So the angsty retards of DDG just deleted me because they couldn't accept my comments. When in the thread we were supposed to state our opinions. Yeah, goodluck going far with that attitude. What are you guys like fucking 12? I've been a member of DDG for a long time. This is how you treat me? well fuck you. There are better design cults out there who actually know their shit. OH AND By the fucking WAY!!!
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"don't leave me!" she cried I took my knife and gutted her. Using her intestines as a trophy necklace. I respond "you will be with me forever now" and cackled while pulling out her eyes and crushing them with my feet.
I've been a total douche. Please forgive my vampirism and mental retardation. I bit off more than I can chew and now I swallow it all . Swallowing my pride and manning up was probably the best decision of my life. Thankfully it's been a two-year anniversary of a complete turn around with my life and attitude. No more fantasy-fictional bullshit. Just real life scenarios and accomplishments. Including meeting Marilyn Manson and Twiggy Ramirez. I also willingly removed a friend from my life because I was sick and tired of his bullshit and it's too bad it has to be this way but let's face it he's a total fucking douche. Anyways in closure here I am and fucking proud. I love you all and thank you for sitting through my past. It's really good to move passed what was once present.
Love you all,
Mood: passionate Music: HIM - Tears on Tape (I like it) xD
So recently I've been thinking way too much which results in me feeling emotionally distressed. I'm pretty sure I will need a break from VF for a while to rekindle my spirit. I'm losing both inspiration and hope. Take care guys I love you all!
I don't know how I can handle all of the stupidity in the world but I just have to. I want to survive among the filthy and the spoiled. I'm just glad I don't act like a spoiled child crying over spilled milk like the majority of the nation when a change for the better has been made. It's kind of sad to think that the world feels like it's increasing in intelligence and you wonder how it's going to be without technology. I went to an apple store with Apryl the other day and at the genius bar they pulled up all of their data with no knowledge of what the fuck they were doing. The sad thing is now because people have ipads or tablets they actually think they are above intelligent. When in fact they use google to answer all of the questions asked. Even with training it seems so lazy. Where would they be without technology? I think they would be fucked. No way to survive at all just waiting for their death after not being able to connect with Facebook or Youtube for parodies of horrible media.
I kind of feel lost right now thriving for an excuse to go out and make something of myself but besides for myself and my personal needs and gathering resources I really have no passion into it. I feel like if I was to get a job I wouldn't be able to put the passion in it that I want to. So I need to find myself once again I am here writing another chapter in the Pestilenz cycles just as the wheels are turning I realize how fucked up my life could be and value the things I have even more than ever before. After meeting Marilyn Manson, seeing him twice in concert, getting art published and dealing with my aunt's corruption after my uncle died has been very inspiring on my life.
This is the chapter of my life in which I need to fully blosom and grow into the form of a preverbial phoenix raising from the ashes to survive and thrive. Not to be a tool but to be productive and proactive for healthy reasons and to correct the confidence issues I have. I'm in a interesting position in life in which serves a purpose. It's making me stronger. After dealing with the shit I dealt with this year I say bring it on! I'm going to make life my bitch and by accomplishing what I think needs to get done.
Apryl and I have been a little more rocky lately but we maintain balance and love for each other and to be honest I think our love have grown even stronger before and the determination to survive with her is so powerful. We will be together for 4 years starting in May and I feel like it needs to be extremely special to celebrate the days and months that my life began to evolve and I began to understand what I need to do to survive.
It's better than being blissfully ignorant and corrupted by drugs, alcohol and various other addictions. I've been venting more lately and trying to get everything out and how I feel isn't exactly easy I vent through art, music and sometimes I sing it out but it doesn't change how I feel all the time. As they say "time heals all wounds" and it's something you have to accept. You have to be as strong as you can be to survive. With or without technology VIVI is here to rise from the ashes and create his own dynasty the time is near.
VIVI Pestilenz being the evolved form of Pestilenz has been beneficial. Through a rise in confidence levels and the development of personal relationships such as a new found love and plenty of friends to care about I feel like these are the best years of my life and being almost 26 it's time to make the best out of that life. Fuck the world's issues I have enough of my own shit to deal with and that's what comes first. My survival. My need to succeed and thrive to stay afloat.
THE PESTILENZ IS SPREADING MOTHER FUCKERS! and it will continue to until the day I fucking die. Even after death I hope that I have inspired at least the ones I love. Within passing of my body I hope to be remembered for my wisdom and the accomplishments and the determination I have to keep everything I love and I need all of you to carry on the Pestilenz when I am dead and gone all of the new generations my children and their children will know the name VIVI pestilenz and even at my funeral will be smiling knowing that I once existed and that's my only hope.
I want to be cared for, loved and remembered for my kind heart and wisdom. I have been self sacrificing and dealt with everyone's shit and now it is time for this earth to give back through good karma and my life will become much better. Not only do I value more things in my life I also appreciate the things people do for me even more so than ever before. I realize that kind favors wont last forever and it's important to not depend on them but I must say all in all without all of my friends, family, and acquaintances I wouldn't be here as the same person I am today.
Whether it being good or bad I am fucking here to stay and that's how it fucking goes.
Thanks I've changed a lot within the last few months. It's important to document it to me. I have a huge thing for human psychology and I like to keep track of where I am in life so I don't lose my mind. Right now I'm trying to find myself as I said and it's a painful process. I have to sacrifice myself to get what I want.
Young people don't know love. I swear. OMGZ I LOVE YOU OMGZ WE ARE GOING TO GET A HOUSE TOGEHTER AND GROW OLD TOGETHER AND MARRY IN A NICE WEDDING CHAPEL AND HAVE (set amount of kids) OMGZ GETTING MARRIED NEXT MONTH. (finds out g/f or b/f cheats 2 months later.) I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. STAY AWAY FROM ME YOU OBSESSIVE BITCH! STAY FAR AWAY OR I'M GOING TO CALL THE COPS ON YOU! I FAKED ALL OF MY ORGASMS! (goes to court steal half of each other's stuff) MY NEW LOVER IS BETTER THAN YOU AND KNOWS HOW TO TREAT ME RIGHT!
Life is so much easier when you are with the person you love more than anything else. I feel content and well going to cuddle with my woman and sleep for a while. I'm tired as hell. BTW sex is the best way to start off the New Year. If you haven't had sex in the last week you probably should. It feels fucking awesome! especially when it's fresh in the New Year. Especially when it's with the most beautiful woman ever.
I'm going to be 26 this year. It's crazy how fast time flies by when everything is going great. Nothing could ever change how happy I am and nor would I let anything change it. I will do what it takes to make things work and thrive. So far so good Also just a little added bonus of the awesome today it's Marilyn Manson's birthday! He's fucking 44. Drinking whisky and listening to Manson is pretty awesome and much more on his birthday.
Mood: passionate Music: Defender - The Cruxshadows.