I'm just done. What is the point of trying? I've never been anything, i'll never amount to anythin, im going to just give u, im done trying for nothing, I just keep getting hurt, amd used. Im a fuck up that deserves nothing but to die, I never have deservee to be happy. I deserve l the pain people give me, im just a waste of space something just a good object for, that wont ever change. Im not good enough to keep anything good, or what is good turns bad, just waiting for my heart to break again....</3
Every time I look at you
Im reminded of a little secert
That im not allowed to share
As it makes me fall apart
No one will see how im becoming tart
As how that simple thing kills me inside
Making me wishing to die
Its a why
Why wont you this
Why wont you that
Leaving me crying at night
When I have no light
Im left to believe there is nothing good in me
When will it end?
When will I break?
Maybe I need to set a time
Maybe prove what is true
And what it is allowed
Or will never be...
One girl for sale to anybody who wants her!
Name: EricaXsuicideX
Height: 5 foot 2
Age: 15
Problems: a "special" case
Owner: None
Hair color: Blonde and black
Cost: Payment negotiable
Eye Color: Green/blue/blue (depends on mood)
Weight: 175
Music: Screamo
Type of Person: Quiet
Comment if you want to buy!!!!
Text me <3 6602320422
Who wants to be my slave, my friend/buddy/bestie on here I want some relatiinship status thingys so comment and i'll add you as what you want
Mood: Hyper but lonely Music: Fuck-bring me the horizon
There is endless amounts of shit that I could apologize for doing.
There are only so many things that apologies could even begin to cut into.
I'm tired of burning bridges when I should be keeping them flourished and alive, for wonderful people to cross, wonderful people that I've used, abused, and been down-right ungrateful for. People that I should have supported and I shoved in the dirt.
You know who you are.
To say I am sorry is an understatement, I've realized how hard it is to be put through pain, and believe me I've learned that the hardest way possible with dealing with regret and my own amount of pain. If I could take it back, I swear on my own life that I would do anything to do so.
Sorrow isn't even a word I could use to describe how I feel.
I don't feel like I'm a piece of shit, I know I was one, straight up, and I am trying my best to change.
I am trying my best to make it up to the people close to me, and now to the people who were close and I pushed away.
I am not asking anyone for forgiveness, that is your own decision.
I am merely asking for a chance to be your friend, or even acquaintance; anything to be there for you even if I don't even know who you are.
I want to know, I want to care and I will for anyone in need.
That is my promise.
I can only live once, I can only do it right, even if it took some wrongful doing to come to doing so.
Everyone at one point feels like this
I've stood by every single friend I've had
and brought them through pain and the longing of another
It hurts to only be there,
It hurts to care
only to be able to sit there and stare
We all need a little reassurance
Because this world is so hard to understand
I know for one thing
the nature of the human mind is so vastly complex and confusing
I'm trying to understand and I never will
I'll never expect to even guess what someone else is thinking
But I can tell their motive, i can tell when I am unwanted
and I am wanted only not so often
I can tell
Lately it feels like the world is just an ocean
and this water is flowing with far more important things
right over my head
I am trying to reach out and find a bit of color
But my hand is trapped
If I could hold you closer, maybe I would be okay
But I can't even touch you,
these colors fade away
with the wind they flow right past me as I stare in awe
And I bow my head
I look down at my feet
and I see you
The roles have changed
I'm finding someone better
this pain is so hard to bare but I'm doing it
and we're doing it, we're overbaring
this is fucked up,
but we're bearing.
This is fucked up, but we're bearing.
Isn't that the way, in all, the world is?
Maybe it's just me.
But the sun feels like a cold chill
and the one who makes things worth while
is the one that I will find vile
the one that I will step on
maybe just to feel strong
maybe just to feel power
And they'll leave in my darkest hour
my coldest day, left so alone
the day that I fell in love with you.
You're too good, you're great
I hold you so high but treat you so low.
Maybe it's just me.
Maybe I'm the one who's being tested
by a power above which one I hold
maybe I am supposed to do this
supposed to find you in my soul
supposed to change me and treat you wild
supposed to make this life, this love worth while.
and if I can't just make you scream
in contentment, joy, and overwhelmed
then I promise I'll pack my things and return, i'll leave
to the place I was before
The place I don't belong
I feel as if I don't belong anywhere.
Maybe it's just me.
I'm so bored :o I need people to talk to me, none of my friends will xc so please text me anyone can as long as you live in the united states I woukd love to talk to anyone I need more friends or I'm going to be lonely </3
So anyone text me! 660-232-0422
~Forever Erica with broken dreams and open sins upon no god for you to blame ~
Mood: Lonely and horny Music: True Love by BrokeNcyde
Why have I let this define me?
Maybe not me, but everyrhing I wanna be
This sickness is holding onto me tightly
And sometimes I fear it will never let go
In our society, I don't know what is best
Sometimes I really fear for my safety, and as hard as it gets
I don't think I'll fear enough to ever wear a bulletproof vest
At times, a bullet is all I wish for.
Who are you to judge me for my faults?
As if your faults are lesser, or you have none at all.
Who are you to judge me by appearance?
The fact that I will not lower myself shows you up on endurance.
You think that I am such a failure
But as humans, we all fail, it is part of our nature
You see me as your apple, but I ran from that tree.
