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You're me Problem
November 25, 2014, 11:30:pm
I have a real problem,
I do my best to make it better.
Create distractions.
Talk about it.
Pray on it.
Confront it.
Nothing really helps when it pops up to mind.
It just makes me feel alone and discussed.
Nothing any one says makes it go away.
Time only helps to bury it deeper.
It will never leave me alone.
It knows me too well.
I may get a few good days,
but it will mean nothing soon as it finds me.
Staying busy only makes me weak,
Too much free time makes me sad.
Just go away so I can sleep.
It makes my head hurt,
eyes swollen,
flare up get worst.
As if i don't have enough issues as is.
please stop crying,
please stop worrying,
just stop hanging around.
I don't care.
Leave already.
I want to love life,
but it makes it hard.
It makes everything a simple calculation,
no wonder and awe in the world.
turns mins turn into hours,
Days into months.
Almost as if time refuse move any faster.
Maybe it wants us both to die painfully and slow.
Then it just may die with a glimmer of happiness just to know it's all over

((Some one asked me what it was like to live with anxiety/depression my whole life, the only example I could come up with was "Its like babysiting the saddest kid you will ever know, forever. Some days the kid is happy to go to the park but that excitement is only there for a moment before they just want to go home and stare at a wall"))

Mood: understanding


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Gigolo ?
November 25, 2014, 04:33:am

Hey, if I'm going to continue through life getting *fucked* like a two-dollar whore why not get paid while I'm at it ?

It's not all that far removed from reality ... in a sense.

Mood: Go fuck yourself.
Music: Combichrist - This Is My Rifle



Gigolo ?
November 25, 2014, 12:20:pm
:-( ???

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List Of Sites To Look Up
November 25, 2014, 02:15:am
Here are a few site for star wars props so those who have an interests in looking up stuff and not sure what to do or find there are helpful sites.

www.whitearmor.net - storm or clone trooper armor modifications
www.fettronics.com - light board for you boba fett armor
www.nmeprops.com - mando to republic commando helmets
www.t-visor.com - Visors for the mando helmets and also clone and republic commando helmets
www.order6t6.com - Decal for some of your helmet & Armor needs
http://forum.clonetroopers.net - Awesome place about clone troopers

Mood: Dark Side Of My Ass
Music: Empire's Death March

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List Of Sites To Look Up
November 25, 2014, 05:53:am
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Nice list


List Of Sites To Look Up
November 25, 2014, 11:34:am
Thank you :-)


New Video from Justin Symbol
November 24, 2014, 04:41:pm
New Video for 'Purgatory' from NYC Industrial Shock Rocker JustinSymbol :

Let us know what you think!

Catch Justin Symbol at our New Year's Eve event in NYC with Assemblage 23:

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New Video from Justin Symbol
November 24, 2014, 07:07:pm
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pointleft would like to know if there is any word about the name changes being able to happen soon? I've been saving my VF POINTS for it!!! shakefist


New Video from Justin Symbol
November 24, 2014, 07:26:pm
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Melanie Gaydos!


New Video from Justin Symbol
November 25, 2014, 11:48:am
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bias website


New Video from Justin Symbol
November 25, 2014, 03:12:pm
Love this song :-)


I'll Cover You
November 24, 2014, 03:48:am
Live in my house, I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
With one thousand kisses
Be my lover and I'll cover you, yeah

Open your door, I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage, to lay at your feet
But sweet kisses, I've got to spare
I'll be there and I'll cover you, Oh woah

I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
On life, all my life

I've longed to discover
Something as true as this is, Yeah
(So with a thousand sweet kisses, I'll cover you)
If you're cold and you're lonely
(With a thousand sweet kisses, I'll cover you)
You've got one nickel only

(With a thousand sweet kisses, I'll cover you)
When you're worn out and tired
(With a thousand sweet kisses, I'll cover you)
When your heart has expired

(Oh lover, I'll cover you,)
Oh Lover, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh lover, I'll cover you
(525600 minutes)
(525000 seasons of... Love)
I'll cover you, oh.

Mood: Drift Back To Hell
Music: Rent

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