For nice tall guys with huge mohawks, big combat boots, who scream oi oi when seeing fellow punkers that get shy talking to ME.
(Only alternative guys I like.)
I met one and I must fancy him...
because he actually gave me a hickey and didn't even notice it, and I hate hickeys.
We went to karaoke last night and he made me sing with him in front of people I didn't know in an Inclosed area. I was also sober.
He's also a model, singer, and hair dresser ( I promise he isn't gay lol) and straight edge.
That is all. Continue refreshing your vf homepage for updates on your inbox, comments, response ect. And ignore my little crush rant.
KTHXBYE.
Mood: Teehee :3 Music: We are all we have tonight- The Casualties
I know you and the people you associate with too well. I see things that even you're in denial of or oblvious too.Oh yeah, clearly, I've been really moody since some random texts at 4 this morning, putting my name out there and shit.
no actually, those random texts were from you.And I'm not gonna start shit with him. I'm starting shit with you. This time, I'm completely justified in the several reasons I'm angry and if you can't respect or understand why, then you really are in denial, oblivious, or have no respect for me.
This summer is going to be the best summer ever. I'm going to hang out with a bunch of extremely awesome people I met here on vampirefreaks. I feel so much better about myself since I joined. All I have to say is thank you Vampire Freaks, I'm a better person than ever because of you.
Oh no I'm not afraid. I just don't think it would sell if I published it. My whole journal is filled with my poetry. I'd prefer you read some of those being that this isn't really a good representation of my writing This is currently my favorite http://vampirefreaks.com/journal_comment.php?entry=7990449
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so, i havent been using this for almost 2 months, so i decided to come back guarenteed not for long, my life has complete went downhill the last 2 weeks or so. im sick of letting people into my life that simply really dont care. the only friends i got close to me now is staying my friends the rest im done with them.. im simply sick of it all.
What is time but a gap of then and now? A space filled with memories and lingering love that faded away but never died; energy that lay dormant waiting to be ignited by our reminiscing, right? Our love is safe and filled with comfortability- the thought of uncertainty is replaced with thoughts of familiarity. The process of meeting someone knew is not a struggle because i know you, I've always known you. It's back, and as fear sets in so does acceptance; love. All i can hope for is that we remain functional this time around- and even then if all fails i know you'll still remain by my side for a second or third or fourth try because we can't forfeit something we both desire so strongly. My first real love returns, and my heart hasn't beaten as fast as it did from when you first said "I fancy you". I haven't felt this sure in years.
I am extremely pissed and irritated at this damn country. As many of you know, the Monsanto Protection Act was signed my the president to allow them not to label GMO products AND can not be ruled against even if the court finds that it is a public safety, health or environmental hazard. How stupid do you have to be to sign a document like this while your WIFE is advocating for organic food and healthier lifestyles? I'd really had to be that poor bastard. That set aside, Monsanto drafted its OWN version for the Obama to sign.
For those of you who actually read my rant's and don't know what Monsanto is, it is the leading GMO manufacturing company in the world. They also created DDT,PCBs, Agent Orange, recominant bovine somatotropin.
DDT: Most known for wiping out most of the bedbug problem in the 60's after WW2. Extremely toxic and dangerous to the environment.
PCB: Used in transformer, electric motors, coolants and more. Known to cause cancer in animals and humans.
Agent Orange: Herbicide used for chemical warfare by the US military. An estimated 500,000 children were born with birth defects because of it's use.
Bovine Somatotropin: Artificial growth hormone to increase milk production in cows. Cows develop lameness, mastitis and other health problems. Although the FDA still says artificial hormones in milk and meat are safe for human consumption, I can not believe that due to the health issues left behind with the cow, as well as, the GMO scientists that told the FDA that cancer was found in the mice that were tested when the genetically engineered food was put to the test. It was legalized anyways.
In conclusion, I have a hard time believing that GMO's are safe, evidence proving it is harmful and cancer causing set aside, due to the company's long history of producing chemicals that have widely profound effects with human health and the environment.
Have you noticed that cancer, heart disease, diabetes, respiratory diseases have increased dramatically in the last 30 years since GMO's started becoming almost everything the population eats? I have seen hundreds of health papers on why the French are fat, but healthy, or how Italians eat so much fat, but still surpasses the average American life span, or why the Chinese and Japanese live so long. It all comes down to diet and eating the best food that comes from the earth not a test tube.
I just posted this to Obama's FB page:
As I understand, the White house has it's own organic garden. Why are we (the people) not allowed to have the same right to eat food un-riddled with cancer causing agents (pesticides and GMO's) in it as the people living in the mansion which represents the country? Not everyone has the time, energy or money to grow their own food. Is it punishment for not having the resources to farm ourselves that we are given the 'choice' to poison ourselves by going to buy groceries? Protecting a company is not protecting the people. Please explain why that protection act was signed. I have to leave the country because I can't eat the food in the USA without getting sick and I am a US citizen. How is that right?
just keep bugging about no gmo's, and get more and more people to help. i grow a lot of my own food, but still like the convience of having year round foods available at the store. organic is expensive to buy though. i'm rambling. organic awareness if what needs to be brought up more.
I’m in the kitchen looking for a spoon so I can eat my cereal and watch my Saturday morning cartoons as any average 90s kid does regardless of their age, but there’s no spoons anywhere to be found. I run into my mother’s room to ask her where all the spoons have gone, and suddenly my face is struck with confusion as I opened the door to what seems to be my mother secret lair.
All of the spoons are scattered all throughout her cigarette burn purple rug, and as I look up all I see is my mother engulfed in the shadows from a measly dim lit light bulb. I squint my eyes to get a clearer look at what my mother is doing and what became clear in my eyes only clouded the thoughts of my mother. She sat on her stool hunched over with a worn belt tied around her left arm dangling down and the other hand holding a syringe filled with freshly cooked heroin. Her red hair glistened from the brightest point of the light, her clothes worn and tattered, the sunken in holes in her face defined but the light, yet she looked like a beautiful mess to me that i could barely make out.
She raised her head slowly, directing her eyes at me but not actually looking at me and mumbled “you wouldn't understand”. I stood there motionless, all my senses dissipating except for my ears. The words to the song that played from the CD player next to my mother got louder and louder clawing into my brain. “You can't understand a user's mind. But try with your books and degrees. If you let yourself go and opened your mind, I'll bet you'd be doing like me”.
I took a step closer to my mother and in my most concerning tone called out to her. She was unresponsive, so i reached my arm out to my mother's nodding head when before i could react, she grabbed my arm abruptly facing my elbow to the floor and rammed the syringe into my vain. Squeezing the dope into my arm, my mother pulled my face to hers and shouted "It aint so bad! how does it feel my little bombshell? Are you ready for that warm blanket of sunshine?". I was paralyzed gazing into the eyes of a dead soul, the eyes of my mother, the eyes of a junkhead.
Soon my body was overcome with complete numbness, my mind began to melt and my thoughts fell like sand through a sift. i stumbled backwards as my mothers grip loosened around my arm. I fell back on the floor with spoons not feeling a thing, looking back up at my mother who had returned to her slouched over strung out pose. my head rolling back, i was overcome with a feelingless sensation, a sensation like no other ive ever experienced. Caught in between a state of everything and nothingness, i feel into my forced high. The longer time lapsed, the deeper i fell until i finally reached my bottom. I opened my eyes only to see i was in a the bottom of a pitch black well. Confused and bewildered i turned around only to be startled, jumping to the other end of the well.
I saw my mothers hollowed out face with a grin saying "it aint so bad."
Am I such bad person that I deserve not to fucking sleep after working a double, 16 hours? How much of an asshole do you have to be to turn on Call of Duty 10 min after I get home just to be shouting at your damn game at 7 am in the fucking morning? Then when I finally fall asleep, wake me up when you get a damn call to work and choose to throw things around each time? Including when you get back? Then turns some emo shit on so I can't think about getting the rest my body needs. Is there something wrong with me that I dont deserve to sleep when I work more often just to make the outrageous bill payments he demands of me? Can someone explain this male psychology to me? I must be fucking retarded. Or he was born out his mother's asshole.
1 month more, max. Hopefully I can manage to keep from using my neighbors axe.
Sorry for the male that you have to deal with, but there are some of us that are not like that and only wish to be with a person and not a game.. but then there are the others that are like that and us good ones are left to the streets. But I wish and hope for all the best for you..
Broken
Illiterate
The flood is unrelenting
So afraid of nothing
Preyed upon by something.
They stalk. They scream.
Stop touching me!
Refreshed as I bleed.
I fear and they feed.
Sadistic
Cold
I warned you that day.
No reason to stay
They died today
I laugh. So sweet.
I should be sorry
Essence of pity
You're nothing to me.
“Happy”
Warm
The walls are gone
So strange to fawn
Yet she's withdrawn
Nervous. Alert.
We won't get hurt.
Derailed and lost
in disconcert
Dismal
Scarred
A beautiful token
I shouldn't have spoken
We're hurting and broken
Reluctant. Fade.
I can't be betrayed
This mass is too frayed
So I'll thrust in the blade.
First in a series of Pre-Kinetik Festival Vamp up shows: Brendin Ross & Elijah S. Arms of Frontal Boundary will be gracing us with their presence for the release of his new album, Electronic Warfare V2, Friday, March 1st.
We look forward to being one of the first stations to air the new album in it's entirety. We can not wait to discuss it and other fun topics like the upcoming tour.
I made the mistake of listening to a song an old boyfriend of mine once played for me, and ended up sobbing like a little emo fuck cuz i remember loving that song cuz i felt the passion and now i feel the left over feelings. tho it was back in high school, those memories seem to be so fresh in my mind. i wasnt always this confident...and he was one of the reasons why.
This is currently my favorite 
thank you.
Gheist
