so my ex and I decided we want to have a kid together
I just printed out the forms for a sperm bank
I'm feeling a bit anxious about it
It doesn't help that I hate filling out forms
she wants me to forge her signature and initials as I fill out the form
kinda feel a little crazy but I love her and want a family
We're not officially back together but we both want to be with each other
and even if we don't end up together forever she'll always be there for any kids we have
There's no reason to be jealous. You have your whole youth to experience. Actually finish college, get a stable job, a place to live. Don't rush it, I stopped wanting and trying. It happened accidentally, but it was a miracle made from love.
But try when the time is right, try when you have stability. Don't try when you can't afford it. As much as I wish the saying "All you need is love" was real, it so isn't.
I hear your call
Your siren song
Dancing on the wind
The words tangle in my hair
I told right to my resolve
Pray that my strength holds
I can't give in
I can not lose
Goddess help me
Allow me to stand tall
To face this demon
Help me say no
well today my cousins dog had a heart attack they had him for 8 years and this is very sad but then i realized u have my beloved Harley for 16 when he had passed and i literary had to hold him in my arms wile his soul left his body and 2 weeks before him and i mean exactly 14 days i lost my other love my max and i held him as well i sat there and looked in to there fucking eyes the sadness and the pain kills me every day i see there pictures or look at there ashed because i cant let them go they where my life not a single moment passes that i dont think of them they where what i turned to when i was upset even if they where just dogs they slept in my bed they knew when it was time to go to the room and sleep they watched my bed room door all night sat by my side every moment i was home they made sure nothing happened to me max would search the house non stop if i wasn't home it pissed off my mom and dad all the time because he couldn't find me and as crazy as this is iv never felt this alone its getting harder to type i cant see from my tears and it hurts to breath i just want them right now max had chf and he just kept going down hill and i didnt leave his side i slept on the floor with him when he couldn't get to bed and i stayed up all night when Harley had a stroke and couldn't move as he struggled i had to hold him down on the floor so he wouldn't get hurt i cant sit in the house alone anymore
i once again find my self in a down frame of mind
i really dont know what to do anymore
if found my self not even wanting to leave my room anymore
as of to today im locking the lock when im in or out of it no matter what
im also going to pack everything i own
all of my cloths all of my things all of my pictures and memoreys
the only things that will be left out are all of my work cloths
i might even take everything off my walls
my room will be a shell kinda like how i feel
i dont want to be around anything anymore
i love my job but i dont even want to gwt up to get there
i dont know what i should do anymore
i dont know who i can go to anymore eather
im sick of my self im sick of life
i dont even wanna go spend time with my family that will be here soon
i dont wanna eat with them
i dont wanna eat period
maybe ill go work out for a few hours
Love this song!"For forty days, walk the earth, removing all this curse.These forty nights, and you're drowning as I fill your lungs."
