In life you think youre gonna find your true love and everything is going to be fine and dandy. But the truth everything comes to a end one way or another. Being awake and realistic is one thing and being awake and dreaming is another. Maybe ill admit i dont believe in love as much as i use to , theres a time in your life where fairy tales become to hypnotic to handle. Maybe i already expect everyone to leave me and me to leave everyone. We were all born alone , shouldnt we die alone ? This task of life would be easier if all the hormones and chemicals in our head didn't exist. Idk. ~pretty sad~
So ive had this stalker for years now. And ive been noticing him more often. Hes been messaging my friends and asking them to pass on secret messages and codes. Guys pls dont promote whatever hes saying. We were never together. All i did was talk to him tell him he has a good band and plays guitar well. So he gets creepy. I block delete him. And now hes following me everywhere. Im pretty sure he will see this. Hes made fake accounts but i rule them out fast. I dont really know him .i know he lives here somewhere because well my first time meeting him was when he was following me. Lol....-_- . Seriously i cant have any more of my info getting out i mean whats next my house adress ? Ugh. Pls guys help me out this guy isnt normal.hes been stalking me since i was a wee child like 14-15 years old and hes in his twenties.....he has issues clearly and his obsessive with everything and everyone. Hes is a felon from what i remember and he is a weirdo putting in so many years to follow me in fact he quit college to follow me. Its so scary and its getting worse pls ignore anyone trying to get u to connect to me or send me crap.
To care starts from your heart and is bridged to others. Don't let someone else diminish your hearts ability to build bridges just because they are indiferent.
After about 10 years of having absolutely no artistic inspiration, I finally have some back! I finally feel like I can create something again. I have no idea how my inspiration came back Im just glad it finally did! It feels amazing to be able to do something that I thought I would never be able to do again. If any of you are constantly inspired to do what you love to do please dont take that for granted because simply having talent isnt good enough when there is nothing there to inspire it. In some way I feel as if some light has returned to me after so many years of being in darkness. I love being able to pick up a paintbrush and a piece of paper and create something magical out of it. I have never had one single maternal instinct or feeling in my body but for some reason when I finish painting a picture I get this maternal sense over it. Perhaps because it is an image born of my imagination. Ill close this by saying that inspiration is fleeting so if you have it in abundance treasure it and appreciate it to its fullest because you never know when it could leave you!! <3
"Wake up....wake up..." you said to me. I slowly turned half awake and mostly dazed to search for you. "What is it" i asked. You lifted me into your arms and just held me. I rested my head on your warm chest. I could hear your heart beat slowly but also in the rhythm of pain. i held back onto you tighter and said "dont go...dont...." but you already were leaving....i held on as tight as i could and just cried because i was just a child at heart....i remembered the smell of vanilla mixed with faint tabacco plants on you....light sweet and mine....well was mine...i always thought i had everything on my finger. But here u are letting me go...."pls dont go pls...." i cried a few more times......i regretted everything i have ever done at that point.....i looked up to kiss u one last time....but u were already gone....
I decided to watch a scary movie in order to stay awake and do homework.....now im just paranoid and to scared to focus on anything but my surroundings. Laying in bed all seeing things that arent there ugh. Never again.
So ive been wondering. What kind of beautiful am i am i like average or stunning or gloomy or like what word describes the type of beauty i have. Hmmmmm curious comment ? S'il vous plaît ?
I feel like I'm the only one who keeps trying to hold on to the old ways of how we use to do things from way back when. I always tell myself and others to try not to live in the past and yet, here I am doing it all the time and holding on to it with a white knuckle tight grip. It wasn't like it was a bad past time for us, it's not like we were out knocking over 7-11's or anything like that. We were good kids for the most part, for example; every single weekend without fail we would play PSO like a bunch of addicts till the sun came up. These days I play PSP2 like it's my job. Hell even my Character looks EXACTLY the same in PSP2 as he did in PSO. And I can promise you when the new PSO comes out I'll be getting that and doing it all over again.
Truth of the matter is, I really do miss those times and I would give almost anything to have that time back with the old crew before we went our separate ways. I know it might sound a little contrary but people and things these days seem to be even more childish and a lot of "he said she said" bickering. I thought all this was suppose to go away once we got older, I thought things were suppose to get simpler for the most part, clearly we were deceived. Things were simpler back then when it was just the couple of us with no real obligations except for our shit jobs and what we were doing every single weekend till the sun came up. I know I'll never get those days back but with that same white knuckle grip I'll hold on to what little bit of them I can. They were some of the best in my life, but I know there's even more still ahead of me.
Today was just a good day with the hubby.
Really relaxing and filled with goofyness
finally the stress of school was off my mind and i could enjoy life a little
Remember, in days gone past
I spied you through a wall of glass
And there you were, kicking my heart back and forth
But now you're not so tall
You wanted the world
You wanted it all
You wanted the world!
So here it is
The planets cry
We'll rip the stellar sky
Make way when worlds collide
I know your heart but still will reconcile your mecha love
You hold your thoughts so tall
You think you've got it all
You won't break the armor
I will never surrender
Take a walk
So this is the last stand
So this is your last chance
So this is your last
You wanted the world
You wanted it all
'Cause I'm ready for war
My exoskeleton
I'm not a passenger, I am the carrier
I know this vessel will withstand our love, your mecha love
I've got you figured out
You won't break the armor
I will never surrender
Take a walk
So this is the last stand
So this is your last chance
So this is your last
You wanted the world
You wanted it all
So this is the last stand
So this is your last chance
Take a walk
So this is the last stand
So this is your last chance
It's not actually from any of the animes, but the armor I want to do has a very "Masamune" feel to it so I wanted to use it and I'm also going to need someone to make my Seburo C26A as well.Here's a picture of the armor I'd like to use but in all black.
I was planning on making some Seburo stuff for myself if you like if they come out good enough I could cast one for you as well.., Have I ever showed you my Halo helms or the odst silenced SMG that I made?
I've got a couple other pictures of it, also it's from the new Total Recall movie. so they can use that as more source material. And no you haven't shown me.
Also. Nice downprop, Novacain. 
