Feeling pretty shitty tonight.
Not entirely sure why. Hard to describe.
Lonely, I guess? I feel upset, but I've got nothing to be upset about. In the house on my own for a change, maybe that's getting to me a bit?
I'm hungry, but I don't feel like eating. I'm tired, but if I go to bed I won't sleep.
I could just do with a cuddle or something. Someone to talk to.
That'd be nice.
So in spirit of new things, my profile has had a massive overhaul (you should go and read it!) and I've deleted all of my past journal entries. This is a fresh start for me, let's not be dragged down by the past.
Currently, as some of you know, I'm suffering from a pretty bad bout of insomnia. It's not very good, and the Doc's prescribed me sleeping tablets. I haven't gone and picked them up yet, I'm pretty anxious about it. On one hand, I haven't slept properly in almost two months. My sleep has been only two-to-three hours a night, maximum, and I just can't seem to fall asleep at an 'appropriate' time. These tablets could really help regulate my sleep.
On the other hand, I'm worried about ending up reliant on them to sleep if this insomnia kicks in again once the course is over. I'm not exactly keen on pumping drugs into my body, either. If my brain doesn't work, is it really responsible to fill it full of chemicals until it does?
But enough of the sadface. Talk to me. I'll be glad to return any messages. You're all awesome, and I hope to hear from you soon!