Got news today about what caused Isabella's sudden death. She had an abnormality in her heart. There is some closure in knowing this, but...my heart aches still. All I want is to be there with her mother and be able to say goodbye to Bella the way I really wanted to. I'll be there one day though...I love you sweet girl. You'll forever hold a place in my heart.
Isabella Anne Lane
11/11/09 ~ 02/06/13
Mood: Sore Hearted Music: "Stars" - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals
A109 GIR revolt resist (sick girl in the heart of america remix) ☣ DJ DAEDALUS ☣ cover art by Natasha Graviss
Zeitgeist (Sub Specie Aeternitatis) PreEmptive Strike 0.1 T.A.L.O.S. 4:27
Fistful of Fuck You Faderhead The World of Faderhead 3:23
Vile Whispers (A Sweet Touch By Dulce Liquido) Hocico Vile Whispers - EP 4:36
She's on Drugs (Seduced Mix() ALIEN VAMPIRES Vs CHAINREACTOR Evil Bloody Music 4:11
OvErDoSe revolt resist in the heart of america by FGFC820 ☣ DJ DAEDALUS ☣ FGFC820 RevoltResist(ReworkedByRiotLegion) The Heart of America (Dräcos Mix) FGFC820 10:32
Eye M the Black Sheep Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 4:35
Eye M the Blacksheep (Absolute Body Control Remix) Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 4:35
Eye M the Blacksheep (Kuroshio Pitch Black Remix) Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 4:36
Eye M the Blacksheep (Lord of the Lost Remix By Chris Harms & Corvin Bahn) Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 4:01
Eye M the Blacksheep (Officers Remix) Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 5:37
Eye M the Blacksheep (Pankow Remix) Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 3:30
Father Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 4:32
She's Lost Control (And Me Too) Rabia Sorda Eye M the Blacksheep 5:06
Vile Whispers Hocico Vile Whispers - EP 5:06
Grendel - Rise (Montreal Students Protest Mix) ☣ ƊJ Dαєđαlυѕ aka Ðąv ιđ ROSE ☣ Grendel - Rise 3:32
Kinetik Festival 2012 May 18th introduction ☣ ƊJ Dαєđαlυѕ aka Ðąv ιđ ROSE ☣ Grendel - Soilbleed (V.3) [V.3] 5:20
Just Like Me Combichrist Kinetik Festival Volume Five 5:08
SeeMyHate(AlienVampiresRemix) C-Lekktor Kinetik Festival Volume Five CD 2 5:16
Cyber Girl (ibx Remix) Mordacious Necrolust 4:32
Is This Goodbye? Panic Lift Is This Goodbye? (Deluxe) 6:48
tuNing ouT Prometheus Burning Kill it with Fire 3:29
KILL IT WITH FIRE (Portion Control remix) Prometheus Burning Kill it with Fire 3:55
It Doesn't Exist Hocico Vile Whispers - EP 4:15
Severed Head (Heads of State Mix by Komor Kommando) SUICIDE COMMANDO Implements of Hell (Deluxe Version) 4:28
Vile Whispers (Loud Thoughts By Rabia Sorda) Hocico Vile Whispers - EP 4:52
Porcelain Doll Freakangel Let It All End 4:20
The Perils of Indifference Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 4:16
KILL IT WITH FIRE Prometheus Burning Kill it with Fire 5:09
My Darling Bullet FREAKANGEL The Faults of Humanity 4:20
Crucificado Die Braut World of Lies 5:25
Don't Pray (Touched By Stahlnebel & Black Selket) nolongerhuman Fight, Survive and Live 4:36
Whore Frontal Boundary Fight, Survive and Live 4:06
Less Important Derma-Tek Corpus Technological 5:52
Play the Game (Twilight Freakshow Monster and Servant Remix) aktivehate In Terrorem 5:41
Evil Bloody Music (FREAKANGEL Mix) ALIEN VAMPIRES Evil Bloody Music 4:16
The Perils of Indifference (Xotox Remix) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 4:11
Die Motherf*cker Die (Apology Not Accepted Remix by FÏx8sËd8) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 4:25
Severed Head (Beheaded Mix by Schattenschlag) SUICIDE COMMANDO Implements of Hell (Deluxe Version) 5:33
Hate Me (Retaliate V1.0) SUICIDE COMMANDO Implements of Hell 5:11
Come Down With Me Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 6:17
Until We Die (Edit) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 5:36
The Perils of Indifference (Remixed by JH from Centhron) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 5:15
Hate Me (Leaether Strip Remix) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 4:36
Die Motherf*cker Die (Nurzery Rhymes Vs Betamorphose Remix) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 5:49
Severed Head (Beheaded Mix by Schattenschlag) Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 5:32
Severed Head Suicide Commando Implements of Hell 4:07
A115 GIR Industrial Slave ☣ DJ Phenocure ☣ cover art by Natasha Graviss for Grandguignol Industrial Radio and klub kaos an itunes podcast.
1. Captive Six - The Message (Demo Mix) (3:25)
2. Blank vs. Moonitor - Blank - Afterburn (XTC-Mix By Massiv In Mensch) (6:10)
3. Noisuf-X - WTF? (What The Funk) (4:16)
4. Trimetrick - Bad Little Kitty (4:21)
5. Necrotek (feat. Catherine Nitrojane Robertson) - None More Black (Trimetrick Remix) (5:09)
6. Epsilon Minus - Antigravity (Implant Mix) (5:15)
7. KLUTAE - Long Live EBM (5:14)
8. Heliosphere - Ruined (4:12)
9. Hocico - Dead Trust (5:36)
10. Mordacious - Dirty Slut (3:50)
11. God Module - Doppelganger - CD version (4:13)
12. Wideband Network - Orbit (Airwave Mix) (7:16)
13. Bow Wow Wow - I Want Candy (Razed in Black Mix) (4:09)
14. Virgins O.R. Pigeons - People Are People (3:14)
15. Kloq - I Never Said (6:12)
16. Blutengel - Save Our Souls (4:21)
17. Terminal Choice - Forbidden love (5:43)
18. Celldweller - ShutEmDown (DIRTY Mix) (2:22)
19. Muscle And Hate - Let Your Body Learn (XP8 mix) (4:22)
20. The Gothsicles - Nine Dudes Freaking Out (Repulsiveness Remix by Boole) (5:44)
21. The Retrosic - Bomb (5:20)
22. Vigilante - Prison Break (Feat. Leaether Strip) (4:03)
23. Decoded Feedback - Soultaker (featuring CLAUS LARSEN) (4:58)
24. More Machine than Man - Want (2:44)
25. Uberbyte - We Like The Bass (3:50)
26. Shiv-R - Pharmaceutical Grade (SKYLA VERTEX Remix) (4:38)
I haven't been so nervous, or fearful that I'd mess something up in a long time. Through all of the dating with Harley, I've only loved one girl we've dated and was actually interested in one or two others throughout the entirety of our dating. It's actually very arduous for me to be infatuated with, or intrigued by most people. Typically the girls I'm attracted to aesthetically, intellectually, and spiritually want nothing to do with me. With the exception of Harley, most women are just repulsed my existence. I frankly couldn't care less, but I hope this particular girl is different.
We are looking for love and I've always been afraid of being hurt. I feel vulnerable when I like someone, especially when it happens so fast. This woman, I've talked to extensively on here over the last couple of years. I am rambling at this point. I'm just excited I suppose. I have that happy nervous energy and a lot of inspiration. I also find a lot of the parallels between this girl and Harley interesting. I should clarify, not parallels in their personalities, appearances, or anything like that; but the way our relationship is starting. I met Harley a few times over a two year period before we started dating. I was just too nervous and intimidated by her to say much. A few days after a break up she messaged me on here, April 20th. We talked for six hours and wound up dating. I know that is eerie for most people, at least how fast it happened. We have been together four years Saturday though and they have been the best of my life. I met this girl here, was too intimidated to act on or say much of anything for years, and that time of year is rolling up again. We also just broke things off with a girl we were seeing VERY short term a couple of weeks ago.
We have a lot in common with her too. We have a similar style, taste in music and film, she is driven and active, and just over all gorgeous and amazing.
I have a good feeling about this girl and that things are going to work out. Unfortunately my intuition isn't always infallible and I, like anyone else, have a tendency to mistake a self fulfilling prophecy for fate lol. I am very optimistic though as is Harley. It's just an amazing time of year in general. I'll keep you guys posted, assuming anyone still even reads these things from me. I haven't been on much these last couple of years.
Take care and blessed be until next time guys and gals. xo
im happy that ive moved again into my sec place with my son and my boyfriend.. and wehere going good .. and my son get's to head back to school tomorrow sents weve just moved it would be like his first day at school ..
Well, I haven't been on in some time, at least enough to interact or update all of you. I must say, my life is going pretty well. Sure there are things that need improvement, but there is always room for improvement.
Our band, Unholy Attraction, is doing extremely well. We have a show with Mushroomhead at Peabody's in Cleveland Friday April 19th. We are also playing a festival with This or The Apocalypse in June. We have several shows lined up in between. I'm very happy with how things are going with my music career.
I've been doing pretty well in school. I'm not bragging too much because it's community college, it's not super arduous or anything but I'm still proud.
I've been working at my friend Geoff's tattoo shop in Warwood as assistant manager. I make reasonable money and I've been finishing my piercing apprenticeship. I love my job. Who wouldn't love a job where you get paid well, your lunch bouaght for you, you get to be yourself, and you get free tattoos though?
Harley and I are doing well in general. We've been getting finding all kinds of stuff to get into. Our relationship as a couple is stronger than ever and our four year anniversary is the 20th of this month.
We also have been talking to a beautiful woman that we met here actually. We have a lot in common with her and things seem to be looking up in that regard. I miss talking to most of you, feel free to drop me a line on occassion. Take care and blessed be.
So many people i use to talk to wondering were all my friends are at im down to talk to anyone about anything just if your intrested let me know and my pics are not recent want to see the new me just ask
A113 GIR try to imagine the end of eternity...☣ DJ Drln Nki ☣
March 15, 2013, 05:22:pm
A113 GIR try to imagine the end of eternity...☣ DJ Drln Nki ☣
A113 GIR try ti imagine the end of eternity... ☣ DJ Drln Nki ☣ cover art by sommer mcgovern.
1. Uberbyte - We Like the Bass (3:50)
2. DYM - Let your Blood Run Dry (Grendel Remix) (4:31)
3. dj drln nki intro (0:43)
4. Hocico - Vile Whispers (Original Mix) (5:06)
5. Carved Souls - Broken Soul (4:08)
6. Endless Shame - Lack Of Communication (3:59)
7. Robotiko Rejekto - Don't Let Go (4:51)
8. Mental Discipline - God & Devil - Ars Archer - Cold In May (5:18)
9. Suicide Commando - Attention Whore (Funker Vogt Remix) (4:23)
10. Kommand+Kontrol - I Promise (V2A Remix) (3:46)
11. vv303 - Where I Was Born (Final Edit) HD720p (4:45)
12. Assemblage 23 - Crosstalk (4:41)
13. Alpha Point - Emptiness Within (4:14)
14. Unity One - Infrared (Dance Mix) (3:50)
15. HexRx - Brain Basher [Convicted Hex Offender mix by Psykkle final] (4:20)
16. Massiv in Mensch - The Way to Oblivion (Radio Edit) (3:54)
17. fractured - youareremix2 (4:42)
18. Kant Kino - Freezing (4:48)
19. Strange reactions (Remix by Dj Bariuz of Code 64) (6:00)
20. AlibiTrax - Collision (3:04)
21. Nexus VI - Indicator (Remix by [Sin.thetic Squad]) (5:23)
22. Unitary - Miscreation (4:59)
23. Enter and Fall - Push Enter and Fall Down (4:21)
24. Aesthetic Perfection - Inhuman (Imperative Reaction Remix) (4:20)
25. Re:Legion - Re-Start X (4:03)
26. reADJUST - traum:HAFT (reWORK) (5:35)
27. reADJUST - Wahre Helden (5:40)
28. reADJUST - Alone (5:02)
29. TraKKtor - Orbital Strike [Infinitus Bellum] (2:50)
30. TraKKtor - The Dawn Of War (7:30)
A112 GIR Psycho Terror ~ Trojan.ADH.2 ☣*TeRrOrPuPpeT*☣
March 01, 2013, 07:50:pm
A112 GIR Psycho Terror ~ Trojan.ADH.2 ☣*TeRrOrPuPpeT*☣
Fuck the System , Fuck Your Scene
Terror, Chaos , Resistance
I Am My Own Toy......
not afraid to live, not afraid to die......
ebm,industrial/noise,rhythmicnoise.......recorded live at
Club Hall 13 for GIR and klub kaos cover art by Olga Olga. Listen at your own risk.
The other day I got word of some news that shattered my heart into tiny,unfixable pieces. The loss of my little niece,Isabella Anne Lane. She was only 3 years old. She was taken far,far too soon. My heart aches for her mother. I've never known the horrible feeling of the loss of a child you cared so deeply for...and now I do...The pain is undescribable. I pray that all who were damaged by the loss of this sweet little girl,will heal in time.
I'm so sorry Ashley...I love you so much sis.I'm here whenever you need me
Mood: Shattered </3 Music: "Stars" - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals