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DnB-SpeedFreak
Shit
October 29, 2014, 01:37:pm
thats wussup......fuckin bullshit....but i guess its not anybody elses fault but my own....

i was looking forward to see my girl today and now i have to wait until tomorrow night to see her.


i almost at a loss for words because i just got over my stress of the day, now i must sit and count the hours down...AGAIN.

soon my baby <3

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KreepyKitty

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Shit
October 29, 2014, 09:17:pm
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soon my love

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DnB-SpeedFreak
hehe
October 28, 2014, 09:49:pm
every thing is gonna be alright because she tells me so <333

heartbeat

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DnB-SpeedFreak
Beeper - Qemists DnB Remix
October 28, 2014, 03:42:pm
this shit coats my entire brain! BEE-BEEPERRRR.....
sick drum n bass 4 lyfe

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DnB-SpeedFreak
October 28, 2014, 01:19:am
good night zzzzzzzzzzzzz

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DnB-SpeedFreak
lol
October 27, 2014, 02:06:pm
Drum N Bass Thug 4 Life... No Ragretz! LOL

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DnB-SpeedFreak
excitment
October 27, 2014, 12:05:pm
1 or 2 more sleeps until i see my baby again... im so excited! <3

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TruthfulLiarx
I love you <3
October 27, 2014, 11:19:am
I love you,
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.

I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.
I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;
I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can’t help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.

I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple;
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.

I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all. by Hunt <3

Mood: Happy
Music: Dance

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sasha15portnov

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I love you <3
October 27, 2014, 12:05:pm
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It so beautiful!

ima_vampire_cat

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I love you <3
October 27, 2014, 03:16:pm
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Lovely

gcorpulis

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I love you <3
October 27, 2014, 05:29:pm
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heart

lydiashirin

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I love you <3
October 28, 2014, 09:22:am
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I love it a lot c:

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necromantion
Does anyone ever feel that being a good person gets you nowhere?
October 26, 2014, 09:42:pm
I am going to unload on here for the first time ever.

I honestly have not had a bad life, my parents were great if not overbearing, they gave me everything i needed and raised me well. I grew up in the middle of nowhere and it was hard for me to spend time. Most of my life up until 19 was immersed in extremely competitive hockey. When i started university I switched my focus to my studies and quit playing which in hindsight was a mistake. Most of my life i grew up having to amuse myself, during my anxiety teenage years I turned to videogames and books to escape the world around me since living in the middle of nowhere the party life with drugs and alcohol werent as easily accessible. Even into university i would spend a lot of my time gaming or reading. I had bad acne from the age of 10 to 19 or so which left me very self conscious for a very long time and shy for the most part.

Anyways, I lost some of my shyness around that time but still was content self amusing when away from work and school... I had various online and in person relationships over the years of university and after graduating. All of which were ok but nothing super serious ever really came out of any of them.

About 3 years ago i ended up in a long distance relationship that ended up being pretty serious but the person and I didnt see eye to eye with some things that came up and we went our separate ways, around this time my frustration was mounting with how futile doing 4 years for a double major and not being able to find any entry level jobs where I worked. So I decided to move across the country out west to somewhere new at least where I knew I would be happier, the west coast in canada is gorgeous and between the mountains and oceans i knew i would be happy.

I moved to Vancouver after planning for 3 months. Upon getting there it was slightly daunting but I was used to living on my own since I was 18 so it wasn't as bad as it would have been for some people. I had a hard time meeting friends as it seems to be the case when youre an adult, thankfully I lucked out meeting a person that wanted to hang out with a random person in a park one day on craigslist, i ended up meeting like 50 people over time through that group and I miss all of them a lot.

I was unable still to find substantial work and after a month of looking i took a landscaping job and ended up running a crew for this company within a week. It was a fantastic summer, the weather was awesome, the work was hard but fun and rewarding and I had some great friends.

I am however an ambitious person and after giving up on BC to afford me employment in either field of study that I majored in I applied to a few jobs one morning in Alberta, within a day I had a job. I moved with 4 days notice. Around this time I met a woman on VF who I became very close to, things went pretty darn well and despite being long distance my new job afforded me the ability to go visit her fairly often which i did while with her, i ended up losing that job to some politics however had 7 job offers within less than a week and a new job a week later. Things kept on an upward swing until April when my trust was compromised for a second time. I wont get into details but such is life.

Since then I focused on myself when the turmoil was over and began trying to make new connections to meet friends and even dating... that is where my skepticism of people in general comes from....

Where I live people come into affluence at a very young age, 18 and they are working up north making 60-100k a year. This from what I have seen causes a lot of problems, first of all the party lifestyle seems to continue into the mid 30s which usually dissipates in the mid to late 20s in most other cities ive ever lived in. The oil industry and its mandatory drug testing results in a lot of people being closet coke-heads. The party lifestyle means most guys dont grow up, basically have the mental capacity of an 18-19 year old while making more money than they know what to do with, have no life experience, no true aspirations, no formal education. They are typically douchebags and well then that creates another issue... the women here are jaded as fuck, superficial as all hell, shallow and totally self absorbed. So used to guys treating them like shit and/or throwing money at them and being pretty boys that they have no interest in getting to know anyone better than first glance.

I just don't understand it seems impossible to meet anyone with similar interests here who have any integrity or respect, the dating scene is more than simply atrocious and I have totally given up on it. I hate this place, I really do.



Mood: Frustrated and sad
Music:


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starvewars

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Does anyone ever feel that being a good person gets you nowhere?
October 27, 2014, 02:57:am
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Aw babe, that was harsh though. I'm here if you need anything <3

horror.queen347

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Does anyone ever feel that being a good person gets you nowhere?
October 29, 2014, 11:46:am
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i know how u feel...sad face

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DnB-SpeedFreak
if U love me <3
October 25, 2014, 09:57:pm
if you love me say it
if you trust me do it
if you want me show it
if you neeed me prove it!

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KreepyKitty

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if U love me <3
October 26, 2014, 12:18:am
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i will ;3

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DnB-SpeedFreak
Yo
October 25, 2014, 04:54:pm
anybody around on vf anymore that talk? seriously, dont be lame.. tell me how u all been FACK.

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DnB-SpeedFreak
LOL
October 25, 2014, 03:43:pm
"I SMACKED THAT MOTHA FUCKA! TAKE THAT BROTHER DARKNESS, I GOT BLACK ON MY HANDS" haha "NOW THESE ARE CLOTHES BITCH..THIS SHIT IS COOOOLLLDDDD BLOOODEDDD!"

lmfao i love dave chappelle's rick james skits

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DnB-SpeedFreak
October 25, 2014, 01:46:pm
Satan is for pussies LOL

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KreepyKitty

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October 25, 2014, 02:01:pm
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and terrorists LOL

boxturtle

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October 25, 2014, 03:25:pm
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hail satin

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DnB-SpeedFreak
new pics uploaded
October 25, 2014, 01:01:am
theres a couple there... bout time? hehe lol

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DnB-SpeedFreak
Friday Friday'zZz
October 24, 2014, 03:28:pm
Nothing exciting going on here for me tonight.. just gonna jam to some techno beats and enjoy a good dinner with the family. Think about my girl and talk to her until we finally get together this week coming up!

im so excited to see u darling <3

what's everyone else up to for the weekend?

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DnB-SpeedFreak
boredom
October 23, 2014, 10:34:pm
counting down the hours until i see my lover in the city again <333
only 6 to 7 more sleeps! i cant fuckin wait to take u out to dinner and get our hotel room and give u all your early birthday gifts! heartbeat

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DnB-SpeedFreak

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boredom
October 23, 2014, 10:48:pm
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makeout

KreepyKitty

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boredom
October 23, 2014, 10:52:pm
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cant wait ;-) thats always the best part hehe

DnB-SpeedFreak

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boredom
October 23, 2014, 11:06:pm
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hehe circles flaaaaail!

KreepyKitty

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boredom
October 23, 2014, 11:44:pm
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dj

DnB-SpeedFreak

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boredom
October 24, 2014, 03:22:pm
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aliendj

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