Blah. So tired, all the time. I sat infront of my work for like 3 minutes whining about how I didn't wanna go to work lol
I think I need to spend a day out in the sun. Did you know, that depression can be caused by having no direct sunlight? Not that I'm depressed, but seriously. I'm just tired as hell all the time. Had an awesome 3 day weekend though!
And this weekend is gonna be a blast,...
Cause I'm going to the Renaissance fair with my boyfriend and his family!!! <3 soooooo excited!
But yea, I work all the time, in a back room, with no windows, and no one goes to the back, so I pretty much work by myself. Come home, lay in bed, and thats the only sunshine I get. And its not even any direct sunlight. So that kinda sucks. I walk out every morning, and its all nice and sunny, and I just wanna sit in the grass, and feel the summer breeze.
Poop on you broken ankle!
Hopefully next week I get to see my friend Leslie though.
Yesterday was a horrible day for me, and by the time I got off work, I just wanted to sleep in the car on the way home. Which I did. Sorta.
Than came home, and just wanted to go to sleep lol
Last night, and the night before I passed the fuck out. Last night I don't think I even woke up once. However, it did take me forever to fall asleep.
Anywho, WHOS GONNA BE AT THE REN FAIR THIS WEEKEND?!?!?! Saturday in particular. Sooo happy to spend the day with my boyfriend out and about, and his Aunt, who I love and adore. And his brother who I've never met. And if his mom and sis go.... Which would be cool too! But I don't think they will.
Gotta find something to cushin my crutches otherwise I'm gonna get a rash all day saturday.
I love him so much. But I'm used to the person I'm with to text or message me Nonstop . Its weird not having him do that...i always get bad thoughts but I try my hardest to think positive. I'll adjust sooner or later *sighs *
Blah, I can't wait till I'm able to pay off my cello... I think I still have almost $300 left to pay. I also need to save money for my boyfriends gift, and my trip to Cali... And thinking about it, I think I should have gotten that black electric violin... -.-* Sometimes I can just be too stupid.
It seems like I've fallen back into a long night of depression.
Intellectual conversations have become apart of my past. All I hear everyday is drugs, weed, and everything in between.
I've lost my interest once again. Not to mention hearing how no one left in the world has a single piece of innocents left has really twisted me around.
Everyone's getting mad and upset at any little thing they can get their hands on.
Soothing music is a thing in the past.
I just want to be running around in a village, wearing a long dress, listening to random music filling the air. Not from a radio, or an ipod. Not from a car, but from a single man, sitting infront of his house smoking a pipe, and playing the flute... No more songs about rape.
Its like I just come home to stress. Not enough time with people just paying attention to the living things around them. Or maybe its just me, feeling abandoned again. Like always. I can never stop dreaming about my mom, my best friend, who I call 'mum' since she was a motherly figure, had just dropped me off the map out of no where, so feeling lost, and abandoned, I'm probably feeling it by everyone, like people would rather be doing something else.
This is a very important moment of Stressed1o__o . so it must be recorded right? Once upon a time it all started....
because age really matters a lot
he went off and came back again. so the conversation continues...
because Stressed1o__o is so stressed of the situation and can't move on, he called the help of the Admin for his investigation..
Stressed1o__o was expecting that the admin will help him ban -rah-rah- from because she is a 12 years old girl with a very immature mind that can't understand and handle situations. But things happened reverse of what he is expecting and when the conversation went intense, Stressed1o__o was so worried and they almost died (laughing).
[it's not the full text conversation, I forgot to print screen the previous messages since it got intense and I was carried away. haha] his goal is actually to ban a 12 years old girl from using VF, since 13+ is the age allowed. I wonder if he'll win and makes him happy? doesn't really matter, it entertained me a lot.
Stressed1o__o is a good person. It's fun talking to him honestly. He doesn't @#$*s h@#**^$#@ @!*#^& #$(!@!@*&$(&*% @$#*&% @$*&%$#$@ ###%^. Just stop taking things too seriously on the internet. because I didn't took things seriously specially when you reported me to the admin. and yeah, I'm 12 years old with a very immature mind.