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DarknessofCerberus
Never Surrender Who You Are and Keep Fighting!
September 17, 2014, 09:57:pm
This Video I had made is a personal message from me to those of you who often struggle with suicidal thoughts/Depression and just life in General, also those of you who have low self-confidence or often think of yourselves as obsolete and insignificant. Hope what I had said helps to improve you in more ways or another. This video goes out to everyone! Thank you all for watching and you're friendships!

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MirandaDarkMelody

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Never Surrender Who You Are and Keep Fighting!
September 17, 2014, 10:42:pm
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Ms.Batty
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Never Surrender Who You Are and Keep Fighting!
September 17, 2014, 11:08:pm
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This was a really beautiful and intesnse video. I want you to know that I do cherish my friendship with you. As someone who struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts almost everyday, I say thank you.
Blutnacht
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September 18, 2014, 08:10:am
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Mistress_Ivy

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Never Surrender Who You Are and Keep Fighting!
September 18, 2014, 04:17:pm
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I really needed to hear this today! I've been struggling pretty bad here lately and feel like i don't have anyone who cares at times. Depressive disorder and anxiety is something i live with. Thank you for your friendship!! hugs

PerfectDrugRed

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Never Surrender Who You Are and Keep Fighting!
September 18, 2014, 07:19:pm
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Thank you.

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DarknessofCerberus
Journal Entry9-17-14 Embrace the Light in My hands, Reverse the Oceans
September 17, 2014, 03:14:pm
For some reason all of a sudden today there's been a sinking feeling of depression and memories with me on this day I've fallen victim to those demons stalking me in the shadows much like a house of mirrors as they stare and snare:
There is one woman in particular who was once a part of my past who had wounded me completely from the inside out. I could have been entirely consumed and engulfed in the voids of darkness until another person pulled my hand out from within being drowned in the oceans of darkness.
Breathing a new light into my veins and into my own body.
Even despite I've become successful and have this amount of Friends I still at times do not feel complete for some reason. I deeply miss my best friend Terry who had passed away this year the day after my Birthday
I've crawled out from the oceans in order to get to this point in my life, ever since I've created my Youtube my life has become more positive and in the direction of the light.


I sat upon the floor in my mind and began to gather the pieces of my dismantled heart just collecting fragments and dust, and of my memories..
From time to time I would feel the oceans of darkness consuming my lungs.
Before I could have even witnessed the Light and hold it in my hands the oceans of darkness had completely drowned me, I've managed to crawl out of it alive before it was too late, I hope through my Legacy I have inspired everyone of you if possible through my videos and of me personally. I would hope that my friendship is much valued I attempt to be there for others, I cannot recognize myself compared to who I once was until now I've become something so much more in depth over the years as I've become something greater than myself. A revolutionary light now courses through me as the purity influences my spirit now.
At times I pray to God that he may consume my spirit and bring me home to be at peace with the light and become everlasting.

I cannot believe I've managed to survive through the oceans of darkness and it's constant motions of obstacles by the grace of God to reach this point in my life. Everything started to change for me since I've started my Youtube project I've been experiencing the world and breathing in a new perspective, frame of mind and consciousness. I've experienced a revolutionary light and had met so many great people along this adventure.
With each new adventure it truly opens my eyes and inspires me even more!
I would hope that one day when I leave this world behind my videos and all of the good things I have done would inspired others and change their lives and give them a chance for a better life.

Every now and then I have lost the center of balance in my walk in the light however I constantly attempt to be the greatest human being possible.
Even despite my demons I always strive forward on trying to discover my perfections and improvements of myself.
As a Spiritualist Christian/Wayseer even despite that I am still not something perfect as I still have my own demons and depression. I hope that everyone truly cherishes my friendship and relationship with me..
I honest to God do all the best I could to being a great person.
I have demons that haunts me from time to time that is overwhelming at times however I am still alive and fighting through the blackness and it's darkness.

Music: Eminem-"Beautiful"

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Aadora

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Journal Entry9-17-14 Embrace the Light in My hands, Reverse the Oceans
September 17, 2014, 04:47:pm
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Quite frequently when individials go through these periods of depression they forget that they are temporary and loose focus of their goals. It shows a great strength of character to be in one and still remain positive and hold on to what really matters. I hope you come through this period quickly, and let me know if you need anything. You are in my thoughts today. I've met you only recently but do value your kind regards and friendship. We all have demons. The best way to fight them is to bring them into the light where they seem so small and eventually destroyed. hugs Take care and I hope you find peace soon!

MirandaDarkMelody

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Journal Entry9-17-14 Embrace the Light in My hands, Reverse the Oceans
September 17, 2014, 08:45:pm
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Very touching journal entry and shows great depth. Even through moments of darkness you shine through. Be strong and realize you are not alone at all :-) We all support you and I hope that you feel better soon. You are strong and you will find your inner light that will help you shine through the darkness. *hug*

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jet
New Featured Video from Justin Symbol
September 17, 2014, 12:40:pm
Brand New Video from up and coming industrial artist from NYC: JustinSymbol


These guys have been generating buzz around here so keep an eye on them!
Look out for their debut album coming out next month!
Also check out:
Justin Symbol - Control (Music Video) featuring Daisy Berkowitz of Marilyn Manson
JustinSymbol on VF

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JustinSymbol

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New Featured Video from Justin Symbol
September 17, 2014, 10:42:pm
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Thank you guys, full length album 'V Ω I D H E A D' out Oct 15th via iTunes

HedgehogSilv

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New Featured Video from Justin Symbol
September 18, 2014, 12:15:am
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Good to see this band getting the recognition it deserves. It'll only go up from here. Will there be a pressed copy of the album as well? Me like CDs.

GainaxMachine

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New Featured Video from Justin Symbol
September 18, 2014, 12:38:am
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Candy Brain sent me here. Love the new song and video!!

JustinSymbol

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New Featured Video from Justin Symbol
September 18, 2014, 12:59:am
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Physical copies yes will be available beginning with our Halloween CD release and thank you Candy Brain as always for the love and support man!!

OverTheSoundwaves

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New Featured Video from Justin Symbol
September 18, 2014, 07:16:pm
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As previously stated... Im not a huge fan of the video, but the song is pretty infectious! I like it. :-)

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xDeadlyxSkullx
I fail I know
September 15, 2014, 09:03:pm
SO I continue to keep vanishing from VF. I'm sorry..as my last journal said I am usually on FB or Tumblr. So if you have either one of those PLEASE PLEASE send me a link and I'd LOVE to become friends/follow you there. OR if you have an e-mail I have one too (obvi) so PLEASE send me that too. I miss my people..but I don't know VF has became dead for me in many ways..I still love this place and always will. I'm going to try to get on it more. I now have a laptop again YAY about time right? I also..don't have a job any more. I quit it, and Chris and I are also moving which scares me to bits. But it's supposed to be a better chance for us..and I really need a better chance for us. I've been SUPER moody and everything lately...*sighs* ANYWHO I miss you guys..talk to me..any new good RP groups? Or are we just rping through journals now? I've seen a few people who do that. SPEAKING of if anyone RP'S through Tumblr (Which you should) My friend and I just started up a group well we're still working on it and we'd love some more impute on it! So if you're interested let me know it's called Shadow Wars (Vampires, Dhampires, Werewolfs and Humans!) We ALSO just started up a Youtube channel called "What The Sexy" you should go and watch us we only just got our first video up. We don't have the best video camera..but we're working on it. SO ANYWAY here is that link What The Sexy - Q&A #1. So I think that's about it for now.. I love you guys! <3

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MalkavianMime
he just one the internet.
September 13, 2014, 10:57:pm
http://www.extra-life.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participantDonations&participantID=96292

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jet
VF Event Updates!
September 13, 2014, 02:57:pm
TONIGHT (Saturday, September 13th) in NYC:
Cybertron: Retro Edition
DJ's Jet, Annabel Evil, Father Jeff, Chas Paris, Grave of Death Playing Old Skool 80s and 90s Industrial favorites
Burlesque Performance by: Nina La Voix

TONIGHT (Saturday, September 13th) in LA:
Los Angeles Fashion and Fetish Ball
Vampirefreaks and other sponsors come tonight to support cancer awareness at the LA fashion fetish ball.
Featuring DJ's in 2 rooms, Fire Dancers, Aerial Performance, Fetish Performers and more

Friday, September 19th in Philadelphia:
I Love Industrial
Featuring Hocico, Hardwire, Venal Flesh
Brought to you by Mighty Mike Saga

Friday, October 24th in NYC:
VF Presents Cybertron: Halloween Edition
Live Performance by FGFC820
Halloween Decorations, Free Candy, Costume Contest

Friday, October 31st in New Orleans:
The Bad Things Ball
Halloween Night! One of the biggest Halloween Events in New Orleans
Featuring DJ Jet

Saturday, November 1st in NYC:
VF Presents: Halloween Massacre
Featuring Decoded Feedback (first NYC show in 5 years)
$500 Costume Contest, Free Candy, Burlesque Performances

Tuesday, December 2nd in NYC:
Skinny Puppy at the Best Buy Theatre
With bands:
VNV Nation, Haujobb, Youth Code

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DJ_Vanity_Kills

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VF Event Updates!
September 15, 2014, 05:42:pm
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So excited to share the stage with Hocico in Philly on Friday.

DigitalDiarrhea

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VF Event Updates!
September 16, 2014, 12:02:am
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I really want to see VNV Nation one day. VNV Nation should get more exposure on here, as well as a number of artists on here

NiKKiNeVeRMORe

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VF Event Updates!
September 16, 2014, 12:07:am
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pointup pointup pointup

JakiCatastrophic

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VF Event Updates!
September 18, 2014, 09:02:am
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Will you guys be coming to Dracula's Ball in Philly this halloween? I was sorry to miss you last time!

JakiCatastrophic

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VF Event Updates!
September 18, 2014, 09:03:am
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On a side note, I'm gonna order a street team box ;-)

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DarknessofCerberus
September The 11th-We Remember
September 11, 2014, 11:28:pm
I wanted to take this time in silence of this day in remembrance of all those who have lost their lives on this tragic day on September 11th, 2001 I've attended an event today that had brought me to tears. To have hard of the stories from those who had lost loved ones and friends deeply grasped my spirit in so many ways. I had seen was a woman playing the Scottish bag pipes and wearing the traditional Irish uniform playing the Amazing grace and some Motorcycle riders had marched down the street while carrying the American flags and each of us we're handed balloons to be released into the sky. I could swear it just moved me so much. For those souls that we're perished on that day they are now resting in a much better place in peace.
It makes me truly disgusted that no one else on here even considered to pay even a portion or a fraction of their time and tribute to this day.
How much more could people not learn or develop for something positive and greater right? I still believe there are good of people left in society there needs to be more though.
May God rest their spirits and find their peace. This was such a horrible day for those who had lost their loved ones. =[

It's so pathetic and degrading to themselves to see how many people actually constantly complain about their lives/Drama on here or anywhere really..when to realize just how selfish they really are.
As I always tell everyone I meet to feel grateful to be blessed we are still alive and everyday is truly a miracle in itself that we are.
That we could harvest and appreciate the Light and positives embraced in this World instead of focusing on the Negatives all the time.
To think that someone else has it much darker and harder of a life than you.

Cause in the end we're in for a few hard times And well get knocked up down and done But the truth is were still alive. Don't ever forget that everyone...regardless how darkened you're lives are.

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DarknessofCerberus

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September The 11th-We Remember
September 12, 2014, 12:15:am
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Oh of course I know all about the Zionist Banker Elites and their corporate enslavement agendas, Eugenics and how 9/11 was an Inside operation. Fucking corruption never seems to end. It's because of them to blame for what happened to those lives lost.

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jet
Dress Normal
September 11, 2014, 03:13:pm
Riding the subway yesterday I noticed a bunch of ads for "Gap", with the new slogan "Dress Normal"
Which in my opinion, "Dress Normal" has got to be the worst ad slogan ever.
So next VF Contest:
Create a VF ad image that is a parody of the Gap ad campaign!
Here's some samples of the original ads:






google image search for more ad samples

Winner gets:
Featured member for a day
One year premium membership
Choose the featured cult for a week
Custom layout from the VF Design team

How to enter:
Submit the picture as a comment on this thread!

You have 4 days!
Contest ends on Sept 15th at 11:59pm

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glittertitterz

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Dress Normal
September 15, 2014, 07:01:pm
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[/IMG]Photos of me (glittertitterz) and Sam (samir) downtown, Raleigh with our slogans "dress epic" and "define normal"I hope this works aahh..

okamihightop

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Dress Normal
September 17, 2014, 09:15:am
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unpardonablesin

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Dress Normal
September 17, 2014, 10:33:am
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Propped all the ones I adored. meow

NoodleWilde

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Dress Normal
September 17, 2014, 03:31:pm
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These parody ads are so cool so far :3 P.S. In a tight knit community surrounded by lovingly open people, people admire what I do with my hair, even the time I temporarily colored the fringe purple :3 Hence why sometimes it is accepted.

666Miss_Murder666

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Dress Normal
September 18, 2014, 06:07:pm
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Lunar_Mistress
Jesus god damned mother fucking Christ.
September 10, 2014, 08:41:pm
One thing after another, and there's always another.
And another.
And another, still.
Everything is just starting to pile up. It wears on you, mentally and physically.
I could blame the extra twenty pounds I gained on my stress, but it's really my fault. The lack of sleep probably is, too. Either I never sleep or I'm always asleep. Either way, that's getting pretty old, too.
Everything else is out of my control, though, so why is it still getting to me so much? Is it only because I can't?
I'm just sitting here, beating my head against the wall, knowing it won't do anything. Knowing there's nothing else I can do.

Mood: Down.

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MattyK

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Jesus god damned mother fucking Christ.
September 10, 2014, 09:01:pm
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I can relate with all the crap that's been going on with me lately.

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SlaughterHouseAsylum
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September 10, 2014, 08:29:pm
I am not this person. I am not a depressed person. I am not a sad shell of myself wondering where I went wrong. I am not this person. I am bullet proof. I am fearless. I am a ball of confidence. I never let my guard down. Please, someone smack me as hard as you can. You get back here, Nikki! Right meow!

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Anabela_Dawn_Riddler

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September 10, 2014, 08:42:pm
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throw

SlaughterHouseAsylum

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September 10, 2014, 08:43:pm
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thanks..lol I needed that :-)

Anabela_Dawn_Riddler

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September 10, 2014, 08:46:pm
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no worries lol

ames_heartless

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Wow! I though I had problems...

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jet
Interview with Kirlian Camera
September 10, 2014, 04:33:pm
In 1980 Angelo Bergamini created the band Kirlian Camera, a band that revolutionised the synthpop scene in a big way. They went on to become the first Italian band to be signed to Virgin Records. Through the late 80's and into the early 90's the music of Kirlian Camera became all the more darker. In 1999 the very sexy Elena joined Kirlian Camera which pathed the way for what would become the Kirlian Camera sound we love today. More recently they have collaborated with Covenant's Eskil Simonsson to which we await to hear the stunning results. In a rare interview Angelo and Elena speak to Vampire Freaks about all things Kirlian Camera.

Click Here for the interview with Kirlian Camera

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Anhedonia

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Interview with Kirlian Camera
September 10, 2014, 06:53:pm
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i fucking love kirlian camera

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