Should I belong to anywhere?
Then what?
call my self a something ...
Try to believe in something...
Something they say or
something made up by myself
Something stupid...
Something that doesn't make sense ...
Or believe that I don't believe in anything
Fooling my self, in a very stupid way...
Then call my self smart and trust my brain ...
Forget my emotions and thing I'm right ...
Act like a bitch and assume life is like that ...
Hurt anyone and dont give a fuck....
Where do I belong really?...
Between heart and brain ....
Between earth and sky
Where I can say I love you
And mean it with my heart....
Between madness and wisdom...
Between whores and saints...
You wouldn't understand....
If you only use your brain you will fail...
Just like a binge night
life was the same...
what did I do? what do I have?
only wish, wish, wish...
following the dreams,
just like a blind dog barking to the noise.
Learn and work and love someone
Oh, getting older and tired
You think your life cannot be like this
But seasons pass by
What are you waiting for?
Can't you hear the sound?
Your soul needs rescue
Listen, the sound of secret minds
A tiny voice inside your heart
A precious thing you should believe
This is pure and true
I can hear the sound in your mind
Oh, it's the sound of secret minds
It is the one you used to hear
When you were a little child
Why don't you do it? Why can't you say it?
Your soul needs rescue
Listen, the sound of secret minds
A tiny voice inside your heart
A precious thing you should believe
This is pure and true
Let your heart beat for the world
Your heart's beating, alive and beating
Your heart is still beating loud and clear
Listen, the sound of secret minds
A tiny voice inside your heart
A precious thing you should believe
This is pure and true
debo dejar de ser tan entregado a la suerte
ingenuo con la vida y bueno con la gente...
crecer fuerza mi madre diria...
en el estomago... apretan las entrañas.
cerrar los puños y seguir de frente.
Y esque todo esta cada vez mas jodido...
y cada vez que podemos jodemos un poco mas todo
luego todo nos jode a nosotros y nos deja tendidos
en el suelo, con la saliva sobre el piso
y los sueños, los sueños en el abismo.
Antes de que la vida me cobre todas...
sonreire antes de caer de bruses a la tierra...
sonreire con el alma que aun me queda,
ya sabes de esas sonrisas placenteras...
So 13 years ago I decided to don't eat meat again
Many things changed, rules were rewritten
Also reasons and philosophy .... The meaning
Suddenly it was just me all the time and nothing else...
So... It was stupid... But to be honest,
Now everything seems stupid....
I take things to seriously.....
But the last 5 months I been thinking alot. ..
About bullshit and shit that might matter...
I been high .... Maybe to high to ignore
Mhmm....
Damn!
I lost it...
But ... I guess it doesn't matter at all
This is stupid
So now I'll go
Pick up my dreams
Go make some luck
I lost my time with bullshit
I better go now
Before you fool me again
Cuz hell I miss you ...
But it was stupid before ...
I just couldn't see it.
this is a very important year for me...
maybe the change of era wasn't my time
(past 5 months depressed)
but, well I wont say I am better now
but at least I know how stupid it can
be to not even try to get up and move on...
but this year...
I feel like Im getting old to fast...
my friends used to think that something
weird was going on with time...
but I know what it is...
we just dont give a fuck anymore...
to many adictions...
I feel like I'm at the middle of the journey
maybe in 22 years or less I'ma be dead
cuz I have to be honest with my self..
my lungs, my heart, liver...
no, I'm pretty damaged...
I said I was better but...
So, I will smoke less...
read more, and be honest with my smile
I have to take care of my self,
I still have to much to create and give,
not for you...
for me, and for the people who care
I miss having a laptop
I do need to fix my profile...
its so lame!!!
so if I am replying slow to you
Im sorry, thats with everyone!
I will always reply, just wait
trust me, inboxing me every minute wont make
you special... so yeah,
oh; my mom asked me if I still smoking today
I had to say the true..
I said...
mom... yes I do smoke, I couldnt quit
I do it cuz it helps me with my massive erections,
Why do I love you?
I never felt so miserable before...
Before you it was much better,
I used to smile alot.
Why do I love you?
I gave you my dreams...
You lost them, sometime
At those nights of yours
You didn't give a shit and left
Making me pick up the small
Pieces of my miserable life ...
Why do I love you?
You make me feel so bad
You make me write this crap,
And you don't care!
Is a long nightmare...
A stupid scary movie,
A never ending tunnel
Full of stones and puddles
What a time ...darn!,
That mix the hours and years,
The dreams and the awareness...
The open eyes and the slowly dying .
dont try to act like you dont care,
embrace the stupidness and make riot
is the only way to go...
to move on and forget... you know.
its ok to be weak...
and show your emotions,
to be a dramatic bitch
cuz fuck im not dead yet.
I know its stupid...
but yeah... I dont care
at least Im hurting no one..
if I only could sleep at nights...
I would be perfect,
Cuz yes I need you...
but not...the pain
I have had enough.
I punch my face sometimes ...
Then I bleed ... And dont see right
Being high I dont feel the pain
Than I smash my face to a mirror
And then I laugh ...
Cuz im so fucking punk ...
Silently in darkness ... Horny and feeling slutty
I watch trough the way... I see trough ur head..
Stimulated with imagination, dirty interpretation
A what again ... Just a huge cunt, one in a million.
I know what I am, I just cant name it...
I know im stupid, I know who I am...
Im a riot... A total mess up
But not a cunt ... Not like you.
Are you their queen ... Their master?
And how does that make you feel better...
Im a mess up ... Im very screwed ...
But come on, dont make me laugh with ur philosophy
There's nothing there to justify the whore that you are.
