourite color?
Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you? [ ] Yes [ ] no
It's been almost 3 years since I wrote anything worth my time here's to breaking that cycle.
The world's so cold and distant.
They weren't there in that instant.
When he stole everything from you.. Yet he left your soul with you.
Badly bruised and battered.
The heart still beating but shattered.
You look with much distance.
All those blind and careless.
He was relentless.
He was here.
He is there.
He was who left you cold and defenseless
You shield yourself in armor your heart untouchable.
You crave to be alone.
Time heals all your broken bones.
Though their demons come throwing their stones.
Even when they know how much it hurts.
They won't know your vengeance.
The Wolf of Slaughter
In your dreams you See the Wolf of Slaughter. The Moon to his back. His silhouette broken. His howls those cries always breaking the silence only to return to nothingness. He awaits for your answer but he was tricked into leaving you.
Craving your touch once more hoping that You'll Come. He walks This earth and rules the underworld. He is Death himself until the day he returns to his beloved Moon. A scrap of hope floats in a torrent of sorrow. Her touch once summed up his past. Yet he craves fulfillment in This shallow existence. Never to know he'll never be fully filled again.
Alright I'm guessing I can use my journal to vent. Not like anyone will care about what I type. Right? Well I need to get yesterday off my chest. It started off as a good day but ended with me wanting to pull the trigger or even OD. Not a good day in my book. Let me start from the beginning.
I woke up in my girls arms. Her kissing and holding me. I didn't think about her going later. I thought how did I get so lucky to have her in my arms. We played some cards. Got intimate. (don't need those details.) Then the tears came. I can't help it. I hate being away from her. Well while she was packing someone texted me. Shit got confusing. I should have listened and never answered. It would have been best to be honest. I trust my girl. She's the only person that I do trust. Well after that bull shit, my gf stop talking to me. I was like what did I do.... I should have left it alone but the girl blew up my phone. Well after that, my uncles mother,(I live with my uncles but their mom pays the rent. Known them since I was 6 months old, started texting me. She was pissed. Said I brought home a gang member and everyone was afraid. A: that's is the worst lie I've ever heard in my fucking life. Bitch you just don't like her. B: She wants be out or to get my shit done quickly. I'm trying. I can only work so hard if the person I need works with me. So I needed my girl and she knew it. Yet again she stopped texting me. I do not reply to Ks or OKs. Thats how I know you're either upset or just done talking. Well my night just progressively got worse. I was left within my own thoughts. My best friend Raven trying her best to keep my smiling. It was fake. I don't need her worrying about me. Why would I? Well I started to drink a bit. I'm 22. I'm allowed. Well around 11 or so, a guy called me crying. I'm not sure why I answered. It was an unknown number. Well he was suicidal. We both ended up crying on the phone. 4 hours of us crying and telling each other it's okay. He finally passed out. I hung up and got a text this morning saying, Thank you for last night, Super Woman. I didn't do much. o.o Now he's saying if I need a shoulder he has my back.
That's a lot to deal with. Add to it that my Job Corps counselor never answers her phone. The suicidal part? I know I didn't tell you about that. Why would I? Curious? I'll tell you this much. I'm tiring of hurting and being strong. Its more like I wake up and get hit in the face with all this pain and bull shit. You'd be sick of it as well. I've always been in a dark place since I lost my uncle at 12 then my best friends at 14 then again at 17. Can't get a break. Lost someone last year as well. Thanks life. Love you too.I just want to be okay. I want to be strong for those who need it. Yet I can't even do it for myself. Kind of sad to be honest. So I've vented. Do I feel better? Fuck no. I feel the need to curl up and cry. Will I? Nope. I have people who need me and need my strength. At the end of the day, I'll always be your Super Woman but never my own. I shall end my Venting/Rant now. You don't have to care. I won't ask you to.
Life is one big pain. Every time you turn around something new will happen. It's constantly throwing obstacles at us. For what? I'll never know. But what I do believe is that overcoming these obstacles will only make us stronger for the next. Lose hope and they will only make you weak. Keep someone in your thoughts and the strength will come on it's own.
Well it is the first day of Summer and I am dreaming of colored leaves, pumpkins and cool breezes. I am not a fan of heat, sweat, sunburns and mosquitoes. Summer weather is miserable to me. So here's hoping this nightmare will be over as quickly as a lightning strike in a thunderstorm and my favorite season Autumn will soon return once again and grace me with her beautiful presence!
So my new armor is coming along nicely with the articulated elbows and knees almost finished, should be done with them within the next week or two. I will also be ready next week to cut out and shape the breast&back and should have that done around the same time. The gorget and gauntlets are next followed by rest of the leg and arm armor. I will post pictures as soon as I have them finished.
There's something about her that has me wanting more. Something that makes me feel so right to be next to her. Something that makes me miss her the second she steps away. Something that must have me addicted to her. I crave her kisses. I crave the way she looks at me. The way she holds me as we fall asleep together. The way she holds my hand as we walk down the street. What is it about her? What makes me want to be next to her for the rest of my life? Only my heart knows. Its her touch. Its her love. Its everything about her. That smile only I see when we are alone. The little things that make my heart skip a beat. All these things have me falling even harder for her every time. The kisses. The smiles. The touches. All so addicting. I always crave more when she leaves my side. I miss her until the second my eyes meet hers. That first kiss every time we see her is just so incredible. I'm madly in love with this girl. Does she know? Can she see it in my eyes? Or do I tell her how she makes me feel every moment over every day. So much to put into words. What if I fail? What if I look like an idiot? Will she still love me at the end of the day? Even if I'm not proud of myself? Maybe she will. She always is. She always tells me she loves me. I must have the worlds most incredible girl in the world. She's unique and all mine. I'll never share her with another. She knows this. She knows she has my heart 24/7. She is the only thing on my mind. I love her. She loves me. Its not fairy tale perfect but it never has to be. She's my King. I'm her Queen. Till the end of time.
He is just a mad asshole so to the ones who know me please don't listen to someone who didn't get me and if you believe him then delete me it don't matter just tired of humanity I really am just wish humans were a bit more understanding but oh well
I'm tired of feeling like a failure. Like i let everyone down and I'm good for nothing. Its fucking heartbreaking to me. Almost as if i open my mouth and I'll let someone i don't even know down. I feel like a useless person who will only fail the people she loves. I'm not saying this for you to pity me. No this is how I truly feel. I grow tired of it. Like I'm back to being a teenager who needs to cut her wrists just to end this feeling. I won't but that would truly be a better feeling than this. I've cried twice since I've failed tonight. Seems I'm just destined to fuck up right now. I can't handle it. I want to be able to talk and not have to shove my foot in my mouth. When it comes to her I'm afraid of failing her majorly. I can't handle that pain or let down. She means too much but when i let her down its the worst thing in the world. Why am I even here? Why was i born? Was it it to prove one person could constantly fail? If so I'm doing fucking great at it. The world deserves better. Why stick around when you fail at simple things? Things like life itself. Sigh. I'm not suicidal. Just tired of letting the ones i love down. I want to help and make sure they are proud of me....