Words gotten around to me how I am an outcast, unwanted, not liked. Disliked around here. Over the past week since I've returned from texas I've realized a few things about myself.
Many on this site may not like the way I am to them. Which is okay with me. It's never been about the popular race. I'm 30 years old. This website is made more for the 15 to 20 year olds. Let them be popular for their own reasons.
Other thoughts go further much further into who I am. I joined this site because it was suggested by a friend who was apart of the altnertaive goth, punk rock, skater dressing style of friends that I hung around at the age of 18 to 24. Still do from time to time.
I like these alternative style of people for one reason. Which is the reason why I still exist on here. Because for the most part, each of them dress the way they want to dress and will be who they want to be. No matter the price. Not because they want to "fit in" or "be popular" but because they much like me enjoy being who they want to be, the way they want to be. Thus they make their stand.
Another revelation that I've realized a long long time ago. When I die, when I leave this world. Will the people I've come to meet on vf matter to me? the people on another social site matter to me?...More than likely not really. In the end the people that will have mattered the most to me are not the ones I've lost, not the ones that hurt me or I am angry with.
The ones that will be of matter are the ones I've changed for the better, the ones I've hurt and caused harm over the years. Even though pain, heartache and loss is inevitable and unavoidable. It doesn't always have to be just because it could be.
So here I am unwanted by many for the things that other people on other sites and even my friends here admire about me, my sister, and my family.
Our bluntness to truth.
The fact we make a stand and we defend it without walking away.
When we state a fact that can be resourced we reference that resource for accuracy.
We make sure we are as detailed as possible to maintain a good baseline of communication with our friends.
and if people don't like that. Well, I believe that is why there are multiple corporations out there such as Microsoft, Apple...or different clothing companies, different styles and different of everthing.
Not everyone is going to agree with me. I'm okay with that.
I may get arrogant, I may get egotistcal, ego centric..However, I will not forget one thing.
I am as human as you are. If you push, i just may fall, if you prick, i just may bleed. As I age, i may jus wither away, and I will eventually pass away.
To the people who have called me out for unwanting me, for choosing to say what you have said for the things I have done. Its okay. In the end.
I am who I am, and who i am is the way i am, which is all that I ever will be.
Sincerely
That 30 year old aged man that you called "Asshole", "Douche" or as my own blooded sister titles me
Pretentious Dickhead and at times her and her friends title me as "Farmboy" (from the princess bride)
In terms of Real world business. This is here to enlighten you
Now what were you saying about code stealers?...Someone was stealing from you...
looks like these other places we use have been copying from another...
I'll carry on as you accuse me of not being original, while you are still copying whats already been copied since the internet been around far longer than Vampirefreaks.
Mood: Social Network Wars Music: Break - Three Days Grace
For the people I don't have on facebook, here's a few pictures of my raven Pan. He's almost 7 weeks old now. He just started to fly and he is very curious but generally he's very good natured. He's 2 generations domesticated which means he's not as wild as (captured) corvids in nature. He still needs to learn what he can and can't do though and he doesn't quite know his own strenght, yells a lot in the morning and poops every 15 minutes but in return he loves to cuddle and groom my hair. He also enjoys listening to music and you can keep him busy with turning on a cartoon channel with lots of colours
llukewell he enjoys Frou Frou and general happy tuned songs. He also likes disney and folk and is generally fond of female vocals. He even enjoys my singing
Crashdiet;
My Crashdiet merchandise has finally arrived! I really need to go and start altering my pink denim vest I bought a while ago to go with it. I need to buy spikes... a lot of spikes. Look at these hotties on my new shirt and poster? If people tell me I stare too much at myself wearing this, I'm not narcissistic, I'm just busy drooling especially on the two blond guys.
If you haven't already go give my new page a like and a share, I've never had a modelling page before so it would mean a lot! www.facebook.com/echelonalt
Check out my new picture from the amazing Paul Hoggard too
Thank you!! The top was super comfortable! It had a corset part too that you can't see in this picture which was less comfortable but only because it had poppers on it rather than hooks so everytime I moved it just popped open
During the power bomb suspension until May 17th. I was in Wylie Texas visiting my family.
If anyone has tried reaching me during that time. The only thing I truly did online was play words with friends and scrabble.
Ignored all my emails, phone calls, voicemails, and everything except the people I was seeing.
I would like to congratulate those that helped create the two week suspension, however, it also failed since i was on vacation ignoring the internet during that time. Nice Job folks.
Secondly
I told, kristen everything of what everyone has said to me on here. Her response was a "I know you do, Let one of them girls say something to me and while on that topic stop giving my number out to pyscho girls".
Glamour and lingerie photoshoot;
I had received back the photos from the first photoshoot I had with Lieven Lens previous week. I think it's time to share them with you as I already have uploaded them on some of my other pages and in my gallery here! I'm quite satisfied with the results, I hope you'll like them too?
Getting these photographs was a 9:30 until 4:30 ball-ache of a photoshoot on Saturday. For those of you who don't know 5x4 (also known as large format) is one of the most beautiful mediums you can use in photography, but also one of the hardest. It is taken on one of the cameras that I've posted below, and if the lighting is off for even 2 "stops" the whole piece of film is ruined. It also costs around £2 per photograph, and takes on average about 5 to 10 minutes to get one shot with the model having to stay perfectly still throughout this time. I love it, enjoy it, want to take more but oh my gosh it can be frustrating!
All these photographs are taken on 5x4 (except for one!!) and are my latest ongoing series, looking at androgyny in fashion. I'm using a mixture of male and female models, styling both as the opposite sex but also keeping it clear who is male and who is female.
I'm really happy with these and how they turned out, especially considering I only had seven shots to get them right by the end of it!! The whole shoot probably cost in, in total, about £30 in film as there were complications with the camera that meant I did more test shots then final shots!
It was well worth it though, and I will be adding more to this set in the future (:
This final photograph is not shot on 5x4 - unfortunately I ran out of film (and money) before I could get the shot. However I'll hopefully reshooting this on again and also getting more of this model!
llukewell
