You ever had that one item of your day-to-day that defined you-as-you?
I had a few, my New Rocks boots and my pendent, both have weaned down to the point of no return.
The moment you re-enter the world without your symbols of individuality warps the very being of your soul. Sure I still have my other items that make me who I am, but my core has been removed. Feels like am living in a sick realist dream, were my items is the key to bringing peace to the world.
Maybe Saving a princess, killing a dragon, putting three triangles together will have to be done too. Till then, am going to find a koopa to jump on.
I know that feeling because each piece of wares that i find that make me ...me i enjoy...especially when people ask me where did you get that im like "i made this or its no longer in existence" someties i wish i bought 2 of some items because then i know if i wore down one id have the other as back up....fuck i need a delorean to go back in time
I see him. This is not the first time I've seen him in my dreams. I don't know what it means. We're always together. We hold hands and walk together. To be haunted, even in my dreams.
It's not that I don't like it; heaven and the stars know that it is wonderful. It's just that when I wake up, I can literally still feel his touch, see his smile..... It makes me wonder what it means. What is my subconscious trying to tell me?
Yes, I have dreamt of others, but I've seen him the most. To go back..... Would I dare?
That channel goes from a show called "Too Cute" which features mostly puppies and kittens, to another show which should be pretty much be called "When Animals Try to Maim People". Excellent transition, Animal Planet!
Also to note, seeing human babies should be making me go aww. Instead, whenever I see puppies or kittens, my voice goes up into squeaky mode. I think I'm meant to raise dogs and not humans. I don't know. I'll sometimes encounter cute little kids that smile at me and wave at me or just say HI! I smile back. I used to ignore them, but now I can't.
It SEEMS like it's the natural course of life taking place. I'm almost 31, my biological clock is ticking maybe, however I'm not financially nor emotionally prepared for having a baby. MAYBE one day. But these are different times. Many couples nowadays not only choose to NOT get married, but they choose to have children a little later in life. Medical science has advanced enough where a woman in her mid-40s can still have a healthy baby.
Anyway, life always surprises us. Not me though; you have to have sex to have a baby!
I'm questioning what I want relationship wise. Do I want a bunch of dates with different people and either fuck them or not? Do I want to find the love of my life? Do I just want to be single and be left alone? Or do I want something with the android love I found a few months ago?
I have all those options, but honestly there are some I want right now. I will just have to wait and see.....