yo mama took a huge shit! when she got up, a cat was floating in toilet.yo daddy is eating pancakes, when out of nowhere he poops out of his hole and then he pees in a cup and makes his old-ass grandpa drink it he smiles and he gets little crabs in his mouth, but he just sit there about reading the newspaper about how to sit on the toilet and he just laughs while he has beer all over his big head. then nicki minaj's big ass was floating in beer..can I get some of that? so Nikki took huge poop and stuck it on the grandpas ass so he can look just like her while the granny was dancing the dentures all fell out and went on nicki minaj fake boobs but then a cow was grinding on the table and daddy was just eating his poopie pancakes.
'Bitch, you look like a fucking naked mole rat. Going all Kim Possible on your ass cause I piss on ya. So go suck a diznik and give that horses ass some kisses. You can suck on everything you want but don't touch my fucking blunt. You say you got lips like an angel so but your money where your mouth is.
age 11: i discover what i want to do in my future life, and start getting ready for my bright future. then my dad passes away before i get to apologize for telling him that i hated him the night before. then i realize how shitty of a son i was.. then my mom gets a new boyfriend, and we live with him.
age 12: i lived with my moms boyfriend dale. dale was an asshole after we moved in, and then the awesome father-figure i thought he was disappears. i developed my bipolar depression and just didn't want to be there anymore. i realized more and more each day that my dad passing away was my fault. he stopped taking his medicine because he "hated his life" and to this day, i carry the burden on my shoulders.
age 13: i still lived with dale until the summer time.he gave my mom the ultimatum, "see your grandson, you can find somewhere else to live." so we left. things started to get better. i stopped sleeping with a knife on my end table and bat by my door. gained an attachment to my brother-in-law, because i had no adult male role-model in my life. so for one summer, he became my best friend. by the start of fall, the day before my birthday, we moved back into dales house. he had changed, and was the father-figure again. we lived with him til December.. 3 months.
age 14: after moving out of dales house, i moved to a new house, and things had gotten better. that may.. i found my first love.. but i didnt know what i had until she was gone.. while i dated her, i was happiest since the day my dad passed away. i saw her just about every day after school. then i left her, because of one stupid incident.. then my best friend dated her.. knowing i still loved her. he and my other friend hung out with her and her friend. they fell asleep on the trampoline. her dad was pissed.. so she had to move.. then she dated a guy named cody. they broke up, so i jumped at my opportunity. became her shoulder to cry on, and then we dated shortly after. she left me a day before our one month anniversary, because she lived 15 miles away, and hated that we saw eachother one day on a weekend. then the bipolar depression returned.
Age 15: i was depressed, lonely, angry, and edgy. i took all this energy, and put it towards training in my martial arts. martial arts was all i knew, and was something that wouldnt leave me. it was like a religion to me. i ate, slept, drank martial arts. competed, challenged, and eventually taught martial arts. i started teaching martial arts at 15 at the number 1 school in ohio. i found second love, her name was summer. nicest girl i have met. there was only one stipulation to finding her.. she wasnt allowed to date. but i dated her anyway. she felt bad about lying to her parents, so she broke up with me. but we were still hugging, kissing, and doing other 15 yr old relationship things. then, she told me she fell for her ex boyfriend. i was depressed and alone again. i lost all motivation to do anything. i quit my job, quit going to martial arts classes. and just gamed. all the time. all day, all night, all weekend. i was out of shape.
age 16/present: its getting closer to my dads date of passing, nd all the weight of feeling like the reason he is gone is increasing everyday, because my sister is saying how much she misses him. i sometimes feel it should be me underground in a casket, and not him. in the past 4 days, i have woke up screaming. i have a well-developed front, so that nobody sees my sorrow, that i cannot and will not cry, until im asleep. i have almost nobody to talk about concerning these issues, and im just getting back into martial arts again. im getting an itch to fight.. i do mma with my friend though. and we spar a lot. fighting to me, is becoming like a cure to the common cold.. the adrenaline is enticing. the feel of a victory is a boost to morality. getting hit repetitively, builds my adrenaline, like a temporary high, then the unleashing and relishing of kicks and punches until the final hit. then everything seems fine. but right now, i feel like im crying, but my face is dry.. i doubt i will sleep tonight, if i do, i know i will wake up screaming or crying.
Mood: depressed Music: "Something" by Escape The Fate
this is a journal about my amazing girlfriend, Hunn. she is the jelly to my peanut butter, the orange to my purple, the pumpkin to my halloween <3
she means so much to me, i LOVE HER very much <3
i wanna kiss her so much, but she lives 1000 miles away. but no matter the distance, ill make her as happy as i possibly can without being there. she has the cutest smile, and the most beautiful eyes ever <3
she is a gamer like me! and a farm girl, and loves to be outside, like me! i love her sooo much, im gonna keep her forever.... im not sharing, she is mine <333
8 <3 4 <3 12 - FOREVER AND ALWAYS, TO INFINITY AND BEYOND <33
I want someone to share my secrets with, someone to talk to late at night when I can't sleep,someone to comfort me when I'm scared, to hold me when I'm sad, someone who doesn't need to say that he loves me for me to know its true.
why can't one guy just cam with me normal instead of saying show me your tits or get naked and if I don't do it there like I'll just block you on here I'm virgin Iv'e never done anything with a guy in my life or got my first kiss=(