Okcupid is the most vile dating website i ever been on. Its not that i don't have time for relationships. Its more like im to socially awkward to ask anyone out. Its not an confidence issue, i can pick up fuck and possibly talk people into bed with me. I have done it in the past. Believe me. But, i cant commit to a relationship. And if i seriously like someone enough, i self sabotage myself. Or i google the past life and do like five backround checks. If that doesnt happen and i do end up trusting my partner, i fall in love with after a week and than they become creeped out.... However, thats not reAlly why i vented. I got high scores with people who are white. Im super liberal openminded and non judgemental heterosexist...etc. I want someone outside my race. And i cant be around white people i end up killing them. There was a espiode Wednesday this week where i was in new york city, these white girls and hipster looking asian indian girl were being racist. The context was that these three gentlemen came on the train or the subway and started singing in a spainish dialect. I used to speak some spainish but i could get what they were saying. Also i want to say it was music. From southern america, possibly mexico because they used a guitar and accordians. The one girl pulls out her phone snapchat her and goes "first generation right here. Totally a wetback"
The old me would fought the girl. Even if they had the right to say it. Fine whatever right. No, they asked the girl who was their friend if she was first generation asian. I was pissed. The old me would be like im second gen European or like whatever. The girl response was great... She goes im gen x and queer. I gave her a smile flipped off the girls.... So wanted to give the asian girl a hug and my number for that. But,like i see this behavior with all white people and the rare few was like me and angry and couldnt change anything. Its not an issue of being single its an issue of what the fuck is wrong with people.
" I want someone outside my race. And i cant be around white people i end up killing them.""But,like i see this behavior with all white people"No just the people you pay attention to.You LOOK for the bad in people.If they aren't bad you overlook them.
LOL the most racist people in the world are minorities.Whites have killed more and had slavery but they've been pussified in the last 10 years.White people around me are afraid to sneeze for fear of being called a racist or homophobe etc.You want to see REAL racism?Be white in a black or Hispanic, mooooslim neighborhood.Be white in a black or Hispanic, moooslim school.Racism to me is getting in my face, threatening me not making a snide comment WHICH being Mexican was probably true.Drunk Paisas often break into song in public and 90% of the time they were 1st Generation or illegal.She was just being a "Secret Racist Snot" not the Physical Incarnation of Racism for the White Race.
basically im 24 turning 25 in August.
I am a long island nyc artist. I use acrylic paints, inks, photography both film and digital. I hope to get a sponsorship from vampirefreaks. I haven't work it out. In theory i would probably rock their shit and they could interview me and my art. Or like i model their stuff at nyc and long island art shows and take selfies. Right now im curating an art show for a public library and getting cash for it. Im looking for that special someone regardless of gender. They're aleast 19 not an asshole, possibly asian indian or Spanish. Not ghetto or on that fleet flow. I would like to get married before 27. They must be close to public transportation. I love food and art.
Moby, aphex twin, boards of canada , i have a huge list
Art, food, intelligence, skulls,dragons, music,making art and different types of stuff
Assholes,people who are prentous and stuck up
Riviera hotel and casino i work at is closing its doors after 60 years finally. Its ironic its the 60 yr anniversary too, theyll be imploding it by summer.
There goes the last classic hotel casino on the strip!
Im not worried since i got my airport job and a raise last week, gonna apply to other casinos soon
the other day this chick was going on and on about how she's a "cis gendered female" and how hard it is. I didn't know what it meant... but assumed she was really a dude or something... so i asked and shes like "it means I'm a female who was born a female and identifies as a female" ... it's like wtf bitch... why make it sound complicated as fuck by labeling it like that?