Spirits returns with laughs and chills
Living zombies and graveyard thrills
Smell and feel your flesh sizzle and sputter
When being burned alive
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Midnight Spookshow
Horror strikes at midnight tonight
Living mummy terror of the tomb
Weird woman unearthly creature
Face to face with the spirit world
Spirit world, world... ooh
There's a question mark in the place of a spark
That used to be an answer
Aiming straight for the heart he missed his mark and
The arrow turned to cancer, no no
Now you get so high that you still can't fly
And you wonder if you're really where you want to be
'Cause the sun don't rise if you close your eyes
And you're sinking low, I thought you'd like to know
Like me, you're drowning in a daydream
There's a man who watches over me
There's a man where I used to be
Mr. Tambourine play one more song for me
'Cause I gotta leave, I lost what I believed
There's a snake up in the tree
Only hearing what he sees
But the years go by and you don't know why
Did you take it all for granted?
Now you get so low that you can't say no
And you wonder if you're really where you want to be
'Cause the tide does rise and it's no surprise
That it washes you away, now you're far from home
Like me, you're drowning in a daydream
There's a man who watches over me
There's a man where I used to be
Mr. Tambourine play one more song for me
'Cause I gotta leave, I lost what I believed
There's a man who watches over me
There's a man where I used to be
Mr. Tambourine play one more song for me
'Cause I gotta leave, I lost what I believed
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I kissed the scars on her skin,
I still think you're beautiful,
And I don't ever want to lose my best friend.
I screamed out,
"God, you vulture,
Bring her back or take me with her!"
Mood: I miss sam so fucking badly... Depressed. Music: Pierce the veil-A Match Into The Water
For some obscure reason i randomly hold my breath but i don't even realise i am doing it until mum turned around, looked at me and said 'You are turning blue...you should probably breathe now'....Ok....I nearly passed out a second ago because in all seriousness i don't realise i am holding my breath until i get light headed
Its weird....Apparently annoying because it means i am making weird chuffing noises all the time
On another note, i had another massive breakdown yesterday and i am starting to really scare my parents because the tiniest things are scaring me, I am getting insanely paranoid about the smallest of things and i am so depressed its no longer reasonable :/
The self hatred issue is even worse now than it has been before and its getting quite scarey, i am scared i might do something to hurt myself and in turn hurt my family Fuck sake! Why can't i just be happy with who i am...oh...i know...because i am useless and no one in their right mind woul want to be like me.
uhfjahlfgj;aehfgjadhghdjg someone make me happy...please, i just need someone who i can rely on and trust...but then again...i dont think there are many people like that left in the world so why bother...
Back to my forever alone type of attitude....
Mood: depressed and confused Music: Skylar Grey- Dance Without You
Well, there are few people for that. Though you will never know if you don't let people speak with you. The way I handle it is, you can speak with whoever you'd like, develop a relationship with them and not trust them at all. If you two become extremely comfortable with eachother, you'll open up with eachother without thinking of it. If not, well, at least they're great conversation. Expect nothing in return and it makes it easier for you to potentially meet trustworthy people.
Well I feel really awful :/
We are watching DVDs, it was my turn to pick so i put on Nemo and my little brother flipped out and grabbed the special remote (its like the Off Off remote, it fully turns things off rather than putting them on standby) and i got slightly pissed off because he then tried to turn it off so i had to wrestle it off of him and then when i got it off of him he sat yelling at me and screaming at me and i snapped....
I started shouting at him when he was shouting at me and he was being really annoying, nasty and loud and i snapped.
I feel really bad...
I started telling him how he was the reason i was depressed, why i hated myself, he was the reason i didnt spend time with the family during the day, why i cried every night, telling him his attitude stinks and that he was the reason i am upset...Well...some of its true but i said it to hurt and be mean because he was upsetting me....well i ended up saying other things because i was upset and some of it (well most of it) was the truth but i really just said it to hurt him. I could see his eyes watering and was crying as well because i was upset and i was just trying to upset him for upsetting me but i was so harsh to him and i could see he was getting really upset because i really was being horrible to him and things.
I feel really bad because Calvin is a victim to bullying, i basically bullied my little brother and i could see he was on the brink of tears and i feel really really REALLY bad...as in...hiding in my room, practically crying because of my attitude
I was doing my makeup (it looks like batman wings) and i have been crying for so long i have black streaks down my face but i am too scared to go downstairs and say sorry to him, I was really nasty and i feel really terrible.
I hate myself enough as it is and now i am disgusted in myself, he is 10years old, autistic and being severely bullied at school...
I actually want to repeatedly smash my head off the wall and rip my throat open....
I feel really terrible, I hate myself and i just want to really hurt myself for hurting him
I am such a horrible sister
It's okay. I've almost snapped with my half sister. She is the reason I don't talk to anyone and I stay in my room. But sometimes it helps just to say sorry. (After you let it out)
That akward moment when your little brother holds a coat hanger between his bottom and spins it around before shouting "I AM A BOAT! LOOK ITS MY PROPELLER...."
Oh my gods....that is so wrong on SO many levels! *shudders* that happened last night and i was laughing so hard i cried My little brother is fucking WEIRD!
I have just watched 4 different Peter Pan films....Is that sad? I am 17 and i ended up actually BEGGING my little brother to put Tarzan on (he refused and hit me multiple times with a stuffed blue elephant called peanut) and then i am sitting watching Hotel Transylvania and giggling like a maniac
I am such a pathetic teenager...
LETS JUST GO TO NEVERLAND AND NEVER GROW UP!!!!
Who's your mother, Who's your mother here boy
Who's your mother, Who's your mommy dear.
Who's your father, Who's your father here boy
Who's your father, Who's your daddy dear.
Silently screaming
Where everyone knows.
Daddy's always watchin'
Where everyone - everywhere I go.
I don't wanna be a freak show pretty boy anymore
I don't wanna be a full time slave
I don't wanna be your midnight cowboy anymore
I just wanna be Mary
I know every--
I see everything boy
I told you not to wonder in my shoes
All the boys and girls they wanna know you boy
All the girls they wanna be like you
Familys little secret
But mother never knew
Every fathers dream boy
Every mothers nightmare too
I don't wanna be a freak show pretty boy anymore
I don't wanna be a full time slave
I don't wanna be your midnight cowboy anymore
I just wanna be Mary
No more little secrets
Now Marys on her own
Daddys got a new boy
Little brother ten years old
I don't wanna be a freak show pretty boy anymore
I don't wanna be a full time slave
I don't wanna be your midnight cowboy anymore
I just wanna be Mary
I don't wanna be a freak show freak show pretty boy anymore
I don't wanna be a full time slave
I don't wanna be your midnight cowboy anymore
I just wanna be Mary
well i can't sleep so fuck it. I'm going to eat ice cream and find a horror movie to watch... ._. something with sex and violence. Yea thats what i need sex and violence
Why do i only ever see my flaws?
People say nice things about me sometimes but i always think they are lying and i dont believe them....I see other girls who are so happy with themselves but then with me....i am self hating, negative, depressed, constantly worried about people judging me, over thinking how people look at me and i am just such a negative person...
Why can't i be like other people who actually like themselves....
I dont know a single girl that will admit to themselves as beautiful or smart or anything they always deny it when its so clearly there. Marnie your a gorgeous and intillgent girl. cx id fall far in a heartbeat if i actually lived close to you c:
I was doing so well....i was finally happy...and now you are back...great, why can't i just be happy for more than a few weeks! it was because of you that i got stuck in an 8month long solid depression,i wasnt able to smile for 8 FUCKING MONTHS! I can't trust people anymore, i haven't opened up to anyone because of you, even my parents dont know whats the matter when i slip into a depression.
Guess what....its all your fault!
And you come back here telling me you are sorry and you missed being my friend....fuck you!
Its YOUR fault mum nearly got me put in a mental institute because i wouldnt eat, drink or sleep, its YOUR fault i got stuck in an 8 month depression!
And you think i will accept your shitty apology? eh...hell no!
Why the fuck should i? I TRUSTED you! I poured out my heart to you and i was really starting to get attatched to you and then you turned out to be some fake who was toying with peoples emotions....especially mine!
Why the hell would i forgive you?
Off work, ill, feel like utter shit...
Someone come and look after me... please, cats dont make good nurses, they just prescribe lots of cuddles which isnt helping because it means she is sitting on my tummy which hurts a lot >.<
Fuck sake! Why can't i just be happy with who i am...oh...i know...because i am useless and no one in their right mind woul want to be like me.
someone make me happy...please, i just need someone who i can rely on and trust...but then again...i dont think there are many people like that left in the world so why bother...
that happened last night and i was laughing so hard i cried 
My little brother is fucking WEIRD!
Great!!
Your so fucking amazing not even you realize it /.
*snuggles you tight*
