The third of this month will mark my first year anniversary of practicing Sea magic. It seriously feels like it just happened yesterday, and I've really come to realize how much it's changed me - for the better, I assume. I'm much happier and outgoing and have changed my perspective on life almost entirely. Depression still hits me sometimes, but not as much as it used to.
The third will also be seven years since I lost my cat in the house fire. It's a little weird how the most traumatizing day of my life later became a very important and positive day for it's own distinct reasons, and I didn't even mean for that to happen.
It seems that the most influential things tend to happen to me during the month of September, and I have no idea why that is. It reminds me of the time I saw that psychic who said September is a good month for me. I don't know so much about it being a good month for me every year, but significant things do tend to happen to me during September. I knew there was something about September with me before I even went to see her.
I just wonder why that all is and wonder what's in store for me for the rest of the Septembers of my life. I wouldn't be surprised if that ends up being the month I die.
This enlightening post of rainbows and kittens is brought to you by a narcissistic twat.
That's awesome, haha. I think I remember us talking once in a cult (I think it was back in the TSW days) about nine being significant with you. Nine is my favorite number for some odd reason. I don't really care for Numerology(sp)? much but sometimes it's fun to think about.
Yeah I'm with you on that. That, and I fuckin' hate numbers. Also, if I don't understand the hows/whys of something, especially spiritually or what not, I tend to stay out of it until something clicks or some resource breaks it down for me.But again, numbers. So I haven't cared too much.
Same here. I read a book on Numerology once recently and found out my birth number and it wasn't accurate at all. Which was a first for me as far as divination and signs go. So I have no interest in learning more ever
Self-improvement pays off. Work harder and smarter.
September 01, 2014, 08:40:am
-Assess your value more objectively and in accurate context.
Work to improve it if necessary.
-Demand more of yourself and expect more in return.
If you don't get enough for what you give, find a way to get more. This does not only apply to money, but also respect, love, and life quality.
-Read more. It's good exercise.
-Study things that interest you in your "bored" time.
Not only will you expand your own knowledge, but you'll actually have things to talk about and you'll become more socially dynamic.
You have access to the world's knowledge at your fingertips. There are free online courses and seminars available in virtually any subject, and free videos of lectures from top colleges at your disposal.
-Treat others with respect. You get it back from them most of the time.
You always get it back from yourself.
-Be humble. Nobody likes a braggart. Not even the braggart. The propaganda is aimed inward as much as outward.
Validate yourself on your own time.
Those who will appreciate what you do most are the ones that will recognize it. They will do the speaking for you.
-Avoid high-dose consumer culture. Limit television viewing and radio listening. Identify and reject biased news. These things exist because they work, and they are designed to distract you from your own goals and to persuade you to fuel those of others who will not help you.
-Don't waste time and resources.
They are just like money, except they have real, tangible value.
-Don't "Go with the flow.".
Things tend to flow downhill.
-Simplify and streamline
Get rid of things you don't need or use very often.
Plan ahead to get the most done with the least resources in the shortest time possible.
Some things can't be rushed. Allow yourself time for creative processes and tedious work. You sometimes have to create that too, so streamline what you can.
Your ideas probably only suck because they haven't been hashed out and put into motion yet. If they still suck after that, well... At least you tried.
Have some more self-respect.
Mood: Posi as fuck. Music: Hot Water Music - Mainline
Self-improvement pays off. Work harder and smarter.
September 01, 2014, 04:59:pm
Glad you guys like this! I've been pretty unhappy with a lot of things in my life for a long time and I made a list of ways to improve myself then decided to add a few things and share it. ymlie, if you want to share this, go ahead.
Self-improvement pays off. Work harder and smarter.
September 04, 2014, 06:08:am
-Treat others with respect. You get it back from them most of the time.You always get it back from yourself.-------------------------------------------------------That above is the only thing I'm having problem with in real life, maybe I'm just in the wrong environment tho.In rest, I agree that this is nice advice.
So I have gone through the pages of this journal and I see the idiocy is up to some big levels...Apparently you can't get to express your opinion because someone with a dictator mentality would lash out at you for it. Too bad, I missed the fun tho.Look, here's my 2 cents, out of all those models I think GlitterDebris is the best, why? Because she's combining white and red to make a beautifull shot and she does it like a boss. Does this mean every other model sucks? HELL NO, they've all worked to where they are and that's enough to have my respect.Does this mean I would get GlitterDebris in my bed just because I said she's the best? HELL NO, its not my style to do something like this, also she deserves some respect.Heck, Simone Simmons is my celebrity crush and she sings better than Justin Bieber, does this mean I want to bang her? So really, what's all this " (S)HE GETS ALL THE COMPLIMENTS AND I DON'T " bullcrap? Would I make a crapfest out of something like Phoenix calling me a retard? No, because I see that unlike a certain person here I know how to not give a shit. I was laughting so hard at that DreadMyss person who thinks she speaks on behalf of those models and thinks that having the mentality of a dictator when it comes to opinions and PREFERENCES would make this world a better place. If only racism was getting dealt with here in VF, but if that faker Andy doesn't get out because of it, neither would you, because GREED, amirite?
Since I had the time to, I browsed the VF model list. Asian Models: CarmillaJoKyrisGrothVonVampiress Please actually take the time to browse through the model list before bitching about a lack of a certain type of model. All of these sexy models ARE Asian and have been VF models for a while now.
Industrial Club Sessions is a continuing series of mixes focusing mostly on new & current music tracks geared to make you move! Each mix airs exclusively in the U.S. on Sanctuary Radio and in the UK on CORE FM Radio and later up Mixcloud for repeat listening. ICS 021 here is the latest- hit play, turn it up LOUD + lace up those Demonias Check out these music artists' other works here on VF and online.
I'll preface this rant with the acknowledgement that there is nothing more hypocritical than calling someone else a hypocrite. It's one thing we all share. We are self-exclusive and self-lenient. I am no exception to this rule.
Moving on to the point, I'm sick to death of reading headlines about what [any famous person's name here] thinks about this or that or them and why it's wrong and disgusting. Not just because it's trivial entertainment presented as news and not even because it's annoying or a distraction from the other meaningless shit I'm reading online when I come across this schlock. Allow me to explain:
This is evidence that we're becoming entirely too sensitive as a culture. When we are singling people out and saying that it is not okay for them to say this or think that or believe in the other thing, we're not only polluting the media with weepy bullshit about how offended we are, we are going against one of the very basic principals of personal freedom. Somehow a rumor got out that if we're all pleasant all the time, we'll all accept each other and get along, but here's the rub: It's pulling us even further apart. There is no acceptance when there's no perceived negative to take with the positive. People will think and believe the same things and be the same monsters that you despise in secret while you censor yourself the same way. Every single one of us is guilty of not saying what we actually think or feel or believe because we don't want to upset someone else, and this is nothing short of bullshit. If we wish to achieve any sort of unity in the superficially divided HUMAN race, we need to learn to accept our differences instead of hiding or circumventing them and stop feeling violated every fucking time someone says something we don't agree with.
Saturday was supposed to be the greatest day. I've been working my butt off, stressing over bills, and my bf has been working 12+ hour shifts for 6 days now.
He got home at 4am, and went to bed around 4:30 am. Once I got out of bed, it was 5:30 am.
I went upstairs and started getting ready for the Colorado Color Run. It's a 5k run where people throw lots of colorful dust on you during the run. It was $50 with the whole package; the head band, the shirt, the bag, the glasses, wrist band and color packets to throw around. By the time I got ready, it was about 6am. I was to wake Dan up, and get him ready so we could go pick up Sarah. Well, I came back down into the basement, which is where my room is at, and found my smallest cat, Asa, laying under my sock drower. I say smallest, because she is a runt, but she is 3 years old. There was a little bit of blood coming from her butt area. I poked her a few times, and she just looked at me. I thought maybe it was her period? By the time I woke Dan up, she had crawled to the other side of the bed, but I did not see her. She gave a big meow, and than I saw that there was blood everywhere. She had been hit by a car. Her back legs were no longer working.
Dan couldn't find his phone, or his money. He thought he lost his stuff again, and was getting stressed.
I than realized that half of his stuff on his computer desk was missing. Someone had broken into the house. So that one hour that everyone was asleep in the house is when someone broke in. That ONE HOUR.... (Obviously they couldn't steal his phone before he went to work because it was with him.)
Cops came, and went.
I had $300 in my name, and I knew that wasn't going to be enough for Asa.
But I called around to tons of places. It was the weekend. Most places were closed, or only did vaccinations, and by the time I had called other places, they had closed. Most places said they couldn't help me without so much payment.
Eventually, I had a plan. Take her to the vet as strangers. Dan wrapped Asa up in a towel, and brought her to the animal emergency. Said he had hit her, and left her there. When he came back into the car he was crying his eyes out. He said that people rushed to her aid, and that the lady said they'd take care of her, and if she was chipped, they'd contact the owner.
A little while later they called me in.
She had nerve damage in her back area, her leg was broken, and her hip was broken.
She did need some fixing to get her back to good health, even without her back legs, but I didn't have the money for that either.
They said if I refused to pay to put her to sleep, they'd have to take her to the pound, and they would put her to sleep anyways.
So our plan didn't exactly work, but I didn't have to pay for all the IVs and the x-rays because a "stranger" dropped her off.
So,.... I had to put her to sleep.
Needless to say, the supposed great day turned into another horrible day.
My boyfriend had all of 1 hour of sleep, I was tired from crying my eyes out, didn't pick up my best friend to go to the color run, and the 3 of us didn't get our package, or go to the run.
The greatest little cat I could ask for.
Always sleeping next to me, or on me. Always talking to me in the morning, or when I come home, or just whenever.